the selfless acts
The selfless acts make the world go round. "When you do something right, no one will be sure if you did anything at all." Or something like that. But, when you start to enjoy your selfless acts and start thinking you're a good person just because you're doing them, you're on a slippery slop to misplaced arrogance and self rightousness. The way to truely be selfless is to suffer through every second of them.
Now, if I were to say that I think that I'm doing the right thing because it pains me to do it, it could be taken that I'm enjoying the pain because its the right things to do. Fortunately, I'm not so noble. I hate doing the right thing. I want nothing more than to destroy the right things, cast it into a black pit, and then rule over the wrong world with a tyrranical fist. But, I'm not so cold hearted anymore. I'm stuck doing the right thing, not for glory or some idea that I'm a good person. I'm not a good person but I'm not a bad person either. I'm just someone doing my part to help someone else have happiness and like I said in Equivilent Exchange, I hold no grudges against people that find happiness through the sacrifice of my own.
Now, if I were to say that I think that I'm doing the right thing because it pains me to do it, it could be taken that I'm enjoying the pain because its the right things to do. Fortunately, I'm not so noble. I hate doing the right thing. I want nothing more than to destroy the right things, cast it into a black pit, and then rule over the wrong world with a tyrranical fist. But, I'm not so cold hearted anymore. I'm stuck doing the right thing, not for glory or some idea that I'm a good person. I'm not a good person but I'm not a bad person either. I'm just someone doing my part to help someone else have happiness and like I said in Equivilent Exchange, I hold no grudges against people that find happiness through the sacrifice of my own.