[Supernatural]: Beneath the Trees, Where Nobody Sees

[minviendha]

Title: Beneath the Trees, Where Nobody Sees
Fandom: Supernatural
Prompt: "What I'd love to see is Sam deciding to stay with his family instead of going to Stanford after his father gives him the ultimatum. The hunting life slowly begins to eat away at Sam, & his family can see it happening." by letoist at ohsam.
Summary: Hunting wears you down.
Notes: This fic

Comments

[katwoman76]

That's depressing. Poor Sammy. :´(

[minviendha]

Thank you? I hope. >> ...yeaaaah this happens to me a lot.

[emmram]

I didn't want to read this. I knew it'd break me. I knew it would. But I read it anyway, because, well, it's you, and I'm apparently a glutton for heartbreak.

This was terrifying and sad and absolutely the worst I can imagine for Sam. And the writing - bleak, yet so gutting.

Only I, he thought in the quiet spaces of his thoughts that were only his, could do something to try to avoid tearing us apart, and manage it anyway.

Oh, Sam. *sobs*

Awesome, awesome work!

[minviendha]

slkjdf, I am sorry I made you sad, but -? Have a cookie, or something. This fandom, I swear, it brings out all the worst in me. I'm glad the relatively sparse (for me) writing worked for you, because I was trying to do something with it and not sure how it worked.

That line I think is one of my personal favorites/most awfuls in this fic.

If it helps, you're not the only one who's a glutton for heartbreak? I'm always doing this to myself.

Thank you so much!

picnic

[auroramama]

That's fantastic. I will go read the story you praised, to see if I'd read it before. But this was quite satisfying. And I think there's room to tell a hundred different stories about that point of decision, and this is a good one. That last smile of Sam's is... wickedly ambiguous of you.

[minviendha]

Thank you! I - really liked the other story, but there are plenty of places to go with this idea. I was just concerned that having read the other one before - sometimes things leak in more than I want them to.

Wickedly ambiguous is apparently a thing for me lately. >> Thank you for commenting!

[cece_away]

John might have just killed Sam, knocked all the fire out of him with the loss of his dreams. Love the stark flow of this. Fitting with the depression.

[minviendha]

I do kind of have that feeling. There's just not much left in this version of Sam, I don't feel like - he's drained in the worst of ways.

Thank you.

[de_nugis]

I love how, I don't know, unindulgent this is -- it doesn't wallow in Sam's pain, it really gets across the feel of what depression is actually like, because the problem is exactly that you don't feel sad, you've lost that range of feeling just as much as happy. And, yeah. Part of Sam in canon might have wished that he'd never gone to Stanford, since he just ended up losing everything he'd built there and having Jess die because of him, but I think breaking away when he did was necessary for him, that he would have lost even more by staying.

[minviendha]

I've been really into - sort of understatedness in writing lately? So I guess that's what I was trying for, and I'm really glad it carried over, because that really is it - the loss of the range of emotion is just as bad as anything. And yeah, while I think that he does and fandom also seems to be inclined to make noise about that decision - I just can't see it ending better if he had stayed.

Which is...what you said. >> Anyway, delighted to see you here (I've loved what I've read of your fic) and thank you for commenting. <3