Bah Humbug!
I hate this week.
It doesn't feel like Christmas at all but I still have to spend all my spare time power walking from shop to shop, getting increasingly frustrated at the lack of viable presents for my family members. None of them told me what they wanted this year and without guidence it's really hard. My mother and sister are impossible to buy for. (Especially because my sister seemed really impressed with her last birthday and Christmas presents and I'm sure I'm going to fall short this time.)
A few other people I've talked to have mentioned that there's nothing decent in the shops this year so at least I know I'm not losing my mind. I spent my day off roaming all over the city looking for presents and by the end of it I still had nothing and I felt like sitting down and crying. I'm always grumpy on the first week of vacation care but to have all of my free time taken up with a fruitless task is just so annoying.
I do love Christmas. I'm not religious in the slightest, but I love having a holiday where I get to show the people who are important to me, that they are important. I consider the exchange of gifts to really mean something. It isn't a 'give a gift to get a gift' sort of thing with me. It's more like 'give a gift to show that that person is important to me and I wanted to make them happy' sort of thing. The problem is that I can't find anything to give them that says that. I hate the idea of buying random things for people just because it's expected of you. Especially if you know that it's something that they won't be terribly enthusiastic about.
Also: I made a new years resolution not to buy any gift cards this year and so far I've stuck to that. I'm so close. I really want to get them real presents, not gift cards. I want something that they can unwrap and be excited about. So far I've gotten each of them a little something but I still need to get each of them a special something. I'm starting to think that I'm made of fail.
Urgh!!! I just want it all to be over and not have to worry about it anymore.
Oh yeah, and I lost my watch as of last Friday. I want my watch back. I keep missing trains and buses because I'm relying on inaccurate wall clocks instead of my oh-so-trustworthy wristwatch. I don't just want a new one either. I want my one. It was blue and it had 3D rainbows and clouds all over it. I love that watch. I miss that watch T.T
And so ends my rather depressing entry.
It doesn't feel like Christmas at all but I still have to spend all my spare time power walking from shop to shop, getting increasingly frustrated at the lack of viable presents for my family members. None of them told me what they wanted this year and without guidence it's really hard. My mother and sister are impossible to buy for. (Especially because my sister seemed really impressed with her last birthday and Christmas presents and I'm sure I'm going to fall short this time.)
A few other people I've talked to have mentioned that there's nothing decent in the shops this year so at least I know I'm not losing my mind. I spent my day off roaming all over the city looking for presents and by the end of it I still had nothing and I felt like sitting down and crying. I'm always grumpy on the first week of vacation care but to have all of my free time taken up with a fruitless task is just so annoying.
I do love Christmas. I'm not religious in the slightest, but I love having a holiday where I get to show the people who are important to me, that they are important. I consider the exchange of gifts to really mean something. It isn't a 'give a gift to get a gift' sort of thing with me. It's more like 'give a gift to show that that person is important to me and I wanted to make them happy' sort of thing. The problem is that I can't find anything to give them that says that. I hate the idea of buying random things for people just because it's expected of you. Especially if you know that it's something that they won't be terribly enthusiastic about.
Also: I made a new years resolution not to buy any gift cards this year and so far I've stuck to that. I'm so close. I really want to get them real presents, not gift cards. I want something that they can unwrap and be excited about. So far I've gotten each of them a little something but I still need to get each of them a special something. I'm starting to think that I'm made of fail.
Urgh!!! I just want it all to be over and not have to worry about it anymore.
Oh yeah, and I lost my watch as of last Friday. I want my watch back. I keep missing trains and buses because I'm relying on inaccurate wall clocks instead of my oh-so-trustworthy wristwatch. I don't just want a new one either. I want my one. It was blue and it had 3D rainbows and clouds all over it. I love that watch. I miss that watch T.T
And so ends my rather depressing entry.