cuz ive been there before
i have to do a project on who i am for english. how am i supposed to do that when i dont even know who i am anymore?
i was happy for a while. at least i thought i was happy. but now it seems like everythings falling apart. and everyones falling away.
he used to mean so much to me, and i thought he cared. but he could care less if i ever existed in the first place. he doesnt even look at me anymore. what did i do wrong? he still hurts me and hes not a part of my life. theres something wrong with me. i dont know what. i try to think of the last time i was happy. like actually really happy, and i cant even remember. maybe it was in 6th grade when someone told me i was one of the happiest people they knew. it jinxed me. i want ot be happy without someone. but i cant. i couldnt be happy with him or without him. hes an asshole. i wish i could find the tings that made me happy before he happened. find my way back to the person i was before he happened. but i cant because he wont let me. he doesnt realize that he hurt me. i hate it. i just want to forget about him. ill try.
i want her to be happy. more than anything. she means so much to me. i dont think she knows that. ive told her. but i still dont think she knows. she shouldnt have to deal with everyones bullshit. she doesnt deserve that. shes been throught a lot. and all i want to do is take away all of her pain and saddness. forever. but i dont know how. i hate it when she cries. i know she does too. shee too beautiful to cry. but i cant dont know what to do to make her feel better. but ill be there. because i know where she is right now, cuz ive been there before.
i was happy for a while. at least i thought i was happy. but now it seems like everythings falling apart. and everyones falling away.
he used to mean so much to me, and i thought he cared. but he could care less if i ever existed in the first place. he doesnt even look at me anymore. what did i do wrong? he still hurts me and hes not a part of my life. theres something wrong with me. i dont know what. i try to think of the last time i was happy. like actually really happy, and i cant even remember. maybe it was in 6th grade when someone told me i was one of the happiest people they knew. it jinxed me. i want ot be happy without someone. but i cant. i couldnt be happy with him or without him. hes an asshole. i wish i could find the tings that made me happy before he happened. find my way back to the person i was before he happened. but i cant because he wont let me. he doesnt realize that he hurt me. i hate it. i just want to forget about him. ill try.
i want her to be happy. more than anything. she means so much to me. i dont think she knows that. ive told her. but i still dont think she knows. she shouldnt have to deal with everyones bullshit. she doesnt deserve that. shes been throught a lot. and all i want to do is take away all of her pain and saddness. forever. but i dont know how. i hate it when she cries. i know she does too. shee too beautiful to cry. but i cant dont know what to do to make her feel better. but ill be there. because i know where she is right now, cuz ive been there before.