pissed off
Tonight is not a good night.
Things I am unhappy about:
Andy just told me he has a one-way ticket and no time left to say goodbye.
Dom just left on a bus for a hippie colony in Kansas with some girl.
He may never be coming back.
Colin is in Costa Rica.
Our landlord will be touring some guy(s) through our house tomorrow at noon.
Our house is dirty and messy and i don't have time to clean it
and I don't think Coby cares enough to move a sock.
I am so embarrassed to be living the life I never thought I would.
I spent an hour at the gym both yesterday and today.
I should be spending longer.
I will be going again tomorrow.
And the next day.
And the next.
I am more lonely than anything.
I want someone to talk to here.
I scroll through my phone,
and can't even find anyone who I'd care to text,
or anyone who would like to receive a text from me
much less a phone call.
There is no one to share my excitement about little things with anymore.
I never cry anymore.
I really want to.
A pile of bills came in the mail today.
I need to pay all of them.
My car is still in the shop.
When it's done (maybe friday?) I'll need to pay that guy too.
With the money I don't have.
(Other intentionally vague things)
I ripped my big toe open on the way to class today on the god-damned uneven sidewalk.
It bled all over my good flip flops by the time I got to class.
I have 3 or so chem labs to finish tonight.
I have no idea how to do one of them.
I need to memorize the 40 equations and reactions he sent us today.
We took our first exam yesterday.
I have no idea how it went.
I am both terrified and anxious to get it back.
I will probably end up shooting myself in the eye.
Speaking of which, there is something wrong with my left eye.
It's been burning all day, and taking contacts out doesn't help.
I don't think there's anything in it.
According to a calorie-counter website,
I had a net intake of 297 calories today.
Unacceptable.
More gym-time and less eating is required.
It is hot and humid and I am tired and worn out.
Every bit of me aches.
I am soon to be physically and mentally and emotionally drained.
I am looking forward to this like you can't even imagine.
Coby probably thinks I am insane.
I have been screaming profanity and shrieking all night.
My computer keeps crashing.
It is all I can do to keep from throwing it out my window.
I still have a whole night's worth of work to do.
Things I am unhappy about:
Andy just told me he has a one-way ticket and no time left to say goodbye.
Dom just left on a bus for a hippie colony in Kansas with some girl.
He may never be coming back.
Colin is in Costa Rica.
Our landlord will be touring some guy(s) through our house tomorrow at noon.
Our house is dirty and messy and i don't have time to clean it
and I don't think Coby cares enough to move a sock.
I am so embarrassed to be living the life I never thought I would.
I spent an hour at the gym both yesterday and today.
I should be spending longer.
I will be going again tomorrow.
And the next day.
And the next.
I am more lonely than anything.
I want someone to talk to here.
I scroll through my phone,
and can't even find anyone who I'd care to text,
or anyone who would like to receive a text from me
much less a phone call.
There is no one to share my excitement about little things with anymore.
I never cry anymore.
I really want to.
A pile of bills came in the mail today.
I need to pay all of them.
My car is still in the shop.
When it's done (maybe friday?) I'll need to pay that guy too.
With the money I don't have.
(Other intentionally vague things)
I ripped my big toe open on the way to class today on the god-damned uneven sidewalk.
It bled all over my good flip flops by the time I got to class.
I have 3 or so chem labs to finish tonight.
I have no idea how to do one of them.
I need to memorize the 40 equations and reactions he sent us today.
We took our first exam yesterday.
I have no idea how it went.
I am both terrified and anxious to get it back.
I will probably end up shooting myself in the eye.
Speaking of which, there is something wrong with my left eye.
It's been burning all day, and taking contacts out doesn't help.
I don't think there's anything in it.
According to a calorie-counter website,
I had a net intake of 297 calories today.
Unacceptable.
More gym-time and less eating is required.
It is hot and humid and I am tired and worn out.
Every bit of me aches.
I am soon to be physically and mentally and emotionally drained.
I am looking forward to this like you can't even imagine.
Coby probably thinks I am insane.
I have been screaming profanity and shrieking all night.
My computer keeps crashing.
It is all I can do to keep from throwing it out my window.
I still have a whole night's worth of work to do.