hala

[fidgetystickler]

feel like im dying a little
like how i see the whole world is changing
or how it sees me
i have looked out over the great expanse
and imagined it's infinite depth
and now i fear my own illusion

i cannot succumb to delusion
reality is my thing
but what is really going on
is not the simplest question
it invokes infinite processes
with endless reflections

my path is not clear
my footsteps uncertain
third eye vision blurred
like i was just birthed in

the only sure step is to tread carefully
no one else can make this reality for me
calling out for myself to be
like taking fire in a war reversal lobotomy
being an adult child isnt easy

the chance to grow yourself up
to plant your own seeds
to build your own minds roots
and grow your own leaves
to be by yourself
is scary to me
id rather be in a forest of trees