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Im in the bay right now, as you all know, and getting excited about going down to see Andi in about 12 hours. I just miss all of you so much. I had forgotten how comfortable I can be, how 'me' I can be, and that's really cool. Yesterday was so chill and yet as I was falling asleep around 2am I realized how un-chill things have been for me, and how refreshing it was to have a day like that.
Mike and Mike, and Dennis, and Joel (Im sooo sorry I didn't get to see his play, if anyone sees him, send my apologies) and Adric, and Susan, and Mya, and Jared and others who don't have LJ, and even Beth, it was so nice to be around all of these people who I can be totally honest around, not just in what I say, but in how I am. And I don't feel like I have to constantly apologize for who I am around y'all (although I probably do anyways) because, Christ, it's been over 2 years for most of us, and you have all stuck by me though so much, and Im so fucking grateful I don't think you'll ever know.
I'm so glad that through all the drama and distance I still have good friends. And I do, I don't even have to say something defensively sarcastic like "well, at least I think y'all are my friends..."> I don't, because I KNOW. There are very few things I know. I will always love all of you so much, even if for some reason I hate you some day, I'll still love you. Im being sentimental but so what, I need to sometimes.
So thanks...
-Heather
PS: Andi, don't feel left out because you're not here. You know that you will always be the shit of the shit in my eyes. And tomorrow is going to be great. Thank you for being my best girlfriend through all. You call and listen and make me laugh, and you forgive, I don't know how the hell you do it. Can't wait to see you Chubbs.
Mike and Mike, and Dennis, and Joel (Im sooo sorry I didn't get to see his play, if anyone sees him, send my apologies) and Adric, and Susan, and Mya, and Jared and others who don't have LJ, and even Beth, it was so nice to be around all of these people who I can be totally honest around, not just in what I say, but in how I am. And I don't feel like I have to constantly apologize for who I am around y'all (although I probably do anyways) because, Christ, it's been over 2 years for most of us, and you have all stuck by me though so much, and Im so fucking grateful I don't think you'll ever know.
I'm so glad that through all the drama and distance I still have good friends. And I do, I don't even have to say something defensively sarcastic like "well, at least I think y'all are my friends..."> I don't, because I KNOW. There are very few things I know. I will always love all of you so much, even if for some reason I hate you some day, I'll still love you. Im being sentimental but so what, I need to sometimes.
So thanks...
-Heather
PS: Andi, don't feel left out because you're not here. You know that you will always be the shit of the shit in my eyes. And tomorrow is going to be great. Thank you for being my best girlfriend through all. You call and listen and make me laugh, and you forgive, I don't know how the hell you do it. Can't wait to see you Chubbs.