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[fic_of_elise]

Every Mask has its Story PART FIVE
Elise
warning... the beginning of the angst.

Future fic of 100 ways Universe timeline

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[capshockeygrl]

GAH! I NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENS!!!!!!!!!!!

[fic_of_elise]

yeah. dun dun dunnnnnnnnnnn

[capshockeygrl]

:P I seriously loved this chapter! And the suspense! She is killing me!

[fic_of_elise]

i'm glad you liked it. I felt a bit weird, as usual, about it, but this time, more so about the subject matter.

[capshockeygrl]

I understand how you feel. I don't know how much you know about me because I can't remember who I've told, but I went through the whole cancer debacle last year & thus missed the first half of this past season. Cancer can be a hard thing to talk about & an even harder thing to deal with. There are so many things that I think most people wouldn't even imagine people go through.

Ok - rambling. Sorry. :)

And I don't know if you saw my icon dump or not, but I'd like to officially assign my "disgusted" icon to out puply OJ discussion.

[fic_of_elise]

mmm pulp OJ.

and great for you that you survived cancer. This story might be tough, and for that i apologize.

[capshockeygrl]

I meant to say that I think you're doing a good job of portraying things so far, but somehow managed to leave that out, much like my ability to spell today. :)

For me, the subject isn't so tough, although I'm a little picky about who knows. Unfortunately, through all of it, I wound up minus a few key bones in my chest, so its pretty obvious that something happened. I just don't like people poking at me without permission. :) I learned a while ago, though, that I pretty much just had to accept that its happened & try my best to get past it.

[fic_of_elise]

i'd look at it as a triumph. I've survived my own things, and its hard because the general population will never know what a fight for life is. I just am dealing with a really touchy topic here and i dont want to give hurt to anyone because of it.

[capshockeygrl]

You know, I never really looked at it as a hurdle, so a triumph was never something that occured to me. It was just another part of my life. Sure, there were days when it sucked, but, really, it was just another day.

And it can be a touchy topic, but sometimes being forced to deal with a touchy situation helps you (the general you) get through it and come out the other end as a stronger person. Sometimes you have to hurt to make it better.

Sorry - I'm getting a bit philosophical. :)

[fic_of_elise]

yes! and that's my point - the pain/hurt is a hurdle, and you survive it. You end up alive at the end. It is a triumph. You, general, that is.

I don't know how much of a triumph this story will be, and frankly, i don't know whose journey it is. We have Bear, and we have Ryan. We have Lindy and we have Brian. Rhyme ohhhh so intentional. Each one has something to do/be. When it's over, i'll know. I just have to keep writing.

[capshockeygrl]

Sometimes its just a journey you have to make. I think I'm a better person now. I'm certainly a different person.

And as for the story, I think my first phrase applies there, too - sometimes its just a journey you have to make. I really like that you're taking the journey & letting it go where it needs to. It creates the most real situation, IMHO.

We all make the journeys we need to in order to get through life & be the best person we can be.

[fic_of_elise]

i hope that I can give some sort of... justice to the journeys that I write. It's part of my own process - to tackle certain issues.

[capshockeygrl]

As long as you're able to take away from the journey what you need to, then you've done it all the justice you ever could. And along the way, you're writing something beautiful & moving that can maybe help someone else.

It doesn't need to be any more than that.

If you find you have any questions along the way, feel free to ask. :)

[fic_of_elise]

ok. i will. I just... don't know if I want to write the ending I mean, but we'll see. I won't know till i'm typing.

[capshockeygrl]

Talking about this with you has made me realize that it might be time to open up a little more about last year.

Thank you for that.

[fic_of_elise]

I hope you're well received. I've always found you to be a wonderful person. I definitely support all survivors. It's important. Yeah, it might be time to open up a bit and not be such a tough girl. You've been tough for a while, right?