senioritis: more than a mental "disease"
i am really not liking my senior year. fuck the senior project. i have my senior project so far up my ass it feels like it's about to pop out of my mouth. then there's the whole thing of figuring out what i'll do after high school is finally over; where will i live? how will i make money? where will i go to school? will i go to school anyway? it's extremely stressful, but at the same time it's alot of fun. the main problem is that i've realized that i just don't care anymore. i'm ready to just go. it's that scary "about to become an adult" thing that's been itching at my psyche since August. it's a feeling that, for the most part, stays idle in the back of my mind. then there are times when it sneaks it's way out and i don't quite know what to do with myself. call it an insecurity if you will. call it lack of maturity. spit whatever the fuck you want onto it, bake it, and throw it back in my face because i know what my limits are as a person and i know what i can take and sometimes there's only so much one person can figure out on their own. i'm so sick of school, yet it's kind of weird thinking about what comes after.
weird...in an exciting way. as creepy and messed up as it may be, it's also very exciting because, hello, i'll be a damn adult. woot woot.
becoming an adult is definitely a double edged sword. take it with salt. yep.
i'm a little baby. it's sickening.
and anna is very cool. muffinxcore. woot! seriously though, we're the same damn person. MUFFIN. who the fuck came up with muffin, anyway?!
some important dates for EVERYONE to remember:
Feb. 5,2005 - Dave's birthday. Chris's Birthday. but most importantly, BRIGHT EYES AT HOUSE OF BLUES. you better believe my ass will be there.
Feb. 10, 2005 - MY BIRTHDAY! (eighteen, bitch. you best reco'nize!) and HEAD AUTOMATICA AT HOUSE OF BLUES. once again, i will be there. woot woot.
i must attend those two shows. if not, my world will surely collapse into a pile of rubble. ::note the drama in that statement::
weird...in an exciting way. as creepy and messed up as it may be, it's also very exciting because, hello, i'll be a damn adult. woot woot.
becoming an adult is definitely a double edged sword. take it with salt. yep.
i'm a little baby. it's sickening.
and anna is very cool. muffinxcore. woot! seriously though, we're the same damn person. MUFFIN. who the fuck came up with muffin, anyway?!
some important dates for EVERYONE to remember:
Feb. 5,2005 - Dave's birthday. Chris's Birthday. but most importantly, BRIGHT EYES AT HOUSE OF BLUES. you better believe my ass will be there.
Feb. 10, 2005 - MY BIRTHDAY! (eighteen, bitch. you best reco'nize!) and HEAD AUTOMATICA AT HOUSE OF BLUES. once again, i will be there. woot woot.
i must attend those two shows. if not, my world will surely collapse into a pile of rubble. ::note the drama in that statement::