Start to Finish: Chapter 1: Seaver
Title: Start to Finish
Author: ficdirectory
Characters: Ashley Seaver
Word Count: 23,799
Warnings/Spoilers/Rating: None/Season 6/FRT.
Summary: Since Ashley's joined the team...
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the CBS-owned characters mentioned. Not written for profit.
Notes: Over the last week, I have written a crazy amount of drabbles from every POV in the BAU, covering every season of Criminal Minds. Instead of posting them as random collections, I thought I'd arrange them in chapter formats, by character.
SEAVER:
They know nothing about her, and for right now, this is the way Ashley wants it. She would rather they focus on her dad, if anything. The public part of her life. It makes a great shield for what has gone on since then.
She doesn't tell Hotch or Rossi the truth either, even though they were on the case when she was younger. She prefers to let them think what they want to think. Remember her as the little girl they knew and wanted to protect.
The last thing she wants is for them to find out the truth. About how she lost it after her dad's arrest and conviction. About the guys. About the way she purposely reinvented and misrepresented herself to them. The last thing she wanted to be was herself. The last place she wanted to be was here.
She knew the truth. She let them use her.
She never told a soul.
No way for Garcia or the others to dig up the truth about someone who never existed.
--
Ashley feels a terror so unfamiliar that she does not know what to do. So she tries something, anything, to get the knife at her throat to move. She talks. She begs the father not to make his daughter watch this.
At this moment, all she can think of is her own father, so she talks about him. Tells this guy that she knows how he must be feeling, but nothing works like she hopes it will.
In the end, all her efforts were for nothing anyway. Her apology did nothing but raise his desire to kill. In the car, she falls apart, not caring who is on the other side of the glass.
--
It is no secret that Ashley does not feel a part of the team. It may be a matter of time, or it may be never. She appreciates the effort that Emily makes to draw her in. The time Rossi takes with her. But there is just something about her that doesn't mesh with everyone else.
It gets to her. Gets under her skin. She wishes, for just once in her life, Ashley could be like everyone else. But it looks like that isn't about to happen.
She doesn't get their inside jokes. She is too serious, because she doesn't know how not to be on a job like this. And she feels like Hotch is always watching her, which makes it impossible for her to ever lighten up.
She wishes things were different. She wishes she didn't always feel like she is in JJ's shadow.
Author: ficdirectory
Characters: Ashley Seaver
Word Count: 23,799
Warnings/Spoilers/Rating: None/Season 6/FRT.
Summary: Since Ashley's joined the team...
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the CBS-owned characters mentioned. Not written for profit.
Notes: Over the last week, I have written a crazy amount of drabbles from every POV in the BAU, covering every season of Criminal Minds. Instead of posting them as random collections, I thought I'd arrange them in chapter formats, by character.
SEAVER:
They know nothing about her, and for right now, this is the way Ashley wants it. She would rather they focus on her dad, if anything. The public part of her life. It makes a great shield for what has gone on since then.
She doesn't tell Hotch or Rossi the truth either, even though they were on the case when she was younger. She prefers to let them think what they want to think. Remember her as the little girl they knew and wanted to protect.
The last thing she wants is for them to find out the truth. About how she lost it after her dad's arrest and conviction. About the guys. About the way she purposely reinvented and misrepresented herself to them. The last thing she wanted to be was herself. The last place she wanted to be was here.
She knew the truth. She let them use her.
She never told a soul.
No way for Garcia or the others to dig up the truth about someone who never existed.
--
Ashley feels a terror so unfamiliar that she does not know what to do. So she tries something, anything, to get the knife at her throat to move. She talks. She begs the father not to make his daughter watch this.
At this moment, all she can think of is her own father, so she talks about him. Tells this guy that she knows how he must be feeling, but nothing works like she hopes it will.
In the end, all her efforts were for nothing anyway. Her apology did nothing but raise his desire to kill. In the car, she falls apart, not caring who is on the other side of the glass.
--
It is no secret that Ashley does not feel a part of the team. It may be a matter of time, or it may be never. She appreciates the effort that Emily makes to draw her in. The time Rossi takes with her. But there is just something about her that doesn't mesh with everyone else.
It gets to her. Gets under her skin. She wishes, for just once in her life, Ashley could be like everyone else. But it looks like that isn't about to happen.
She doesn't get their inside jokes. She is too serious, because she doesn't know how not to be on a job like this. And she feels like Hotch is always watching her, which makes it impossible for her to ever lighten up.
She wishes things were different. She wishes she didn't always feel like she is in JJ's shadow.