And the beat goes on...
Well today was quite interesting. Fo' sure. Actually it wasn't. I got a purdy dress for 8 bucks though. That's right cheap as dirt. My stomach feels kinda queazy and I'm getting those dizzy spells again. I hope it snows tomorrow. I feel like I'm on something. No wait..I'm not my mother. Who is now at the moment hopped up on narcotics. Oh I just love telling the story of...hey my mom met courtney love...and then a long pause....at a drug rehab. Yeah I guess I love my mom...my old mom which died about 6 years ago or so. Sad isn't it? Cry me a rivvvvverrrrr...cuz I won't delivvverr. Throdl. fuckright. Sometimes I hate feeling so independent. What a trooper I am. Ha I want June Cleaver to be my mother and Ozzy Osbourne as my dad. What a great fucking Brady Bunch that would be. I also got a cool shirt yesterday. Yep. I have money also. My bass is still out of tune because I'm too lazy to fix it. I feel so blank and numb. Shit a thought of Jay just crossed my mind. Yeah I'm crazy about him. No I can't explain why so stop asking me...and no I have no goddamn clue if he's working or not. I don't even know if he's alive or not. I wonder if he cares if I'M alive or not. I should just forget him for the best..too bad I've been trying for a year now. I am a sucker to say the least. Razz and I had an interesting conversation about bobbleheads and the Jacksons..don't ask unless you are turned on by creepy things..or just don't ask. I WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS HOUSE SO BAD. I don't know what to do. If my parents split and actually move out for once...I don't want to live with my mom....but if I don't she'd prob. end up klling herself by overdose of oxycontin or something. If she dies from any sort of narcotic overdose I'm going to slit the doctor's troats. Vulgar much? Happy bunnies and bright blue skies kind of thoughts Steph cuz' we are alllllll sooooooooo normal.! :-D