[Private Lock] What the hell am I doing?
Did I really do that this summer? Did I really conspire with George to basically sneak the baby to him so he can bond with her in a way that isn't just her uncle, but her daddy?
George and I are always missing each other. Things are always going to be too soon or too late, but he's so desperate and determined about being cleaned up and all he has to do is look at me the right way and of course I want to help him, even when it's disastrous.
Am I really friends with a woman who more or less got her own half-brother so wasted that she got him to fuck her (not that George ain't at fault too, it takes two to tango and you can't rape the willing) to conceive a child to get her hands on Byron money?
The truth is, I've got nothing Leigh wants, so she's not got anything she wants to do to me. She doesn't want to hurt me because I'm of no use, except to putter after her like I did when we were kids, and I was so crazy loyal to her because ohmygosh another mix-race girl! and I don't know how she looks at me anymore. She was there for me when Momma died. She also slept with me when Momma died. Was that comfort? Was it her getting off on my pain?
Am I really gonna watch John marry Leigh and claim paternity of a child that not only isn't his, but is born of incest - which he knows?
Why is John doing this? For the money? He's enduring all the fuss I've made over him in spades (ha ha) and complies with my requests, but he doesn't love Leigh and the baby isn't his and he's giving up his goddamned life because he loves George and goddammit, we all love George, don't we?
It's why we're all bending over backwards.
I need a beer. Well, as my Momma would put it, "something for the constitution".
George and I are always missing each other. Things are always going to be too soon or too late, but he's so desperate and determined about being cleaned up and all he has to do is look at me the right way and of course I want to help him, even when it's disastrous.
Am I really friends with a woman who more or less got her own half-brother so wasted that she got him to fuck her (not that George ain't at fault too, it takes two to tango and you can't rape the willing) to conceive a child to get her hands on Byron money?
The truth is, I've got nothing Leigh wants, so she's not got anything she wants to do to me. She doesn't want to hurt me because I'm of no use, except to putter after her like I did when we were kids, and I was so crazy loyal to her because ohmygosh another mix-race girl! and I don't know how she looks at me anymore. She was there for me when Momma died. She also slept with me when Momma died. Was that comfort? Was it her getting off on my pain?
Am I really gonna watch John marry Leigh and claim paternity of a child that not only isn't his, but is born of incest - which he knows?
Why is John doing this? For the money? He's enduring all the fuss I've made over him in spades (ha ha) and complies with my requests, but he doesn't love Leigh and the baby isn't his and he's giving up his goddamned life because he loves George and goddammit, we all love George, don't we?
It's why we're all bending over backwards.
I need a beer. Well, as my Momma would put it, "something for the constitution".