May 31, 2008 20:09
I've turned into my mother!!! Nooooooooo!
I was trying to get my son to clean his room. It's better than it has been, but it's still pretty messy. We were arguing about it (a little loudly!) and his argument was why should I (mom) care? If he closes the door, no one sees it anyway. Talk about a flashback!!
My mom and I used to have the same argument. I was a good kid in high school. I got good grades, I had a part time job and I didn't get into trouble. I couldn't understand why my mom was always on me about my room. (Maybe it was my little way of rebelling.) But the words that were coming out of my mouth were my mother's words and the words that were coming out of my son's mouth were my words! It really threw me! I stopped in the middle of the argument and told my son that he was right. I guess it's not that big of a deal. I asked him to just take care of the dirty clothes on the floor and we'd call it good. Then he hugged me, told me he loved me, I told him the same and there we go. I'm gonna try and live with it. (And keep the door closed.)
It also doesn't hurt that I had a dream two nights ago that a tsunami was headed for the hotel room we were in (in the dream) and I knew we weren't going to escape. But I had to get to my kids in time to be holding them when we got hit. It was the worst nightmare I've had in years! I never have nightmares. Anyway, it helps to keep things in perspective.
(Hubby thinks the tsunami dream means I'm feeling overwhelmed. He might be right.)
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