Dir en grey / Kaoru x Toshiya / All the time
Title: All the time
Author: bl4ckm4lice
Fandom: Dir en grey
Claim: Kaoru Niikura x Toshimasa Hara
Prompt: The S.I.G.I.T - All the time
Word Count: 540
Rating: FRT
Warnings: None
Disclaimer: na-ah, not mine
Author's Notes: Beta-ed by yohaly @aarinfantasy, thank you! Made for fic_de_mix
Link to table: here
Hey Toshiya,
I haven’t told you about my biggest dream, have I? In that dream, you change your last name into mine. Practically that will make you my wife, but you’re a man too, so that will make us husbands. Sounds stupid, right?
I’ve never said it to you just because this stupid little reason of mine: ego. You’d probably laughed out loud if I ever propose to you. Not because you think the idea is ridiculous, but because you think I’m just kidding. Me, the blood type A man of reason-logic-norms-rules, asking something so wrapped up with feelings and emotions.
I want to live forever, you know. By forever, I mean together with you.
So… wake up please?
It’s really hard for me not to see your brown orbs any longer. I think they’re breathtakingly beautiful, even though you think they’re too small. I miss them. I miss them as much as I miss your voice and your smile.
Hey Toshiya,
Is it hard to breathe with those equipments? Although your breath is loud and clear, echoing inside that breathing mask, it also seemed that it really burdens you to breathe. It made me feel guilty how freely can I breathe right now. Ah, I wanna share my lungs with you. Actually, I wanna share my everything with you.
…Of course that wouldn’t be possible, so my hands hold yours to share the warmth. It’s the least I can do. I hate how cold your hands are.
Hey Toshiya,
Why do you even have to wait for me that night instead of going home first like usual? You know, this question had swarmed around in my head since that night, even though I know the answer.
Because we just had a huge fight on the morning.
Because that night you came to me at the studio and we talked. You said ‘We’re not over’ for the third time-it’s such a pity that we fought a lot. I smiled and thanked you with my whole heart, promised you silently that I’ll try my best not to fight with you anymore, and promised you out loud that I’ll be done within five minutes.
If you hear me now, you would’ve said ‘it’s not your fault.’ But I can’t help it, Toshiya. I can’t help but blaming myself. Blaming the drunk driver, and even blaming you a bit for waiting on the roadside, isn’t enough.
Hey Toshiya,
I really mean it with that dream. In fact, I think I want to tell you as soon as you wake up. I don’t even want to think that there’s a possibility that you’ll refuse me. Hell, if you refuse, I’ll force you. Har har.
…Can you please stop making me wait any longer?
If I give you a kiss now, will you wake up like snow white or sleeping beauty? If you hear that, you’ll probably laugh and say ‘I’m prettier.’ Ah, I wanna hear you laugh too.
I guess, waking you up with a kiss is too much of a hope, since I’ve kissed you countless times in the last few weeks.
But I tried anyway.
…Your fingers moved and a tear rolled down my face when I saw your eyelashes flutter.
***
The end~
Author: bl4ckm4lice
Fandom: Dir en grey
Claim: Kaoru Niikura x Toshimasa Hara
Prompt: The S.I.G.I.T - All the time
Word Count: 540
Rating: FRT
Warnings: None
Disclaimer: na-ah, not mine
Author's Notes: Beta-ed by yohaly @aarinfantasy, thank you! Made for fic_de_mix
Link to table: here
Hey Toshiya,
I haven’t told you about my biggest dream, have I? In that dream, you change your last name into mine. Practically that will make you my wife, but you’re a man too, so that will make us husbands. Sounds stupid, right?
I’ve never said it to you just because this stupid little reason of mine: ego. You’d probably laughed out loud if I ever propose to you. Not because you think the idea is ridiculous, but because you think I’m just kidding. Me, the blood type A man of reason-logic-norms-rules, asking something so wrapped up with feelings and emotions.
I want to live forever, you know. By forever, I mean together with you.
So… wake up please?
It’s really hard for me not to see your brown orbs any longer. I think they’re breathtakingly beautiful, even though you think they’re too small. I miss them. I miss them as much as I miss your voice and your smile.
Hey Toshiya,
Is it hard to breathe with those equipments? Although your breath is loud and clear, echoing inside that breathing mask, it also seemed that it really burdens you to breathe. It made me feel guilty how freely can I breathe right now. Ah, I wanna share my lungs with you. Actually, I wanna share my everything with you.
…Of course that wouldn’t be possible, so my hands hold yours to share the warmth. It’s the least I can do. I hate how cold your hands are.
Hey Toshiya,
Why do you even have to wait for me that night instead of going home first like usual? You know, this question had swarmed around in my head since that night, even though I know the answer.
Because we just had a huge fight on the morning.
Because that night you came to me at the studio and we talked. You said ‘We’re not over’ for the third time-it’s such a pity that we fought a lot. I smiled and thanked you with my whole heart, promised you silently that I’ll try my best not to fight with you anymore, and promised you out loud that I’ll be done within five minutes.
If you hear me now, you would’ve said ‘it’s not your fault.’ But I can’t help it, Toshiya. I can’t help but blaming myself. Blaming the drunk driver, and even blaming you a bit for waiting on the roadside, isn’t enough.
Hey Toshiya,
I really mean it with that dream. In fact, I think I want to tell you as soon as you wake up. I don’t even want to think that there’s a possibility that you’ll refuse me. Hell, if you refuse, I’ll force you. Har har.
…Can you please stop making me wait any longer?
If I give you a kiss now, will you wake up like snow white or sleeping beauty? If you hear that, you’ll probably laugh and say ‘I’m prettier.’ Ah, I wanna hear you laugh too.
I guess, waking you up with a kiss is too much of a hope, since I’ve kissed you countless times in the last few weeks.
But I tried anyway.
…Your fingers moved and a tear rolled down my face when I saw your eyelashes flutter.
***
The end~