"He says: Son, time is all the luck you need..."
‘Go home’ it said. For no reason at all, go home and write about what you’re not going to do.
That would be my mind speaking.
My mind changes at the drop of a hat. Like a light switch turning on and off, it does as it sees fit and my body simply follows. Today there were several places I wanted to go and several things I was hoping to attain. After going to the bank, which I knew I had to do, and then to Meijer’s to get an item that wasn’t even mine, I proceeded toward the other locations I had hoped to go.
En route to the first place I decided not to go there in favor of the second place. Both of which had the same item I planned on looking at and eventually purchasing. Memory serving from the last visit to the first place, made me decide it was not worth the trip. I drove to the second place, wandered aimlessly for several minutes, bought a movie and two CD’s and then left without getting the one item. I did go there for. I looked at the items and compared them all and talked myself out of getting one.
The third place was to get a new phone, after that was supposed to be the mall.
While at the second place I decided to wait until I got to the mall to see if they had a store that sold what I had talked myself out of buying. I’m still not sure if they do. I left the second place, went to the phone store, walked in and was met with a full desk at which all five salespeople were busy, a line of four customers trailing from it and a full customer service desk (with three busy workers) with a line there as well. The woman working the door asked to check me in so that I could speak to the next available salesperson. I told her who I was there to see, gave her my information and then walked over to look at the phones.
I stood looking at the phone I was supposed to get and after noticing that the price had gone up in the week I had been gone, I once again talked myself out of buying it. I still may but at the time, there was no way I was getting it. I stared at the price and for reasons I cannot explain a feeling of failure overtook me. As though I had waited too long and it was my fault that price had gone up and I was a failure for not buying it earlier knowing I needed it earlier. Turning to see the line had only moved up for one customer I felt I should no longer be in that building. Without letting the check-in woman know I was leaving I walked out the door and to my car.
Perhaps I should have said something to her but I had no desire to speak to anyone. I left there and drove back down the road toward the mall, and passed every entrance to it without hesitation. Came back here and began writing this…
And I still don’t know why.
So, tomorrow I’m going to make a second attempt to get everything else I was supposed to get today and I already don’t want to. We shall see I guess.
Now? Now I eat lunch.
ETC.
That would be my mind speaking.
My mind changes at the drop of a hat. Like a light switch turning on and off, it does as it sees fit and my body simply follows. Today there were several places I wanted to go and several things I was hoping to attain. After going to the bank, which I knew I had to do, and then to Meijer’s to get an item that wasn’t even mine, I proceeded toward the other locations I had hoped to go.
En route to the first place I decided not to go there in favor of the second place. Both of which had the same item I planned on looking at and eventually purchasing. Memory serving from the last visit to the first place, made me decide it was not worth the trip. I drove to the second place, wandered aimlessly for several minutes, bought a movie and two CD’s and then left without getting the one item. I did go there for. I looked at the items and compared them all and talked myself out of getting one.
The third place was to get a new phone, after that was supposed to be the mall.
While at the second place I decided to wait until I got to the mall to see if they had a store that sold what I had talked myself out of buying. I’m still not sure if they do. I left the second place, went to the phone store, walked in and was met with a full desk at which all five salespeople were busy, a line of four customers trailing from it and a full customer service desk (with three busy workers) with a line there as well. The woman working the door asked to check me in so that I could speak to the next available salesperson. I told her who I was there to see, gave her my information and then walked over to look at the phones.
I stood looking at the phone I was supposed to get and after noticing that the price had gone up in the week I had been gone, I once again talked myself out of buying it. I still may but at the time, there was no way I was getting it. I stared at the price and for reasons I cannot explain a feeling of failure overtook me. As though I had waited too long and it was my fault that price had gone up and I was a failure for not buying it earlier knowing I needed it earlier. Turning to see the line had only moved up for one customer I felt I should no longer be in that building. Without letting the check-in woman know I was leaving I walked out the door and to my car.
Perhaps I should have said something to her but I had no desire to speak to anyone. I left there and drove back down the road toward the mall, and passed every entrance to it without hesitation. Came back here and began writing this…
And I still don’t know why.
So, tomorrow I’m going to make a second attempt to get everything else I was supposed to get today and I already don’t want to. We shall see I guess.
Now? Now I eat lunch.
ETC.