ive never been this hurt before
Well me n Raymond are offically broken up! He told me on thuresday...right before my freaken birthday, that he no longer has feelings for me. After that we talked for a while and decided we were ganna take a break, but he was still ganna come with me to Wilt Chamberlans on my Birthday so after we come back we all hang out at my house for a while and then i took ray home n we talked and he looked at me and told me he thinks that he still loves me. So all day saterday we didnt hang out but we talked that night after we talked we were texing for a lil and he wrote me that he knows he said he was confused but he knows what he wants n he said that he wants me and wants me to love him for ever. So sunday since everything seemed good i thought id bring him over his skateboard so i called him told hm i was bringing it over...well that was a mistake cause his friend were all there n my friends were all with me and make a long story short...he told me he was still confuse and ended it. The way feel right no is undiscribeable, my insides feel torn to peices and i cant stop crying i fell like my whole world has been torn apart...because he was my world i did everything with him and i loved him sooo much, no 1 ever cared for me or looked at me the way he did, he made me feel something that ill never forget and no matter what he'll always have a peice of my heart. Were suppose to talk on the 8th cause thats are 11th month anaversary so i cant call him or text him till then....even tho he text me today sayin how hes sory n he never ment to hurt me. Neways thats whats going on...i havent had n entry like this n a while...theyve all benn happy..but not this one. I HATE ALLL OF THIS I WANT IT TO ALL GO AWAY...and saterday its all ganna go away...at leaset for that night...i hope