Lives Entwined (Incomplete)
A/N: This is a Kurt/Blaine from Glee Fanfic it is still being written. Hope you all enjoy !!
Warning: MPREG
Blaine stepped into the dim bedroom and smiled as his sleeping boyfriend. The navy sheets seemed even darker against his pale skin, and he had a slight hitch in his breath as he stirred. His red lips were parted slightly with each peaceful breath and his eyelids silently quivered. Blaine sighed he hated to wake him up, but they had a flight to catch in the next three hours. He tiptoed over and gently leaned his own curly auburn locks against his boyfriend and whispered against his ear, “hey sleepy head wake up. We need to hurry up and head to the airport.”
“Hmm,” Kurt rolled over slowly to face Blaine with his sleep filled blue eyes, “well if you wouldn't have kept me up half the night I would probably have already been up before you.”
“You know you didn't mind,” Blaine smirked as he handed Kurt his Venti non fat latte.
“Thanks,” Kurt said taking the cup.
“Ok, hurry though cause it might take a few minutes to get a cab,” Blaine smiled as he watched Kurt walk into the bathroom. Once he heard the door click he pulled the small lock box out of the top of their closet and unlocked it.
Blaine glanced down at the ring nestled in the light blue velvet of the Tiffany's ring box. It had been four years since he and Kurt had graduated from McKinley. They had both attended New York University and had just graduated the previous weekend. Burt and Carol had bought them a week long trip to Disney World as a graduation gift, and Blaine couldn't think of a better place to propose. He had asked Burt for his blessing on their last trip back to Lima, and he was happy to know that Burt could not have been more thrilled. Burt loved Blaine like a son, and had been so happy to see him come into Kurt's life. It did not go unnoticed to him that Kurt was a much happier person when Blaine was around, and he couldn't wait to have him become a permanent member of the Hummel-Hudson household. Blaine snapped the ring box shut and smiled as he slipped it into his pocket.
“Hey, you ready to go,” Kurt smiled as he walked out of the bathroom.
“Yup,” Blaine said as he grabbed their bags. He could not wait to get this vacation started.
**
“Oh my it's beautiful, dad and Carol really outdid themselves,” Kurt gasped as he opened the door to their suite. The room was beautiful with pale yellow walls, a flat screen TV, and a four poster King sized bed with stark white linens. The bathroom had a large granite counter top, jacuzzi bath and a walk in shower. To top it all though was the private balcony with a view of the lake and Cinderella's castle in the distance.
“They really picked out a swell room,” Blaine whispered into Kurt's ear as he wrapped him in a hug, “I am so glad that we get this entire week to ourselves. It will definitely be a nice change from school before we have to start pounding the pavement looking for auditions.”
“Hmm, I'm going to shower and get the plane gunk off me,” Kurt said as he pulled back slightly from Blaine's embrace.
“Take all the time you need,” Blaine said as he gave his boyfriend a quick kiss before he watched him head into the bathroom. As soon as he heard the sweet sound of Kurt singing softly in the shower Blaine grabbed a room key and headed on over to the lobby. He knew Kurt would want to see the fireworks in front of the castle and couldn't think of a better time to propose; however, he had to find a way to make sure that the proposal was intimate so that Kurt did not feel any pressure.
**
“Man I am exhausted,” Kurt sighed as he and Blaine sat out on their balcony waiting for the fireworks to begin.
“Yah, I am too. I'm going to go order some room service,” Blaine said as he slipped back into their room to phone the concierge. Once his call was complete he stepped back out on the balcony and drew the drapes behind him. He was beginning to get nervous he knew Kurt loved him but marriage was a huge commitment. He wrapped his arms around Kurt as they stared off toward the castle.
“Blaine look,” Kurt pointed, “is that Tinkerbell?”
“I believe so,” Blaine sighed then jumped a little as the first firework cracked over their heads. He relaxed again as Kurt leaned into his embrace and he breathed in his scent. They stood that way for a few more moments until the finale began. Now was his time to shine he thought. He slowly unwrapped Kurt from his embrace.
“Blaine, why...” Kurt questioned as he turned around to figure out why Blaine had let go.
Blaine was on one knee and Kurt could barely breath as his boyfriend took his hands and began to speak, “Kurt Hummel you are my world. I have never felt as complete as I do now that I have you. The day we met I knew in my heart you were the one for me. It took us quite a few months to figure that out, but everyday since then I have known that I wanted to spend my life with you. Kurt, I want us to grow old together, raise children together, and most importantly be with one another forever so I am asking you now,” he reached into his pocket and pulled out the ring box and popped it open, “Will you marry me?”
“YES,” Kurt shrieked practically tackling Blaine with a huge hug not even waiting for him to put the ring on his finger.
Blaine chuckled as he returned the hug and pulled Kurt into a passionate kiss then spoke, “Hey do you want your ring?'
“It's beautiful,” Kurt laughed as he admired the sterling silver band Blaine pulled out of the box and slipped it on his left ring finger. It had a modified hour glass shape with three inset diamonds within the inner dip.
“Hmm,” Blaine breathed huskily as he leaned into kiss Kurt again, “let's go inside.”
They both were in awe when the pulled the drapes open to their room. While they had been outside watching the fireworks hotel guest services had completely transformed their room. Their were rose petals scattered throughout the suite and soft instrumental Disney love songs playing quietly in the background. The food Blaine had ordered was sitting on the coffee table along with a few candles and more rose petals.
“Blaine, this is amazing I couldn't have asked for more than this,” Kurt sighed as he sat down on the cushions that surrounded the coffee table and removed the silver top off the serving platter to reveal a bowl of heart shaped ravioli along with a card that read Congratulations on your Engagement. He passed the card to Blaine who smiled as he reached for a plate. The evening was turning out to be even more wonderful than either of them had ever imagined.
**
“I love you,” Blaine whispered against Kurt's ear as he gently kissed him, “this water feels amazing.”
“I love you too,” Kurt replied as he reached for his glass of wine.
“Hmm,” Blaine guided Kurt to face him and kissed him again, their tongues brushed gently and Kurt wrapped his legs around Blaine's body allowing himself to get as close as possible but remain in the warm water.
“Let's go to the bed,” Kurt whispered huskily to his fiancee as he hopped out of the rose petal filled bath and grabbed a towel. He playfully wiggled his ass causing Blaine to let out a deep moan and jump out of the tub himself. He grabbed Kurt and spun him around pressing their naked bodies together as he devoured his lips with a kiss.
“Mmm Kurt,” Blaine moaned as he gently guided Kurt backwards toward the bed. Blaine pressed his hands firmly into the small of Kurt's back as he pulled him closer desperately wanting to feel closeness but not wanting to begin to quickly. Kurt tangled his hands through Blaine's curls which were still damp from their bath. He moaned as he felt Blaine's hot breath on his neck, “I need you Kurt.”
Kurt crushed his already swollen lips into Blaine's again. He pressed his fingers firmly into Blaine's shoulders and back not hard enough to leave marks but strong enough to convey the need he felt, “Blaine,” Kurt gasped, “I want you inside me.”
“Patience,” Blaine whispered as he began slowly kissing every inch of Kurt's body causing him to squirm. He paused as he gazed down on his beautiful lover, and then slowly allowed his mouth to take over. Kurt shivered and gripped Blaine's curls guiding his head to all the places that made him crazy. As Blaine suckled the soft skin of Kurt's neck he slipped his hand under one of the pillows on the bed, and pulled out the bottle of lube. He popped it open and gently began to warm some between his fingers before he gently slid one finger into his fiancee. Kurt gasped slightly with the intrusion but soon relaxed allowing Blaine to slip another finger in opening him up even more then whispered, “ready?”
“Hmm,” Kurt moaned in response. Blaine slowly entered him and gave him time to adjust. Kurt's breathing hitched slighty as he felt Blaine hit the bundle of nerves that made him quiver and moan. He thrust his hips forward in response and gripped Blaine's back until his knuckles were white. He leaned forward capturing Blaine's lips with his.
Blaine mumbled in Kurt's ear as they broke the kiss. He closed his eyes and let instinct take over matching Kurt's rhythm. As their limbs tangled together, breathing became quicker, and hearts beat faster they moved together as one sharing their love and celebrating their commitment to one another.
**
Six Weeks Later
"Blaine, I feel awful," Kurt said as he cursed the feeling of nausea that washed over him before he stuck his head back in the toilet and vomited some more.
"Here drink this," Blaine said bringing him a small bottle of ginger ale, "it should help."
"Do you think I should take a test," Kurt said as he stood up and took the ginger ale from Blaine.
"You got your shot before we left for Florida though," Blaine's voice sounded really concerned at this point.
"Yeah, but what if it didn't work?"
"Well it doesn't hurt to see," Blaine smiled as he wrapped him in a hug.
**
Kurt looked down at the blinking hourglass icon on the home pregnancy test. He stuck the stick in his robe pocket and softly began pacing around the rug on their bedroom floor. He was so nervous. Blaine was still softly snoring in their bed, and he kept checking his watch. He had always known that he had a genetic mutation that could cause him to become pregnant, but as soon as he and Blaine had decided to start having sex he had been going and getting monthly birth control shots.
"Hey, why are you walking in circles," Blaine said as he rolled over sleepily and looked at Kurt.
"Waiting on the pregnancy test. It's been long enough we should look," Kurt sighed as he sat down on the edge of the bed next to Blaine and pulled it out of his robe pocket.
"Kurt...," Blaine whispered as they both saw the results.
"The shot didn't work," Kurt said shocked when he noticed the bold capital letters that said PREGNANT, "Blaine, we just graduated and got engaged. We don't have jobs and now it's going to be millions of times harder for me to do auditions. It's weird enough that I'm a guy even though the carrier gene has been public knowledge. I can't believe the shot failed."
"Kurt, look at me," Blaine said softly as he stared at his fiance's whose head was in his hands, "it's going to be fine. So it's a little earlier than our original plan but it will be okay. I love you, and I definitely am going to love this baby. We will work something out. I want us to be able to fulfill our dreams, and even though this is going to make it more difficult we have an amazing support system and we are not going to be alone."
"I know but I'm still shocked," Kurt smiled and walked off to make an appointment.
**
SHOOSH SHOOSH SHOOSH SHOOSH
Kurt's eyes filled with tears as the sound of the baby's heartbeat filled the air. This was all becoming so real so fast. Blaine leaned over and kissed his forehead before whispering, "This is amazing."
"Everything seems to be in order. The baby is measuring at about 7 weeks, and the heartbeat is really strong" the young doctor said as she removed the wand and handed Kurt some tissue to wipe the blue goo off his belly, "Do you have any questions for me?"
"Is natural childbirth an option?" Kurt asked, "most men I have heard about that are carriers end up having c-sections."
"It is and actually if your body does everything it is supposed to do delivering naturally is the best for the baby. All the research we have done into the carrier gene shows a natural change within the body during the baby's development. You may feel a lot of pressure in your pelvic region during the second trimester, as the uterine birth canal develops and begins to open and fuse near the anal opening, but according to most men it isn't a very painful process just uncomfortable. The main reason for most male pregnancy c-sections is complications due to the baby beings stuck behind the pelvic bone."
"So the baby is going to come out of my butt," Kurt asked shocked,confused, and slightly disgusted.
"It will look kinda like that from the outside, but it is two completely separate openings. So as long as you are really careful you can still maintain intimacy as well. There are a whole bunch of pamphlets and websites on the whole process you can pick up from the information wall on your way downstairs, and Kurt," the young doctor placed a hand on his shoulder, "you are going to be fine. I have helped a lot of men have babies."
"Thanks," he said as he took Blaine's hand and left the office to go call family.
**
Kurt sat silently on the couch. Blaine had just left to go pickup takeout and Kurt was looking at the ultrasound pictures silently when he was drawn out of his thoughts by the sound of his cell phone buzzing loudly.
"Hello."
"Kurt, hey whats going on," Burt asked on the other end of the phone, "any wedding plans yet?'
"Hey, we have looked at a few venues, but we just got a little surprise a few days ago which is definitely going to change some things."
"Are you and Blaine okay?"
"Yah we are fine just still a little shocked. Dad, I'm pregnant."
"I'm going to be a grandpa," Burt sounded really excited, "but you just graduated and just got engaged. I thought you were still taking the shots.”
Kurt heard the door click and saw Blaine walk in motioning to the phone, "He's fine. I've been feeling kinda run down the last few weeks, and then I started having this all over nauseous feeling. I took a home test a couple of days ago and then went to the doctor this morning to confirm. No one really had an explanation as to why the shot didn't work except maybe the antibiotic I took 2 weeks before I got the shot wasn't completely out of my system. I told the nurse I had been on antibiotics when I went in to get the shot before we left for Florida, but she said it had been a long enough gap and for us to not worry. Now I am just really anxious about how we are going to afford anything."
"Kurt, calm down," Burt said hearing the panic that was beginning to grow in his son's throat,
"We are going to work this out. I know you may not want to move back home, but depending on the situation you may not have a choice. You don't need to stress out it's not healthy for you or the baby. I love you Ill talk to you in a few days. May I talk to Blaine?"
"Love you too Dad. Dad wants to talk to you," Kurt said as he passed the phone to his fiancee.
"Burt, hi. Thanks. He is okay. I was definitely shocked, but I am so excited. I have an audition in the morning for a commercial, and I'm going to start looking into some teaching positions as well. He is mainly concerned about finding work and then having to leave to have the baby, but we will cross that bridge later. It might be a tough few months until I at least find something full time but we can make it work."
"Sounds like you both are getting it all figured out. Blaine, give him a hug for me. Please let me know if there is anything that you guys need, and tell him to stay calm."
"Thanks Burt, I will. Love you too. Talk to you soon. Bye," Blaine sighed as he clicked the phone shut and wrapped his arms around Kurt, "You know your dad is right. We are going to be okay, and if in a few months things are still rough we can go back to Ohio. Nothing says we can't come back to New York again, but now our child's future is our main concern."
"I know Blaine. I'm just scared," Kurt said leaning into his embrace.
"So am I, but I do love you and this little baby inside you. It's going to be rough at first but we will make it work."
**
Kurt,I'm home,” Blaine called as he pulled the door to their apartment shut behind him.
“In here babe,” Kurt called from their bedroom. He was laying on the middle of their bed reading a book, “How was work?”
“The kids are nuts, but I am so thankful that I was able to find this teaching job. So we didn't have to move. I love this apartment because we have had so many first's here, and it will be amazing to start raising our child here,” Blaine said as he laid down next to his partner, “How was your meeting today with Professor Adams?”
“It went well. He wants me to fill in as assistant music director for the next 6 weeks and then he wants me to come back after the baby is born to discuss more options.”
“That's exciting. I am so glad that he was looking for a former student to fill in for his assistant. It works out well for some extra cash,” Blaine said as he ran his hands over Kurt's growing belly and jumped when he felt a sharp thump to his hand.
“Someone here is trying to say hi to daddy,” Kurt giggled as Blaine jumped, “I can't wait until tomorrow.”
“I know I am so excited to find out what color we need to start painting the nursery,” Blaine whispered as he leaned down and placed a chaste kiss on Kurt's lips.
**
“Baby is measuring at about 23 weeks which is right on time based on your due date. Everything looks really good, heartbeat is strong and right within the normal range. Also everything with the birth canal is looking wonderful. It should be fully open in about 3 weeks. Did you want to know the sex,” Dr. Benatur asked.
“Yes,” Kurt said as he leaned up slightly to see the screen. He was so thankful for the young doctor. She had been an amazing support since they had found out that they were pregnant. And she was also the leading male pregnancy specialist in New York.
“Well if you look here you can see both legs,” she pointed to them on the screen, “and if you look right here you can clearly this little part sticking out here is his penis.”
“A boy,” Kurt couldn't believe it. He was so excited. He had wanted to have a boy first, and a girl second so that his daughter would have a little protector.
“Man, Burt is going to flip,” Blaine said as he helped Kurt up and reached for a towel to wipe off the blue sonogram gel.
“Did you guys have any questions?”
“Not today,” Kurt said grinning from ear to ear. He could not be more happy.
**
The nursery was coming along beautifully. Finn and Rachel had spent one whole Saturday while they were out shopping painting part of their large bedroom a pale blue, and setting the crib up in the corner. They had purchased a small chest for all of his clothes and slid it up under the crib.
“I am so glad the semester is over. Things have been hectic and it will be nice to be able for us to have some family time,” Blaine said as he walked in and saw Kurt sitting on the floor in their room folding clothes.
“Hey babe I heard a song today by Nat King Cole, and I was thinking that we should name our son Cole Hummel-Anderson,” Kurt smiled at Blaine as he continued folding baby clothes, “I like the ring that has.”
“What about Evan for his middle name,” Blaine asked.
“So Cole Evan Hummel-Anderson,” Kurt asked as he looked at Blaine.
“I love it.” Blaine said as he stood up, “Do you want to go get some pizza?”
“Sure,” Kurt said reaching out for Blaine to help him up.
**
Kurt loved the holidays in the city. The lit tree at Rockefeller Plaza was amazing. Not to mention that when he and Blaine had first moved to New York they used to spend the three weeks before Christmas break ice skating and studying for finals. He had wanted to go this year as a newly engaged couple, but that was before he had known about Cole.
The last few days he had been running around getting things together for the holidays, and when he woke up in the night to go to the bathroom that's when he noticed the cramping.
“Hey, are you okay,” Blaine whispered as he stirred and noticed Kurt standing up looking out their window rubbing his stomach lightly.
“Yeah, I'm having a little pain,” he whispered as he continued to rub on his belly. He could feel their son being extremely active so he wasn't super worried about the baby, “I think Cole is just being active. At 30 weeks he still has a lot of room to move around.”
“Here,” Blaine said guiding him back to to bed to rub his back.
“That feels really good. I probably over did it out shopping today. Little man here is getting bigger and heavier everyday. I didn't realize how long I was going to have to be out or I would have tried to sit down more and not do so much.
“Well a little pressure and back pain is normal,” Blaine said.
“Yah,” Kurt flinched as another sharp pain cut through him and a trickle of warm liquid dripped down his legs, “but I think my water just broke.”
**
“Hello,” Burt said sleepily, “Blaine calm down. What happened? Yeah, yeah, okay we will be there as soon as we can get a flight. I'll call you when we get to the airport if I haven't heard from you. Tell Kurt I love him. Bye.”
“Is everything okay,” Carole asked as she heard water running and Burt frantically grabbing clothes and trying to wake up.
“Kurt's water broke. They don't know how long they are going to be able to keep the baby from coming. They are doing everything they can but Blaine said it's not looking positive. They are giving him shots right now to mature Cole's lungs, and are hoping they can keep him from having him for at least another 24 hours,” Burt sighed.
“Okay, we can be on the way to the airport in an hour,” Carole sighed hoping that her stepson and grandson were going to be okay.
**
The activity in the Labor and Delivery Unit seemed to be spinning around Kurt whose pain was now coming in waves. He knew now with the intensity that they were definitely contractions and it was too early to have this baby. He had been given medicine that made him feel drowsy, but every time he tried to get comfortable pain washed over him again.
“Blaine, I'm scared,” Kurt whispered as he tensed under another wave of pain.
“I know I am too, right now you just need to try and relax. I called your dad and Carol and they are getting on the first plane out. The NICU already knows whats going on and they are ready for him,” Blaine brushed the hair from Kurt's brow and kissed him softly.
“Ahh, this hurts,” Kurt sobbed as another contraction hit him, “I can't do this I can't have him. It's to early to have him.”
“Shh, we are going to get through this together” Blaine whispered as he rubbed soothing circles on Kurt's back coached him through his breathing.
**
Blaine was awoken suddenly by his phone ringing. He checked the caller ID and realized it was Burt, “Hello.”
“Blaine, we just boarded a flight. We should be there within the next 3 or 4 hours. Has anything changed?”
“He is sleeping now. There for a bit after we got off the phone the first time things got a little stressed, but the meds have slowed down the contractions a lot so he is able to rest. The doctor is planning on doing an ultrasound in an hour or so to look at Cole's lungs again, and they have Kurt on antibiotics to hopefully prevent infection.”
“Okay, well they are closing the cabin doors now so we have to go. We love you both.”
“Blaine, who was that,” Kurt asked sleepily. He had been more comfortable since they had started his IV and meds but Blaine could still tell he was terrified.
“It was your Dad, he and Carol wanted to let us know that they are going to be in town in about three hours.”
“Ok, thanks,” Kurt mumbled as he dozed back off.
Blaine slumped back down the his chair. This was going to be a lot more tough than originally thought.
**
“Dr. Benatur, how is he,” Kurt asked.
“He needs at least one more dose of steroids, but he is not in fetal distress by any means. You are only slightly more open than you were when you came in so even though the contractions have not stopped they have definitely slowed down in intensity. I suspect we can hold him off until tomorrow sometime to give the steroids time to work completely but then we will stop the terbutaline and let nature take over.”
“I'm scared though he is so early.”
“I know, and yes he is early but I have a whole team of doctors waiting on him. They are some of the best in the country. The NICU has dealt with much higher risk babies than him, and because he is not in distress we can still go through natural delivery to give him an even better chance to have less fluid in his lungs.
“Baby you can do this,” Blaine whispered.
“I know,” Kurt sighed as he adjusted the pillows behind him and sat up.
**
“Breathe slowly,” Blaine sighed as he ran his fingers lovingly over Kurt's back. The ultrasound had shown that Cole's lungs were better developed after a few shots of steroids, and now since Kurt's water was still leaking they had begun the process to allow him to deliver.
“I don't want to do this. He needs to stay in longer,” Kurt sobbed between breaths, “is my dad here yet?”
“Yah, do you want me to go get him?”
“Please,” Kurt choked back another sob as he felt another contraction.
About ten minutes later Blaine appeared back in the doorway with Burt, “Blaine can you give us a few minutes alone?”
“Sure, I'll go grab some more ice and something to eat. I love you.”
“Love you too,” Kurt smiled as he watched his partner walk out the door.
“Dad, I'm so scared,” Kurt said, “I don't know if I can do this my body was supposed to keep him safe. I feel like I failed him already and he's not even here yet.”
Burt was crushed as Kurt said those words,“Kurt listen to me I know this is hard. You have done everything right sometimes these things just happen. You have not failed him if anything you were strong enough to get him this far and since everything that has happened last night I am surprised how well you are doing. He is going to be small and have to stay here for awhile, but if little man is anything at all like you or Blaine he is going to be a fighter.”
“Thank you Dad, I needed to hear that,” Kurt said as he reached out to Burt for a hug.
**
“It hurts so bad,” Kurt mumbled as he felt another wave of pain wash over him. The contractions were becoming more intense and closer together.
“I know,” Carol whispered as she massaged his legs, “My mom did this for me when I was in labor with Finn. Is it helping?”
“A little. If anything it's helping take my mind off of the pain. Thank you.”
“No problem, did Blaine say when he was going to get back,” Carol asked as she waited for Kurt's breathing to return to normal.
“Hopefully soon, he was going to go grab the bag from the apartment along with the bobby pillow and my ipod. I know they are going to take Cole away almost immediately in order to get him stable and hooked up to everything but when we can eventually see him I didn't want him to have to leave again.”
“Hey,” Blaine said as he came around the corner and sat down on the edge of the bed with Kurt, “Any change?”
**
“I need to push,” Kurt gasped as another contraction hit him full force. The contractions had picked up speed and now they were less than a minute apart. He was tired he was scared, and he wanted to be able to see his son.
“Kurt, you need to focus on Blaine and breathe okay,” the young nurse said as she pulled on some gloves and gently checked him, “Okay you are fully open, but I need you to continue breathing. I'm going to page your doctor and start to get things set up.
“Hurry,” Kurt gasped, “I don't know how much more I can take.”
“Okay Blaine, I need you to get behind him and rub his back. Kurt, I am going to sit you up so that gravity will help okay. This should take some of the pressure off, and you should be able to start pushing as soon as the doctor gets here okay?”
“Okay,” Kurt sighed, and almost as soon as she was paged the doctor walked in.
“Kurt,” Dr Benatur smiled when she walked in, “I hear you are ready to have this baby.”
“Yes, I can't take much more of this.”
“Okay well you are definitely ready so on the next contraction I want you to curl your chin to your chest and push down. Blaine did you want to cut the cord.”
“Yes,” Blaine told the doctor.
“Okay, well lets have a baby,” Dr. Benatur smiled.
**
“I can't do this,” Kurt cried out his brow was sweaty and tears were streaming down his face.
“Baby, this is it okay you only have to push a few more times,” Blaine coaxed.
“Blaine is right. Now push, one two three...,” the doctors counting tapered off, “I can see his head, five six seven eight nine ten breathe.”
“You are doing wonderfully babe, ready and push,” Blaine said adjusting his weight against Kurt so that he would have enough strength to support him.
“Kurt, look in the mirror so you can see him,” Dr. Benatur encouraged, “Relax his head is out.”
“Oh he's beautiful, babe. He's almost here,” Blaine stroked Kurt's forehead.
“One more small push, Kurt. He's here, you have a beautiful baby boy,” Dr Benatur said as she allowed Blaine to cut the cord then she passed him off to the NICU team.
Cole was instantly placed on the infant warmer and his vitals were taken. He was clearly tiny and looked like he wasn't breathing, “Let me get some more suction here,” one of the NICU nurses said.
“What's happening? Blaine is he okay,” Kurt asked with panic in his voice as a sudden small cry filled the room.
The head transport team nurse answered, “He's okay we are going to give him some oxygen, and get some tests done to see what we need to do to support him. Once you are all cleaned up and we have had time to stabilize him we will let you come see him. Blaine if you want to come with me we will tell you exactly what is going on and have you sign consent forms.”
“Okay, Kurt I love you,” Blaine said.
“I know, now go be with our son.”
**
Blaine sat next to the small isolate in the NICU stroking his son's tiny hand. He felt helpless that there wasn't anything he could do for him. The constant sounds of the heart monitor and ventilator were haunting, but he was to afraid to leave his side.
“Blaine,” he turned to face Kurt as a nurse brought him in, “how is he?”
“Better than expected. They were able to put him right on CPAP instead of a ventilator. The CPAP thing over his nose pushes air into his lungs, and it allows him to breath more easily. This is better too cause it may prevent him from getting lung infections. Sit here so you can touch him.”
“Hey little man, I'm your daddy,” Kurt sobbed as he stroked Cole's cheek. The CPAP tube took up almost his whole face but Kurt could still see his little eyes as they opened slightly, “Blaine I can't believe how tiny and perfect he is.”
“I know I can't wait till we can hold him. The on call pediatrician said that hopefully we should be able to tonight once they make sure his sugars are level and he's responding well on the feeding tube. Did you want me to go update your parents so you can have some time alone with him?”
“Yah if you don't mind.” Kurt said before kissing Blaine deeply then turning his attention back to Cole.
**
“How are they doing,” Kurt asked. He knew Burt and Carol were going to want to see their grandson.
“They are fine just as tired as both of us. Burt said he was going to go ahead and go back to the hotel and take a nap and for us to call him once they tell us when the grandparents can see him. They also showed me the new room all our stuff is in so I know where to hang out when we aren't in here.”
“Hi daddies we are about to change shifts. You are more than welcome to stay, but it's a good time to go get a bite to eat and rest a while since the new shift will want to be updated and run some tests. We have your numbers on his chart and we can track you down on the floor if anything changes. I'm also going to check with the doctor and see if his vitals are stable enough to be able to do some Kangeroo Care,” Cole's nurse Judy said.
“Daddy will be back,” Kurt whispered to Cole before he and Blaine left to go eat and find out about when he would be discharged.
**
“Hi you must be Cole's dads,” Cole's night nurse Greta said as she introduced herself, “Which one of you wants to hold him first? He is doing really well, and it might actually help his breathing if we do a little Kangaroo Care.”
I will, what is Kangaroo Care,” Kurt asked.
“It's where you hold him skin to skin. It helps you bond. And your partner can take part in this also by touching him while you holds him and vice versa. We usually only let about 10 minutes the first time, but depending on how his vitals are we can extend it if he responds positively.”
“Okay”, Kurt said as he opened the front of his robe. He sat back in the rocking chair and watched as Greta unhooked Cole from the main CPAP machine and plugged his tube into the small portable one and gently placed him on his chest.
Kurt finally felt like he was whole again. To have his son in his arms was heaven, and as much as he loved Blaine he didn't think he had ever felt a love this strong before, “I love you little man,” Kurt cooed as tears flowed freely down his face. Cole turned to the sound of his voice and nuzzled into his chest.
“I love you both,” Blaine said as he wrapped his arms around his son and future husband. The last few days had been rough, and Cole still had a long road to journey before he could go home but things were starting to look up.
**
“I already feel much better,” Blaine said as he came out of their bathroom fresh from the shower, “I'm glad Burt and Carol agreed to stay at the hospital with Cole for the evening so we could get some much needed rest.”
“I know I still want to go back though. He needs us there,” Kurt sighed as he slumped back on his pillow.
“Hey, he is already doing better than he was two days ago, and we need good sleep too. Delivering Cole was not easy on your body, and you are still healing, and our bed is much more comfortable than that crappy one at the hospital.”
“Blaine, I know that I need sleep and I know that he's doing better, but I that doesn't mean I want to leave him there,” Kurt snapped.
“Hey, I know. I didn't mean to make it sound like you didn't know,” Blaine sighed as he sat down on the bed next to his fiancee and wrapped him in a hug, “I love you.”
“I love you too. I'm sorry I snapped at you.” Kurt said as he snuggled into Blaine and fell into a restless sleep.
**
Kurt couldn't help but stare at Blaine. He loved when Blaine was holding Cole. It was one of his guilty pleasures. He couldn't wait until he was strong enough to be off the CPAP machine so they could actually see his little face clearly.
“Hey little man,” Blaine cooed as he held Cole against his chest, “papa loves you.”
“Have I told you yet how sexy you look holding our angel,” Kurt whispered, “you are amazing.”
“You are too for bringing him into the world,” Blaine whispered back. As he brought his hand over to rub Kurt's cheek he noticed him wince, “what's wrong?”
Kurt groaned, “my chest hurts. This might sound weird, but it feels like my nipples are on fire. They are tingling.”
“Have you considered breastfeeding,” Judy asked when she walked up behind Kurt as he made his comment.
“I did, but Dr. Benatur said that it's rare that a male can breastfeed.”
“Well, as much time as you have gotten to spend skin to skin with Cole you might be able too. That might be why your chest hurts if the milk is beginning to come in,” she said to Kurt, “did you want to try it out?”
“Sure,” Kurt said as he began unbuttoning his shirt as he settled into the oversized chair. Once he had gotten comfortable Blaine placed Cole against Kurt's chest and he offered him a nipple. Surprisingly within a few moments Cole was attempting to latch on, and with a little help from Judy he successfully began to nurse.
“We will keep a close eye on his vitals as long as he is trying to nurse because sometimes preemies have suck, swallow, and breathe issues, but if you look at the way he's sucking you can tell he's actually getting something,” Judy said as she excused herself.
“You are both so beautiful,” Blaine whispered as he sat down next to Kurt.
“Thanks,” Kurt smiled as he snuggled into him as Cole continued to eat.
**
Later that afternoon Kurt slumped in the seat next to Blaine in the waiting room of Dr. Benatur's office. He hoped that the appointment would go quickly so he could get back to the NICU to feed Cole. He had scheduled this appointment in advance not realizing that he could breastfeed, and now that he was it couldn't have been a worse time for him. He was missing a feeding, and his chest felt like it had two rocks buried inside of it, and since most men could not breastfeed he hadn't figured out how to relieve the full feeling yet besides letting Cole nurse.
“Kurt Hummel,” the nurse called and took him back to the exam area where he continued to shift uncomfortably in his chair.
“Are you okay? You look really uncomfortable,” Blaine asked.
“Yah, I need to nurse so I hope this goes fast.”
“Hi Kurt, Blaine, how's Cole,” Dr. Benatur smiled as she walked in.
“He's doing great, and he actually wanted to nurse yesterday!”
“That's amazing, I have only had one other male patient that was able to breastfeed. Best suggestion I have is to get the smallest pump flange that you can find, and pump every three to four hours when you aren't with Cole. If that idea freaks you out just use lots of warm packs to help the pain. If you notice any swelling after the first few days then you might have to much milk and will need to pump, but that would be rare. How is your pain everywhere else?”
“Still tender but it doesn't hurt every time I move like it did at the beginning,” Kurt said as he laid back to allow the doctor to examine him.
“Your healing well, and I want to see you in 3 weeks for a final check,” the young doctor smiled as she she left the room.
“Ready to go see Cole,” Blaine asked as he stood up and put on his coat.
“Yes, I need to get this weight off my chest,” Kurt smiled before grabbing Blaine's hand so they could head to the hospital.
**
“Kurt, how are you doing,” Mercedes asked. She had heard about what was going on with Kurt, Blaine, and Cole from Finn and Rachel and wanted to make sure things had settled down.
“I am doing better. I am still incredibly sore and tired, but I'm trying to spend as much time at the hospital as I can. I am one of the rare cases of male pregnancy that can actually breastfeed, and Cole has taken well to it. Dad and Carol are going to try and stay through the first week of January to help us rotate time at the NICU between feeding, but if something changes with the shop Dad said he would go back and Carol said she could stay another week or so.”
“Do you want me to come in and help also?”
“I would love it if you could, but they won't let anyone in the NICU that isn't a parent or grandparent, and in the next few weeks since he has been responding well to all the treatments they are planning on moving him from the level three care to level two. Once he is in level two that would be a good time to come visit.”
“Are Blaine's parents coming in at all?”
“We don't know yet. His dad probably can't get back and his mom wants to but there have been some hangups with international travel. Blaine said he was going to call her and find out whats going on since we have mainly been playing phone tag.”
“Well at least they are making an effort, and let me know when little man's in level two so I can come snuggle. I gotta run for now keep me posted on everything, and tell Blaine to take care of you both or I'll kick him next time I see him. Love you boo.”
“Love you too,” Kurt said before hanging up the phone.
“Who else do you love,” Blaine smirked as he joined Kurt at the table in the hospital cafeteria, “Let me guess it was Mercedes.”
“Yah, she wants to come in but I told her that it would be better once they transfer him to level two,” Kurt smiled as he sipped his orange juice, “I am so glad he seems to be doing so much better.”
“I can't believe its been three days. I spoke with my mom again today and she is going to be here tomorrow. I finally got the whole story on why she hasn't been able to get in. All she was able to tell me is that the change fees for holiday travel were outrageous and the airline was having hell getting her an emergency rate,” he said as he sipped his coffee, “I am just glad she and Dad have finally come around. I know they haven't been as involved since they have been in Europe, but I can tell they are being genuine.”
“I know,” Kurt said as he stood up slowly, “well I am exhausted what do you say I go feed Cole one more time before we go home. Dad and Carole should be here soon.
“I think it's a great plan,” Blaine said as they joined hands and walked toward the elevators to go see their little man.
Warning: MPREG
Blaine stepped into the dim bedroom and smiled as his sleeping boyfriend. The navy sheets seemed even darker against his pale skin, and he had a slight hitch in his breath as he stirred. His red lips were parted slightly with each peaceful breath and his eyelids silently quivered. Blaine sighed he hated to wake him up, but they had a flight to catch in the next three hours. He tiptoed over and gently leaned his own curly auburn locks against his boyfriend and whispered against his ear, “hey sleepy head wake up. We need to hurry up and head to the airport.”
“Hmm,” Kurt rolled over slowly to face Blaine with his sleep filled blue eyes, “well if you wouldn't have kept me up half the night I would probably have already been up before you.”
“You know you didn't mind,” Blaine smirked as he handed Kurt his Venti non fat latte.
“Thanks,” Kurt said taking the cup.
“Ok, hurry though cause it might take a few minutes to get a cab,” Blaine smiled as he watched Kurt walk into the bathroom. Once he heard the door click he pulled the small lock box out of the top of their closet and unlocked it.
Blaine glanced down at the ring nestled in the light blue velvet of the Tiffany's ring box. It had been four years since he and Kurt had graduated from McKinley. They had both attended New York University and had just graduated the previous weekend. Burt and Carol had bought them a week long trip to Disney World as a graduation gift, and Blaine couldn't think of a better place to propose. He had asked Burt for his blessing on their last trip back to Lima, and he was happy to know that Burt could not have been more thrilled. Burt loved Blaine like a son, and had been so happy to see him come into Kurt's life. It did not go unnoticed to him that Kurt was a much happier person when Blaine was around, and he couldn't wait to have him become a permanent member of the Hummel-Hudson household. Blaine snapped the ring box shut and smiled as he slipped it into his pocket.
“Hey, you ready to go,” Kurt smiled as he walked out of the bathroom.
“Yup,” Blaine said as he grabbed their bags. He could not wait to get this vacation started.
**
“Oh my it's beautiful, dad and Carol really outdid themselves,” Kurt gasped as he opened the door to their suite. The room was beautiful with pale yellow walls, a flat screen TV, and a four poster King sized bed with stark white linens. The bathroom had a large granite counter top, jacuzzi bath and a walk in shower. To top it all though was the private balcony with a view of the lake and Cinderella's castle in the distance.
“They really picked out a swell room,” Blaine whispered into Kurt's ear as he wrapped him in a hug, “I am so glad that we get this entire week to ourselves. It will definitely be a nice change from school before we have to start pounding the pavement looking for auditions.”
“Hmm, I'm going to shower and get the plane gunk off me,” Kurt said as he pulled back slightly from Blaine's embrace.
“Take all the time you need,” Blaine said as he gave his boyfriend a quick kiss before he watched him head into the bathroom. As soon as he heard the sweet sound of Kurt singing softly in the shower Blaine grabbed a room key and headed on over to the lobby. He knew Kurt would want to see the fireworks in front of the castle and couldn't think of a better time to propose; however, he had to find a way to make sure that the proposal was intimate so that Kurt did not feel any pressure.
**
“Man I am exhausted,” Kurt sighed as he and Blaine sat out on their balcony waiting for the fireworks to begin.
“Yah, I am too. I'm going to go order some room service,” Blaine said as he slipped back into their room to phone the concierge. Once his call was complete he stepped back out on the balcony and drew the drapes behind him. He was beginning to get nervous he knew Kurt loved him but marriage was a huge commitment. He wrapped his arms around Kurt as they stared off toward the castle.
“Blaine look,” Kurt pointed, “is that Tinkerbell?”
“I believe so,” Blaine sighed then jumped a little as the first firework cracked over their heads. He relaxed again as Kurt leaned into his embrace and he breathed in his scent. They stood that way for a few more moments until the finale began. Now was his time to shine he thought. He slowly unwrapped Kurt from his embrace.
“Blaine, why...” Kurt questioned as he turned around to figure out why Blaine had let go.
Blaine was on one knee and Kurt could barely breath as his boyfriend took his hands and began to speak, “Kurt Hummel you are my world. I have never felt as complete as I do now that I have you. The day we met I knew in my heart you were the one for me. It took us quite a few months to figure that out, but everyday since then I have known that I wanted to spend my life with you. Kurt, I want us to grow old together, raise children together, and most importantly be with one another forever so I am asking you now,” he reached into his pocket and pulled out the ring box and popped it open, “Will you marry me?”
“YES,” Kurt shrieked practically tackling Blaine with a huge hug not even waiting for him to put the ring on his finger.
Blaine chuckled as he returned the hug and pulled Kurt into a passionate kiss then spoke, “Hey do you want your ring?'
“It's beautiful,” Kurt laughed as he admired the sterling silver band Blaine pulled out of the box and slipped it on his left ring finger. It had a modified hour glass shape with three inset diamonds within the inner dip.
“Hmm,” Blaine breathed huskily as he leaned into kiss Kurt again, “let's go inside.”
They both were in awe when the pulled the drapes open to their room. While they had been outside watching the fireworks hotel guest services had completely transformed their room. Their were rose petals scattered throughout the suite and soft instrumental Disney love songs playing quietly in the background. The food Blaine had ordered was sitting on the coffee table along with a few candles and more rose petals.
“Blaine, this is amazing I couldn't have asked for more than this,” Kurt sighed as he sat down on the cushions that surrounded the coffee table and removed the silver top off the serving platter to reveal a bowl of heart shaped ravioli along with a card that read Congratulations on your Engagement. He passed the card to Blaine who smiled as he reached for a plate. The evening was turning out to be even more wonderful than either of them had ever imagined.
**
“I love you,” Blaine whispered against Kurt's ear as he gently kissed him, “this water feels amazing.”
“I love you too,” Kurt replied as he reached for his glass of wine.
“Hmm,” Blaine guided Kurt to face him and kissed him again, their tongues brushed gently and Kurt wrapped his legs around Blaine's body allowing himself to get as close as possible but remain in the warm water.
“Let's go to the bed,” Kurt whispered huskily to his fiancee as he hopped out of the rose petal filled bath and grabbed a towel. He playfully wiggled his ass causing Blaine to let out a deep moan and jump out of the tub himself. He grabbed Kurt and spun him around pressing their naked bodies together as he devoured his lips with a kiss.
“Mmm Kurt,” Blaine moaned as he gently guided Kurt backwards toward the bed. Blaine pressed his hands firmly into the small of Kurt's back as he pulled him closer desperately wanting to feel closeness but not wanting to begin to quickly. Kurt tangled his hands through Blaine's curls which were still damp from their bath. He moaned as he felt Blaine's hot breath on his neck, “I need you Kurt.”
Kurt crushed his already swollen lips into Blaine's again. He pressed his fingers firmly into Blaine's shoulders and back not hard enough to leave marks but strong enough to convey the need he felt, “Blaine,” Kurt gasped, “I want you inside me.”
“Patience,” Blaine whispered as he began slowly kissing every inch of Kurt's body causing him to squirm. He paused as he gazed down on his beautiful lover, and then slowly allowed his mouth to take over. Kurt shivered and gripped Blaine's curls guiding his head to all the places that made him crazy. As Blaine suckled the soft skin of Kurt's neck he slipped his hand under one of the pillows on the bed, and pulled out the bottle of lube. He popped it open and gently began to warm some between his fingers before he gently slid one finger into his fiancee. Kurt gasped slightly with the intrusion but soon relaxed allowing Blaine to slip another finger in opening him up even more then whispered, “ready?”
“Hmm,” Kurt moaned in response. Blaine slowly entered him and gave him time to adjust. Kurt's breathing hitched slighty as he felt Blaine hit the bundle of nerves that made him quiver and moan. He thrust his hips forward in response and gripped Blaine's back until his knuckles were white. He leaned forward capturing Blaine's lips with his.
Blaine mumbled in Kurt's ear as they broke the kiss. He closed his eyes and let instinct take over matching Kurt's rhythm. As their limbs tangled together, breathing became quicker, and hearts beat faster they moved together as one sharing their love and celebrating their commitment to one another.
**
Six Weeks Later
"Blaine, I feel awful," Kurt said as he cursed the feeling of nausea that washed over him before he stuck his head back in the toilet and vomited some more.
"Here drink this," Blaine said bringing him a small bottle of ginger ale, "it should help."
"Do you think I should take a test," Kurt said as he stood up and took the ginger ale from Blaine.
"You got your shot before we left for Florida though," Blaine's voice sounded really concerned at this point.
"Yeah, but what if it didn't work?"
"Well it doesn't hurt to see," Blaine smiled as he wrapped him in a hug.
**
Kurt looked down at the blinking hourglass icon on the home pregnancy test. He stuck the stick in his robe pocket and softly began pacing around the rug on their bedroom floor. He was so nervous. Blaine was still softly snoring in their bed, and he kept checking his watch. He had always known that he had a genetic mutation that could cause him to become pregnant, but as soon as he and Blaine had decided to start having sex he had been going and getting monthly birth control shots.
"Hey, why are you walking in circles," Blaine said as he rolled over sleepily and looked at Kurt.
"Waiting on the pregnancy test. It's been long enough we should look," Kurt sighed as he sat down on the edge of the bed next to Blaine and pulled it out of his robe pocket.
"Kurt...," Blaine whispered as they both saw the results.
"The shot didn't work," Kurt said shocked when he noticed the bold capital letters that said PREGNANT, "Blaine, we just graduated and got engaged. We don't have jobs and now it's going to be millions of times harder for me to do auditions. It's weird enough that I'm a guy even though the carrier gene has been public knowledge. I can't believe the shot failed."
"Kurt, look at me," Blaine said softly as he stared at his fiance's whose head was in his hands, "it's going to be fine. So it's a little earlier than our original plan but it will be okay. I love you, and I definitely am going to love this baby. We will work something out. I want us to be able to fulfill our dreams, and even though this is going to make it more difficult we have an amazing support system and we are not going to be alone."
"I know but I'm still shocked," Kurt smiled and walked off to make an appointment.
**
SHOOSH SHOOSH SHOOSH SHOOSH
Kurt's eyes filled with tears as the sound of the baby's heartbeat filled the air. This was all becoming so real so fast. Blaine leaned over and kissed his forehead before whispering, "This is amazing."
"Everything seems to be in order. The baby is measuring at about 7 weeks, and the heartbeat is really strong" the young doctor said as she removed the wand and handed Kurt some tissue to wipe the blue goo off his belly, "Do you have any questions for me?"
"Is natural childbirth an option?" Kurt asked, "most men I have heard about that are carriers end up having c-sections."
"It is and actually if your body does everything it is supposed to do delivering naturally is the best for the baby. All the research we have done into the carrier gene shows a natural change within the body during the baby's development. You may feel a lot of pressure in your pelvic region during the second trimester, as the uterine birth canal develops and begins to open and fuse near the anal opening, but according to most men it isn't a very painful process just uncomfortable. The main reason for most male pregnancy c-sections is complications due to the baby beings stuck behind the pelvic bone."
"So the baby is going to come out of my butt," Kurt asked shocked,confused, and slightly disgusted.
"It will look kinda like that from the outside, but it is two completely separate openings. So as long as you are really careful you can still maintain intimacy as well. There are a whole bunch of pamphlets and websites on the whole process you can pick up from the information wall on your way downstairs, and Kurt," the young doctor placed a hand on his shoulder, "you are going to be fine. I have helped a lot of men have babies."
"Thanks," he said as he took Blaine's hand and left the office to go call family.
**
Kurt sat silently on the couch. Blaine had just left to go pickup takeout and Kurt was looking at the ultrasound pictures silently when he was drawn out of his thoughts by the sound of his cell phone buzzing loudly.
"Hello."
"Kurt, hey whats going on," Burt asked on the other end of the phone, "any wedding plans yet?'
"Hey, we have looked at a few venues, but we just got a little surprise a few days ago which is definitely going to change some things."
"Are you and Blaine okay?"
"Yah we are fine just still a little shocked. Dad, I'm pregnant."
"I'm going to be a grandpa," Burt sounded really excited, "but you just graduated and just got engaged. I thought you were still taking the shots.”
Kurt heard the door click and saw Blaine walk in motioning to the phone, "He's fine. I've been feeling kinda run down the last few weeks, and then I started having this all over nauseous feeling. I took a home test a couple of days ago and then went to the doctor this morning to confirm. No one really had an explanation as to why the shot didn't work except maybe the antibiotic I took 2 weeks before I got the shot wasn't completely out of my system. I told the nurse I had been on antibiotics when I went in to get the shot before we left for Florida, but she said it had been a long enough gap and for us to not worry. Now I am just really anxious about how we are going to afford anything."
"Kurt, calm down," Burt said hearing the panic that was beginning to grow in his son's throat,
"We are going to work this out. I know you may not want to move back home, but depending on the situation you may not have a choice. You don't need to stress out it's not healthy for you or the baby. I love you Ill talk to you in a few days. May I talk to Blaine?"
"Love you too Dad. Dad wants to talk to you," Kurt said as he passed the phone to his fiancee.
"Burt, hi. Thanks. He is okay. I was definitely shocked, but I am so excited. I have an audition in the morning for a commercial, and I'm going to start looking into some teaching positions as well. He is mainly concerned about finding work and then having to leave to have the baby, but we will cross that bridge later. It might be a tough few months until I at least find something full time but we can make it work."
"Sounds like you both are getting it all figured out. Blaine, give him a hug for me. Please let me know if there is anything that you guys need, and tell him to stay calm."
"Thanks Burt, I will. Love you too. Talk to you soon. Bye," Blaine sighed as he clicked the phone shut and wrapped his arms around Kurt, "You know your dad is right. We are going to be okay, and if in a few months things are still rough we can go back to Ohio. Nothing says we can't come back to New York again, but now our child's future is our main concern."
"I know Blaine. I'm just scared," Kurt said leaning into his embrace.
"So am I, but I do love you and this little baby inside you. It's going to be rough at first but we will make it work."
**
Kurt,I'm home,” Blaine called as he pulled the door to their apartment shut behind him.
“In here babe,” Kurt called from their bedroom. He was laying on the middle of their bed reading a book, “How was work?”
“The kids are nuts, but I am so thankful that I was able to find this teaching job. So we didn't have to move. I love this apartment because we have had so many first's here, and it will be amazing to start raising our child here,” Blaine said as he laid down next to his partner, “How was your meeting today with Professor Adams?”
“It went well. He wants me to fill in as assistant music director for the next 6 weeks and then he wants me to come back after the baby is born to discuss more options.”
“That's exciting. I am so glad that he was looking for a former student to fill in for his assistant. It works out well for some extra cash,” Blaine said as he ran his hands over Kurt's growing belly and jumped when he felt a sharp thump to his hand.
“Someone here is trying to say hi to daddy,” Kurt giggled as Blaine jumped, “I can't wait until tomorrow.”
“I know I am so excited to find out what color we need to start painting the nursery,” Blaine whispered as he leaned down and placed a chaste kiss on Kurt's lips.
**
“Baby is measuring at about 23 weeks which is right on time based on your due date. Everything looks really good, heartbeat is strong and right within the normal range. Also everything with the birth canal is looking wonderful. It should be fully open in about 3 weeks. Did you want to know the sex,” Dr. Benatur asked.
“Yes,” Kurt said as he leaned up slightly to see the screen. He was so thankful for the young doctor. She had been an amazing support since they had found out that they were pregnant. And she was also the leading male pregnancy specialist in New York.
“Well if you look here you can see both legs,” she pointed to them on the screen, “and if you look right here you can clearly this little part sticking out here is his penis.”
“A boy,” Kurt couldn't believe it. He was so excited. He had wanted to have a boy first, and a girl second so that his daughter would have a little protector.
“Man, Burt is going to flip,” Blaine said as he helped Kurt up and reached for a towel to wipe off the blue sonogram gel.
“Did you guys have any questions?”
“Not today,” Kurt said grinning from ear to ear. He could not be more happy.
**
The nursery was coming along beautifully. Finn and Rachel had spent one whole Saturday while they were out shopping painting part of their large bedroom a pale blue, and setting the crib up in the corner. They had purchased a small chest for all of his clothes and slid it up under the crib.
“I am so glad the semester is over. Things have been hectic and it will be nice to be able for us to have some family time,” Blaine said as he walked in and saw Kurt sitting on the floor in their room folding clothes.
“Hey babe I heard a song today by Nat King Cole, and I was thinking that we should name our son Cole Hummel-Anderson,” Kurt smiled at Blaine as he continued folding baby clothes, “I like the ring that has.”
“What about Evan for his middle name,” Blaine asked.
“So Cole Evan Hummel-Anderson,” Kurt asked as he looked at Blaine.
“I love it.” Blaine said as he stood up, “Do you want to go get some pizza?”
“Sure,” Kurt said reaching out for Blaine to help him up.
**
Kurt loved the holidays in the city. The lit tree at Rockefeller Plaza was amazing. Not to mention that when he and Blaine had first moved to New York they used to spend the three weeks before Christmas break ice skating and studying for finals. He had wanted to go this year as a newly engaged couple, but that was before he had known about Cole.
The last few days he had been running around getting things together for the holidays, and when he woke up in the night to go to the bathroom that's when he noticed the cramping.
“Hey, are you okay,” Blaine whispered as he stirred and noticed Kurt standing up looking out their window rubbing his stomach lightly.
“Yeah, I'm having a little pain,” he whispered as he continued to rub on his belly. He could feel their son being extremely active so he wasn't super worried about the baby, “I think Cole is just being active. At 30 weeks he still has a lot of room to move around.”
“Here,” Blaine said guiding him back to to bed to rub his back.
“That feels really good. I probably over did it out shopping today. Little man here is getting bigger and heavier everyday. I didn't realize how long I was going to have to be out or I would have tried to sit down more and not do so much.
“Well a little pressure and back pain is normal,” Blaine said.
“Yah,” Kurt flinched as another sharp pain cut through him and a trickle of warm liquid dripped down his legs, “but I think my water just broke.”
**
“Hello,” Burt said sleepily, “Blaine calm down. What happened? Yeah, yeah, okay we will be there as soon as we can get a flight. I'll call you when we get to the airport if I haven't heard from you. Tell Kurt I love him. Bye.”
“Is everything okay,” Carole asked as she heard water running and Burt frantically grabbing clothes and trying to wake up.
“Kurt's water broke. They don't know how long they are going to be able to keep the baby from coming. They are doing everything they can but Blaine said it's not looking positive. They are giving him shots right now to mature Cole's lungs, and are hoping they can keep him from having him for at least another 24 hours,” Burt sighed.
“Okay, we can be on the way to the airport in an hour,” Carole sighed hoping that her stepson and grandson were going to be okay.
**
The activity in the Labor and Delivery Unit seemed to be spinning around Kurt whose pain was now coming in waves. He knew now with the intensity that they were definitely contractions and it was too early to have this baby. He had been given medicine that made him feel drowsy, but every time he tried to get comfortable pain washed over him again.
“Blaine, I'm scared,” Kurt whispered as he tensed under another wave of pain.
“I know I am too, right now you just need to try and relax. I called your dad and Carol and they are getting on the first plane out. The NICU already knows whats going on and they are ready for him,” Blaine brushed the hair from Kurt's brow and kissed him softly.
“Ahh, this hurts,” Kurt sobbed as another contraction hit him, “I can't do this I can't have him. It's to early to have him.”
“Shh, we are going to get through this together” Blaine whispered as he rubbed soothing circles on Kurt's back coached him through his breathing.
**
Blaine was awoken suddenly by his phone ringing. He checked the caller ID and realized it was Burt, “Hello.”
“Blaine, we just boarded a flight. We should be there within the next 3 or 4 hours. Has anything changed?”
“He is sleeping now. There for a bit after we got off the phone the first time things got a little stressed, but the meds have slowed down the contractions a lot so he is able to rest. The doctor is planning on doing an ultrasound in an hour or so to look at Cole's lungs again, and they have Kurt on antibiotics to hopefully prevent infection.”
“Okay, well they are closing the cabin doors now so we have to go. We love you both.”
“Blaine, who was that,” Kurt asked sleepily. He had been more comfortable since they had started his IV and meds but Blaine could still tell he was terrified.
“It was your Dad, he and Carol wanted to let us know that they are going to be in town in about three hours.”
“Ok, thanks,” Kurt mumbled as he dozed back off.
Blaine slumped back down the his chair. This was going to be a lot more tough than originally thought.
**
“Dr. Benatur, how is he,” Kurt asked.
“He needs at least one more dose of steroids, but he is not in fetal distress by any means. You are only slightly more open than you were when you came in so even though the contractions have not stopped they have definitely slowed down in intensity. I suspect we can hold him off until tomorrow sometime to give the steroids time to work completely but then we will stop the terbutaline and let nature take over.”
“I'm scared though he is so early.”
“I know, and yes he is early but I have a whole team of doctors waiting on him. They are some of the best in the country. The NICU has dealt with much higher risk babies than him, and because he is not in distress we can still go through natural delivery to give him an even better chance to have less fluid in his lungs.
“Baby you can do this,” Blaine whispered.
“I know,” Kurt sighed as he adjusted the pillows behind him and sat up.
**
“Breathe slowly,” Blaine sighed as he ran his fingers lovingly over Kurt's back. The ultrasound had shown that Cole's lungs were better developed after a few shots of steroids, and now since Kurt's water was still leaking they had begun the process to allow him to deliver.
“I don't want to do this. He needs to stay in longer,” Kurt sobbed between breaths, “is my dad here yet?”
“Yah, do you want me to go get him?”
“Please,” Kurt choked back another sob as he felt another contraction.
About ten minutes later Blaine appeared back in the doorway with Burt, “Blaine can you give us a few minutes alone?”
“Sure, I'll go grab some more ice and something to eat. I love you.”
“Love you too,” Kurt smiled as he watched his partner walk out the door.
“Dad, I'm so scared,” Kurt said, “I don't know if I can do this my body was supposed to keep him safe. I feel like I failed him already and he's not even here yet.”
Burt was crushed as Kurt said those words,“Kurt listen to me I know this is hard. You have done everything right sometimes these things just happen. You have not failed him if anything you were strong enough to get him this far and since everything that has happened last night I am surprised how well you are doing. He is going to be small and have to stay here for awhile, but if little man is anything at all like you or Blaine he is going to be a fighter.”
“Thank you Dad, I needed to hear that,” Kurt said as he reached out to Burt for a hug.
**
“It hurts so bad,” Kurt mumbled as he felt another wave of pain wash over him. The contractions were becoming more intense and closer together.
“I know,” Carol whispered as she massaged his legs, “My mom did this for me when I was in labor with Finn. Is it helping?”
“A little. If anything it's helping take my mind off of the pain. Thank you.”
“No problem, did Blaine say when he was going to get back,” Carol asked as she waited for Kurt's breathing to return to normal.
“Hopefully soon, he was going to go grab the bag from the apartment along with the bobby pillow and my ipod. I know they are going to take Cole away almost immediately in order to get him stable and hooked up to everything but when we can eventually see him I didn't want him to have to leave again.”
“Hey,” Blaine said as he came around the corner and sat down on the edge of the bed with Kurt, “Any change?”
**
“I need to push,” Kurt gasped as another contraction hit him full force. The contractions had picked up speed and now they were less than a minute apart. He was tired he was scared, and he wanted to be able to see his son.
“Kurt, you need to focus on Blaine and breathe okay,” the young nurse said as she pulled on some gloves and gently checked him, “Okay you are fully open, but I need you to continue breathing. I'm going to page your doctor and start to get things set up.
“Hurry,” Kurt gasped, “I don't know how much more I can take.”
“Okay Blaine, I need you to get behind him and rub his back. Kurt, I am going to sit you up so that gravity will help okay. This should take some of the pressure off, and you should be able to start pushing as soon as the doctor gets here okay?”
“Okay,” Kurt sighed, and almost as soon as she was paged the doctor walked in.
“Kurt,” Dr Benatur smiled when she walked in, “I hear you are ready to have this baby.”
“Yes, I can't take much more of this.”
“Okay well you are definitely ready so on the next contraction I want you to curl your chin to your chest and push down. Blaine did you want to cut the cord.”
“Yes,” Blaine told the doctor.
“Okay, well lets have a baby,” Dr. Benatur smiled.
**
“I can't do this,” Kurt cried out his brow was sweaty and tears were streaming down his face.
“Baby, this is it okay you only have to push a few more times,” Blaine coaxed.
“Blaine is right. Now push, one two three...,” the doctors counting tapered off, “I can see his head, five six seven eight nine ten breathe.”
“You are doing wonderfully babe, ready and push,” Blaine said adjusting his weight against Kurt so that he would have enough strength to support him.
“Kurt, look in the mirror so you can see him,” Dr. Benatur encouraged, “Relax his head is out.”
“Oh he's beautiful, babe. He's almost here,” Blaine stroked Kurt's forehead.
“One more small push, Kurt. He's here, you have a beautiful baby boy,” Dr Benatur said as she allowed Blaine to cut the cord then she passed him off to the NICU team.
Cole was instantly placed on the infant warmer and his vitals were taken. He was clearly tiny and looked like he wasn't breathing, “Let me get some more suction here,” one of the NICU nurses said.
“What's happening? Blaine is he okay,” Kurt asked with panic in his voice as a sudden small cry filled the room.
The head transport team nurse answered, “He's okay we are going to give him some oxygen, and get some tests done to see what we need to do to support him. Once you are all cleaned up and we have had time to stabilize him we will let you come see him. Blaine if you want to come with me we will tell you exactly what is going on and have you sign consent forms.”
“Okay, Kurt I love you,” Blaine said.
“I know, now go be with our son.”
**
Blaine sat next to the small isolate in the NICU stroking his son's tiny hand. He felt helpless that there wasn't anything he could do for him. The constant sounds of the heart monitor and ventilator were haunting, but he was to afraid to leave his side.
“Blaine,” he turned to face Kurt as a nurse brought him in, “how is he?”
“Better than expected. They were able to put him right on CPAP instead of a ventilator. The CPAP thing over his nose pushes air into his lungs, and it allows him to breath more easily. This is better too cause it may prevent him from getting lung infections. Sit here so you can touch him.”
“Hey little man, I'm your daddy,” Kurt sobbed as he stroked Cole's cheek. The CPAP tube took up almost his whole face but Kurt could still see his little eyes as they opened slightly, “Blaine I can't believe how tiny and perfect he is.”
“I know I can't wait till we can hold him. The on call pediatrician said that hopefully we should be able to tonight once they make sure his sugars are level and he's responding well on the feeding tube. Did you want me to go update your parents so you can have some time alone with him?”
“Yah if you don't mind.” Kurt said before kissing Blaine deeply then turning his attention back to Cole.
**
“How are they doing,” Kurt asked. He knew Burt and Carol were going to want to see their grandson.
“They are fine just as tired as both of us. Burt said he was going to go ahead and go back to the hotel and take a nap and for us to call him once they tell us when the grandparents can see him. They also showed me the new room all our stuff is in so I know where to hang out when we aren't in here.”
“Hi daddies we are about to change shifts. You are more than welcome to stay, but it's a good time to go get a bite to eat and rest a while since the new shift will want to be updated and run some tests. We have your numbers on his chart and we can track you down on the floor if anything changes. I'm also going to check with the doctor and see if his vitals are stable enough to be able to do some Kangeroo Care,” Cole's nurse Judy said.
“Daddy will be back,” Kurt whispered to Cole before he and Blaine left to go eat and find out about when he would be discharged.
**
“Hi you must be Cole's dads,” Cole's night nurse Greta said as she introduced herself, “Which one of you wants to hold him first? He is doing really well, and it might actually help his breathing if we do a little Kangaroo Care.”
I will, what is Kangaroo Care,” Kurt asked.
“It's where you hold him skin to skin. It helps you bond. And your partner can take part in this also by touching him while you holds him and vice versa. We usually only let about 10 minutes the first time, but depending on how his vitals are we can extend it if he responds positively.”
“Okay”, Kurt said as he opened the front of his robe. He sat back in the rocking chair and watched as Greta unhooked Cole from the main CPAP machine and plugged his tube into the small portable one and gently placed him on his chest.
Kurt finally felt like he was whole again. To have his son in his arms was heaven, and as much as he loved Blaine he didn't think he had ever felt a love this strong before, “I love you little man,” Kurt cooed as tears flowed freely down his face. Cole turned to the sound of his voice and nuzzled into his chest.
“I love you both,” Blaine said as he wrapped his arms around his son and future husband. The last few days had been rough, and Cole still had a long road to journey before he could go home but things were starting to look up.
**
“I already feel much better,” Blaine said as he came out of their bathroom fresh from the shower, “I'm glad Burt and Carol agreed to stay at the hospital with Cole for the evening so we could get some much needed rest.”
“I know I still want to go back though. He needs us there,” Kurt sighed as he slumped back on his pillow.
“Hey, he is already doing better than he was two days ago, and we need good sleep too. Delivering Cole was not easy on your body, and you are still healing, and our bed is much more comfortable than that crappy one at the hospital.”
“Blaine, I know that I need sleep and I know that he's doing better, but I that doesn't mean I want to leave him there,” Kurt snapped.
“Hey, I know. I didn't mean to make it sound like you didn't know,” Blaine sighed as he sat down on the bed next to his fiancee and wrapped him in a hug, “I love you.”
“I love you too. I'm sorry I snapped at you.” Kurt said as he snuggled into Blaine and fell into a restless sleep.
**
Kurt couldn't help but stare at Blaine. He loved when Blaine was holding Cole. It was one of his guilty pleasures. He couldn't wait until he was strong enough to be off the CPAP machine so they could actually see his little face clearly.
“Hey little man,” Blaine cooed as he held Cole against his chest, “papa loves you.”
“Have I told you yet how sexy you look holding our angel,” Kurt whispered, “you are amazing.”
“You are too for bringing him into the world,” Blaine whispered back. As he brought his hand over to rub Kurt's cheek he noticed him wince, “what's wrong?”
Kurt groaned, “my chest hurts. This might sound weird, but it feels like my nipples are on fire. They are tingling.”
“Have you considered breastfeeding,” Judy asked when she walked up behind Kurt as he made his comment.
“I did, but Dr. Benatur said that it's rare that a male can breastfeed.”
“Well, as much time as you have gotten to spend skin to skin with Cole you might be able too. That might be why your chest hurts if the milk is beginning to come in,” she said to Kurt, “did you want to try it out?”
“Sure,” Kurt said as he began unbuttoning his shirt as he settled into the oversized chair. Once he had gotten comfortable Blaine placed Cole against Kurt's chest and he offered him a nipple. Surprisingly within a few moments Cole was attempting to latch on, and with a little help from Judy he successfully began to nurse.
“We will keep a close eye on his vitals as long as he is trying to nurse because sometimes preemies have suck, swallow, and breathe issues, but if you look at the way he's sucking you can tell he's actually getting something,” Judy said as she excused herself.
“You are both so beautiful,” Blaine whispered as he sat down next to Kurt.
“Thanks,” Kurt smiled as he snuggled into him as Cole continued to eat.
**
Later that afternoon Kurt slumped in the seat next to Blaine in the waiting room of Dr. Benatur's office. He hoped that the appointment would go quickly so he could get back to the NICU to feed Cole. He had scheduled this appointment in advance not realizing that he could breastfeed, and now that he was it couldn't have been a worse time for him. He was missing a feeding, and his chest felt like it had two rocks buried inside of it, and since most men could not breastfeed he hadn't figured out how to relieve the full feeling yet besides letting Cole nurse.
“Kurt Hummel,” the nurse called and took him back to the exam area where he continued to shift uncomfortably in his chair.
“Are you okay? You look really uncomfortable,” Blaine asked.
“Yah, I need to nurse so I hope this goes fast.”
“Hi Kurt, Blaine, how's Cole,” Dr. Benatur smiled as she walked in.
“He's doing great, and he actually wanted to nurse yesterday!”
“That's amazing, I have only had one other male patient that was able to breastfeed. Best suggestion I have is to get the smallest pump flange that you can find, and pump every three to four hours when you aren't with Cole. If that idea freaks you out just use lots of warm packs to help the pain. If you notice any swelling after the first few days then you might have to much milk and will need to pump, but that would be rare. How is your pain everywhere else?”
“Still tender but it doesn't hurt every time I move like it did at the beginning,” Kurt said as he laid back to allow the doctor to examine him.
“Your healing well, and I want to see you in 3 weeks for a final check,” the young doctor smiled as she she left the room.
“Ready to go see Cole,” Blaine asked as he stood up and put on his coat.
“Yes, I need to get this weight off my chest,” Kurt smiled before grabbing Blaine's hand so they could head to the hospital.
**
“Kurt, how are you doing,” Mercedes asked. She had heard about what was going on with Kurt, Blaine, and Cole from Finn and Rachel and wanted to make sure things had settled down.
“I am doing better. I am still incredibly sore and tired, but I'm trying to spend as much time at the hospital as I can. I am one of the rare cases of male pregnancy that can actually breastfeed, and Cole has taken well to it. Dad and Carol are going to try and stay through the first week of January to help us rotate time at the NICU between feeding, but if something changes with the shop Dad said he would go back and Carol said she could stay another week or so.”
“Do you want me to come in and help also?”
“I would love it if you could, but they won't let anyone in the NICU that isn't a parent or grandparent, and in the next few weeks since he has been responding well to all the treatments they are planning on moving him from the level three care to level two. Once he is in level two that would be a good time to come visit.”
“Are Blaine's parents coming in at all?”
“We don't know yet. His dad probably can't get back and his mom wants to but there have been some hangups with international travel. Blaine said he was going to call her and find out whats going on since we have mainly been playing phone tag.”
“Well at least they are making an effort, and let me know when little man's in level two so I can come snuggle. I gotta run for now keep me posted on everything, and tell Blaine to take care of you both or I'll kick him next time I see him. Love you boo.”
“Love you too,” Kurt said before hanging up the phone.
“Who else do you love,” Blaine smirked as he joined Kurt at the table in the hospital cafeteria, “Let me guess it was Mercedes.”
“Yah, she wants to come in but I told her that it would be better once they transfer him to level two,” Kurt smiled as he sipped his orange juice, “I am so glad he seems to be doing so much better.”
“I can't believe its been three days. I spoke with my mom again today and she is going to be here tomorrow. I finally got the whole story on why she hasn't been able to get in. All she was able to tell me is that the change fees for holiday travel were outrageous and the airline was having hell getting her an emergency rate,” he said as he sipped his coffee, “I am just glad she and Dad have finally come around. I know they haven't been as involved since they have been in Europe, but I can tell they are being genuine.”
“I know,” Kurt said as he stood up slowly, “well I am exhausted what do you say I go feed Cole one more time before we go home. Dad and Carole should be here soon.
“I think it's a great plan,” Blaine said as they joined hands and walked toward the elevators to go see their little man.