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Do you ever wonder why you miss people? I was paging through this old thing that I haven't touched in so long only to see people who I, at one point in my life, considered to be some of my best friends. I guess I just think it's a shame to see how a little distance changes some relationships completely, while it helps others grow. I still am enamored with my best friend Jessa. And this past year has proven that she is truly my best friend, she's there when all of the other people who were so happy to share in my company are off making appearances with other people and finding replacements. Everyone is replaceable... I used to think that just wasn't the case, I thought that when really bonded with someone on more than a superficial, conversational level--- that that person would always have a special place in their heart for you, or at least remember you. Through recent experiences and reflections on who my friends were and who my friends are now, I have found I only consider one person from home a friend, and the rest of the people that are my friends are a bunch of random but reliable people who have more than just filled the shoes of my former 'friends.' They say that in your first semester of college the people you befriend are people that you will be friends with for the rest of your life. After this amazing semester, I have found that that statement is most likely completely true. These people have taken me into their lives, taken care of me when I was at my worst, thrown me a belated birthday party, and showered me with love and understanding. I had no issue graduating highschool because most of my friendships were too superficial to mean anything to me. And the people that I did and do care about are still in my life today. Fact is thats only one person from South Forsyth highschool, and about twenty of the most wonderful people I've had the pleasure of getting to know at Georgia State and Georgia Tech. Leaving high school was a growing experience for me and when I see familiar faces of people from my past, I feel no twinges of nostalgia for the time I once spent with them. I have finally detached myself from all of the people who never really meant anything to me to begin with. I'm in love with what my lifes become and finding my true friends. Atlanta is the best thing to ever have happened to me.