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Life = you
Forever waiting
attempts at thought
fuel for nothing
far from forever always
crumbling semblance of conscious thought
nothing real nothing seeming
So my life is struggling to get my homework done just to realize that i have more due. It is also spending as much time with Rachael as i can. It is very rarely filled with video games. sigh my life has changed greatly. Today was the first day in a while that i completely devoted to video games i beat baten kaitos which was a really great game (even though i glad to be finished with it -over 50 hours is a lot of time to spend on a relatively linear closed game). It ends happy the hero get the girl who was supposed to have died, the evil god was realeased into death, and every one lives happily ever after as they all struugle to rebuild the world.
How often have i come to want a life a world like that in fantasy. YOu know a world with 50 to 100 people tops. Where you have huge cities that has a weapon shop an item sho pa magic shop two houses and a castle that has 6 rooms 5 gaurds and you can just walk in and see the king, but no to live in a world and to be able to make a difference in the course of the worlds history is something i wish i could attain. I mean what with are 10 billion or so people it is kinda hard for one to change the course of history. Oh we have important figures people whose names will live on forever but did they actually do. Not much.
I'm tired of this world of figure-head and bearacracies (i can't spell so what).
anyways off to sleep
Forever waiting
attempts at thought
fuel for nothing
far from forever always
crumbling semblance of conscious thought
nothing real nothing seeming
So my life is struggling to get my homework done just to realize that i have more due. It is also spending as much time with Rachael as i can. It is very rarely filled with video games. sigh my life has changed greatly. Today was the first day in a while that i completely devoted to video games i beat baten kaitos which was a really great game (even though i glad to be finished with it -over 50 hours is a lot of time to spend on a relatively linear closed game). It ends happy the hero get the girl who was supposed to have died, the evil god was realeased into death, and every one lives happily ever after as they all struugle to rebuild the world.
How often have i come to want a life a world like that in fantasy. YOu know a world with 50 to 100 people tops. Where you have huge cities that has a weapon shop an item sho pa magic shop two houses and a castle that has 6 rooms 5 gaurds and you can just walk in and see the king, but no to live in a world and to be able to make a difference in the course of the worlds history is something i wish i could attain. I mean what with are 10 billion or so people it is kinda hard for one to change the course of history. Oh we have important figures people whose names will live on forever but did they actually do. Not much.
I'm tired of this world of figure-head and bearacracies (i can't spell so what).
anyways off to sleep