Gtop fic
**Title: Heartbreaker
**Theme: Heartbreaker
**Pairing: G-top->Top /Jiyoung
- Summary: secret love, rejection and consequences
- Genre: Drama
**Rating: PG
- Warning: It contains violence, inappropriate behavior and drugs
- Author Note: My English is really bad so please forgive me >__<
**Fics Index: http://yenikal.livejournal.com/1856.html
Top was secretly in love with Jiyoung for about three, four years?¿ Maybe he was in love all the time since they meet each others in school and Jiyoung tells him that he love his rap.
A lot of time passed since these days and now Top decided to confess his feelings, is now or never keeps he saying to himself every single minute.
T- Jiyoung, Can I talk with you?
J- mmm, of course
T- Well…mm you know we are friends for years and well I think that friends can’t have secrets, at least not important ones…
J- Ok hyung, is that for your black jacked?¿ because well it was me and not Seungri who…
T- Aish…it wasn’t talking about thta, I was talking about us, about being sincere with each others and…
J- Aah XDDD…did you wanna tell me about my hair too? Because I become sensitive since I’m a blondie hehehe…
T- ¬¬ WTF, Who cares about your hair. Let me speak, it’s important
J- XDDD I’m sorry >__<
T- I was trying to say that I love you!! (super nervous)
J- ….(shocked)
T- Aren’t you gonna say anything?¿
J- Eeh? Mm, hyung I always liked you and I will do it in the future too but I don’t like you in that way…I can’t…I…
T- (sigh) I get it, don’t make it any longer. Rejections have to be short (he leaves the room holding his tears)
J- Hyung!! Hyung, are you all right?
But Top didn’t answer, he already reached the security of his room and looked himself in to cry over his broken heart. It wasn’t ironical?...the person who created and sing heartbreaker just break him into pieces and make him feel the same pain that the song explains.
Top passed all the day locked in his room trying to stop his own tears but he can’t, he wasn’t enough strong. The next day they have a performance so he endured his pain and do his best with a smile in the scenario, but things aren’t the same, things had changed and it hurts. Jiyoung always played with him in the scenario and now he didn’t get any closer and even avoid him.
When the performance was over the group returns home and Top decided to go out and drink alone like always when he was depressed. That night was really long and when he drank the last glass it was already morning. Days and days passed like that and everyday he returned home more and more drunk and debated.
He always thought that he was strong when someone offered him a few grams of cocaine but Jiyoung avoidance was making him weaker with every one of his actions so in the end the stranger has a new client, a vip one.
Two more days passed after that and Top wasn’t him anymore. He thought that anyone’s care about him but he can’t be more wrong, actually his dongsengs were really worried, especially Jiyoung who feels guilty like it was his fault.
Top arrived after after the breakfast, only Jiyoung was still in the apartment.
J- Hyung, did you eat ?
T- ¬¬…(try to leave)
J- Don’t leave, hyung what’s up with you? T_T…Stop this, please
T- Stop what?
J- Don’t destroy yourself
T- tsk…don’t make me laught…you’re not worried about me, you only care about the band
J- That’s not true I’m worried, you’re my best friend
T- mmm >___< wrong!! I was your best friend now you can’t step any closer to me, right?¿
J- Your drunk
T- Ah…you forgot to say drugged too
J- O.o What??!
T- tsk…stop acting Ji and leave me alone
Ji grabed Top’s hand
J- let’s go to the hospital, I was blind you need help hyung
T- Let me go
J- No
T- I’ll count 10 and then you will regret if you didn’t let me go…1,2,3,4,5….9 and…10
Jiyoung didn’t leave his hyung and when he stopped the first punch he still was holding one of his hands.
Top was really strong, and more now that he was influenced by drugs and alcohol, he just lose his mind when Ji hugged him trying to stop him in that way. He committed a big mistake. Top grabbed Ji and take him to his room and after a few kicks and punches he tied him and starts kissing all his body and touching him while Jiyoung was crying and begging him to stop, then Top feel the head of his erection was ready and took his pants of and when he was ready for penetrated him, he suddenly stops crying and look at him in the eyes.
J- (sigh) That’s my fault, isn’t it? I make you a monster, I make you like that…I just avoid my precious friend and that’s my punishment
Tears start to fall of Top eyes and then he hugs Ji while sobbing.
T- I’m sorry… I love you…What I’m doing…please, please forgive me
J- (hugs him back) Ok hyung let’s forget all this and go to the hospital
T- But I can’t Ji…I can’t forgive myself TT__TT
J- Hyung, don’t do stupid things…hyung, untie me!!! Hyung no, Hyung!!!!
Top just cut his arms, he was bleeding besides Ji and he can’t do anything, he just can watch. He was a heartbreaker losing his most precious friend.
-End-