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I must admit, the idea of casually dating/fucking/whatevering is so nauseating to me I can't even explain it. I love beginnings, they're so cute and fun, but going out and meeting people and going through terrible first dates or random hookups and all of that crap that comes along with finding a new relationship is just something I have no desire to deal with. I wish that a decent guy who is capable of emoting and not being an idiot 100% of the time would just walk up to me on the street and we'd live happily ever after. I'm completely incapable of meeting guys in person, seeing as I don't have many friends and I don't really go out very often, and I'm so tired of meeting dudes on the internet. Craigslist really ruined that for me. I put so much time and effort into posting ads, replying to ads, receiving dick business cards, talking to guys that only wanted to fuck me, talking to guys that only wanted to marry me, good first dates, bad first dates, and everything in between back in 2007 that I just have absolutely no desire to go through that again. It's like only the extremely twisted, shady people or the completely socially awkward people are using it, and I've had my share of the best of both worlds. I'm done with that.
Maybe I should just focus on paying off my bills, being myself, moving to Boston, and getting a puppy. I wish I made more money, because then that would all be possible, and I'd have better things to worry about than stupid boys.