Maybe I'll do this again...
I have type 2 diabetes.
Looking back over the last 6-8 months I can see where all the symptoms started, track how they came together to paint the picture. I couldn't see the whole picture, though.
Drink a lot of water? I'm just being healthy!
Pee a lot? I drink a lot, hence a lot of pee!
Dry mouth? A listed side effect of my Lexapro...never mind I only started getting it now and I've been on Lexapro for YEARS!
Lower leg cramps? Potassium deficiency!
Overeating and craving sweets? Yeah I had nothing for that one other than stress and maybe laziness.
Wonky menstration? Something wrong with my BC pill!
Hair loss? Not to worry! It's just shedding cuz...well...okay that had me worried.
It was my hair stylist, Amy, that encouraged me to go to the doctor. I wouldn't have gone if she hadn't said something about how my hair was so different. Thin and breaking easily. I told her today that she helped save my life.
I didn't want to go to the doctor because I hate/fear needles and blood tests. I put my big girl pants on and did it, though. I went for the results on Tuesday 12/18/12 and have been on an emotional roller coaster since.
I'm hoping that if I write some of this down it'll help me process. I have so many thoughts about my illness. I think about them and then I want to go write them down but then I can't process so I give it up as a bad job.
I feel like I'm hungry all the time now. I'm restricted to 1800 calories a day by my doctor. I'm making myself eat less sugar and carbs on my own. I've done research on diabetic diets and have been making life/eating changes. John has been SO wonderfully supportive and awesome and everything! He bought me TONS of non-fat yogurt so I can have a variety of flavors to choose from.
I have a meter to test my blood glucose and I'm using MyFitnessPal to keep track of my food.
Mom is cooking all diabetic friendly recepies for Christmas Day. I told her she didn't have to but she says she wants to cuz we all should be eating healthier.
I have SO MUCH SUPPORT. Hope has been amazing. Callista is sending me recepies. Kara goes to CVS with me and is my reality check through the work day. Scott makes me laugh.
I'm learning to cook! Baking fish is so easy! I have plans. Culinary plans!
I'm trying not to expect too much too fast, but I was proud today when my BG was 259 two hours after lunch. My original blood test showed it at 412. 412 is crazy high.
I can't describe how much BETTER I feel now. It's like night and day. I didn't realize how sick I was until it all started easing off. Now I see it and I have to wonder how I lived feeling like that for so long.
I'm coming to accept needles. I'm pretty much down with lancing my fingers twice a day. Those spring loaded jobbies work well! In 3-ish weeks I'll have to go back to the doctor for a follow up which will mean more blood work. This is my life now. Luckily for me Dr. Bennett is amazing at taking blood.
Exercise is going to be my stumbling block. I walked the elliptical last night and will do it again tonight. It's not fun. I have better motivation now, though. Jabbing my finger twice a day is bad enough. Letting this devolve into type 1 would mean many many more needles..so that's motivation number 2.
I almost cut my hair today. I called Amy first and she talked me out of it. It's just so thin and feels unhealthy to me even though it looks alright. She had sage words to talk me down with, though. I appreciate that, as I'm sure John does as well.
I'm almost out of words. It's only been four...no, three and a half days since treatment began and while I'm already feeling better I have to remember it's a marathon not a sprint. I can't get caught up in the short term.
New food moto - "A moment on the LIPS - three months in my blood sugar!"
Looking back over the last 6-8 months I can see where all the symptoms started, track how they came together to paint the picture. I couldn't see the whole picture, though.
Drink a lot of water? I'm just being healthy!
Pee a lot? I drink a lot, hence a lot of pee!
Dry mouth? A listed side effect of my Lexapro...never mind I only started getting it now and I've been on Lexapro for YEARS!
Lower leg cramps? Potassium deficiency!
Overeating and craving sweets? Yeah I had nothing for that one other than stress and maybe laziness.
Wonky menstration? Something wrong with my BC pill!
Hair loss? Not to worry! It's just shedding cuz...well...okay that had me worried.
It was my hair stylist, Amy, that encouraged me to go to the doctor. I wouldn't have gone if she hadn't said something about how my hair was so different. Thin and breaking easily. I told her today that she helped save my life.
I didn't want to go to the doctor because I hate/fear needles and blood tests. I put my big girl pants on and did it, though. I went for the results on Tuesday 12/18/12 and have been on an emotional roller coaster since.
I'm hoping that if I write some of this down it'll help me process. I have so many thoughts about my illness. I think about them and then I want to go write them down but then I can't process so I give it up as a bad job.
I feel like I'm hungry all the time now. I'm restricted to 1800 calories a day by my doctor. I'm making myself eat less sugar and carbs on my own. I've done research on diabetic diets and have been making life/eating changes. John has been SO wonderfully supportive and awesome and everything! He bought me TONS of non-fat yogurt so I can have a variety of flavors to choose from.
I have a meter to test my blood glucose and I'm using MyFitnessPal to keep track of my food.
Mom is cooking all diabetic friendly recepies for Christmas Day. I told her she didn't have to but she says she wants to cuz we all should be eating healthier.
I have SO MUCH SUPPORT. Hope has been amazing. Callista is sending me recepies. Kara goes to CVS with me and is my reality check through the work day. Scott makes me laugh.
I'm learning to cook! Baking fish is so easy! I have plans. Culinary plans!
I'm trying not to expect too much too fast, but I was proud today when my BG was 259 two hours after lunch. My original blood test showed it at 412. 412 is crazy high.
I can't describe how much BETTER I feel now. It's like night and day. I didn't realize how sick I was until it all started easing off. Now I see it and I have to wonder how I lived feeling like that for so long.
I'm coming to accept needles. I'm pretty much down with lancing my fingers twice a day. Those spring loaded jobbies work well! In 3-ish weeks I'll have to go back to the doctor for a follow up which will mean more blood work. This is my life now. Luckily for me Dr. Bennett is amazing at taking blood.
Exercise is going to be my stumbling block. I walked the elliptical last night and will do it again tonight. It's not fun. I have better motivation now, though. Jabbing my finger twice a day is bad enough. Letting this devolve into type 1 would mean many many more needles..so that's motivation number 2.
I almost cut my hair today. I called Amy first and she talked me out of it. It's just so thin and feels unhealthy to me even though it looks alright. She had sage words to talk me down with, though. I appreciate that, as I'm sure John does as well.
I'm almost out of words. It's only been four...no, three and a half days since treatment began and while I'm already feeling better I have to remember it's a marathon not a sprint. I can't get caught up in the short term.
New food moto - "A moment on the LIPS - three months in my blood sugar!"