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Fic: It Only Hurts When I Breathe

Nov 01, 2011 01:11

Title: It Only Hurts When I Breathe
Rating: R
Pairings/Characters: Blaine, Wes, Mrs. Anderson
Warnings: MAJOR, MAJOR TRIGGER WARNINGS FOR VIVID IMAGES AND DESCRIPTIONS OF SELF-HARM AND A SUICIDE ATTEMPT.
Word Count: ~6700
Summary: Blaine hasn't been himself for weeks, but it isn't until Wes is startled awake at 3AM by a hysterical Blaine that the ( Read more... )

rating: r, genre: hurt/comfort, length: oneshot, media: fanfic, please hear me calling, blaine anderson, genre: angst

Comments 10

likeasouffle November 2 2011, 18:23:17 UTC

Oh my god, that was heartbreaking. Wes' reactions all felt so real. Excellent writing. Great work!

preciousmellow November 3 2011, 02:20:16 UTC

This just. Ugh. I was in tears. It probably wasn't a good idea to read it so sleep deprived but. I was fine until the letter that Blaine wrote Wes, and then the dam broke. I could just feel the intense emotions Blaine is going through in that letter, how much he WANTS to change and get better, but how hard it is and how he's still not sure if he ever really can. Poor Wes, but I'm so glad that Blaine has him as a friend. I love your version of Wes and I take my hat off to him. This was amazing, lovely, but so heart wrenching. You didn't just tug at my heart strings, you ripped them out and threw them to the ground and stomped on them. But it was so real and, like everything you write, so amazing (and so, so sad). A million hugs for you.

fides_rationem November 3 2011, 03:21:16 UTC

Ugh i always love your reviews because they're detailed and ugh. So many tackle hugs your way. So many.

This one was pretty much intended to do just that (i.e. destroy you haha) without much sense of resolution, because obviously for Blaine at this point there isn't that. There's still lingering doubt and lingering fear that it's never going to get better. This one speaks emotionally to where I am right now-that limbo of "doing fine but waiting for the other shoe to drop."

Eventually I'll give Blaine the resolution he deserves but not yet haha :)

preciousmellow November 3 2011, 19:36:01 UTC

Can I give you all the hugs I want to give to Blaine? Because I think you're amazing and awesome and I want only the best for you. <3 For realz, hit me up on tumblr if you ever want/need/don't-really-need-but-want-to-anyways to talk. Cause I like you.

pushplaytobegin November 4 2011, 07:18:40 UTC

For a story that begins someplace earlier and won't end until sometime in the future, this is beautifully self-contained and resonant. I love Wes's vulnerability and loyalty, and Blaine's letter was so touching. How hard for everyone.

fides_rationem November 5 2011, 02:25:31 UTC

Thank you so much for your feedback! (LJ notifications are messing up for me-I just saw it). I've loved your fics for a while so I flailed a bit when I saw your comment. This is definitely a work in progress of a universe or w/e-it comes to me when I need to write the emotions, but it comes in fits and starts and I don't think Blaine will ever get ~full resolution in the 'verse because I'm not sure I personally ever will.

But I'm glad Wes came across like I wanted him to, as did the letter. Thank you for reading!!

seanix00bs November 5 2011, 16:10:42 UTC

I love how you tell the many sides of Blaine's condition, and this was just as heart wrenching as the other ones.. Thats one intense letter, and i really like how honest it was and that no false promises were made..

juliahearts December 29 2011, 06:08:16 UTC

God, I can't even explain in words how breathtakingly beautiful and heartbreaking this was. Just absolutely amazing. The letter seriously brought tears to my eyes.