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i have a date on saturday with a good friend of mine, i feel like all i've been waiting for is coming my way, even if i still don't know what that is.
i don't know why, but i feel happy, like things are finally about to fall into place again.
i'm content for right now, i'm not worried about a single thing like i used to be, even if i should be at this point.
the new term starts at school monday and i can't wait.
i really fucked up the last one and i just can't wait to get a fresh start.
darren and i are working things out, its one of those things that only time can heal, but he's trying and i'm going to try to not let him have so much effect over me anymore.
i have more self-confidence, and self-esteem than i had a month ago and being able to look back on that month and notice the change in things gives me hope again.
even though i think nichole has exited graceland for a while, i'm beginning to grow okay with it. i've even went as far as to expect a completely different woman than the one i planned to grow old with. she promised me when i was 12 that when i got older, she would take me everywhere with her and her friends would be my friends and she kept to that promise, so i have good faith that she'll keep to the promise she made me two years ago and return to me when the time is right so we can grow old together.
all in all, i'm okay. things are different now, but i can't help but look forward to all things that never stay the same.
i don't know why, but i feel happy, like things are finally about to fall into place again.
i'm content for right now, i'm not worried about a single thing like i used to be, even if i should be at this point.
the new term starts at school monday and i can't wait.
i really fucked up the last one and i just can't wait to get a fresh start.
darren and i are working things out, its one of those things that only time can heal, but he's trying and i'm going to try to not let him have so much effect over me anymore.
i have more self-confidence, and self-esteem than i had a month ago and being able to look back on that month and notice the change in things gives me hope again.
even though i think nichole has exited graceland for a while, i'm beginning to grow okay with it. i've even went as far as to expect a completely different woman than the one i planned to grow old with. she promised me when i was 12 that when i got older, she would take me everywhere with her and her friends would be my friends and she kept to that promise, so i have good faith that she'll keep to the promise she made me two years ago and return to me when the time is right so we can grow old together.
all in all, i'm okay. things are different now, but i can't help but look forward to all things that never stay the same.