hey *new here* =)
hey I'm new here...
my name is nora. i just turned 26 and i'm from brooklyn NY. but i've gone to school ( forever ::headdesk::) upstate NY, about 2 hours from canada. and i love dutchess county ( good memories down there). I love acting, writing, singing...in terms of phys. activity --i love swimming and volleyball. and i took leave of my senses last year and took a gymnastics class lol...
i was abused since i was 6 and my dad passed away 7 years ago, in march.
i'm trying to graduate with my BA, but i still have 18 credits or so left. most of which i've had trouble passing. though i have to admit, i was very proud that i finally finished a history of theatre class Term paper, with a B+. It was a class i had ended up dropping numerous times, just due to the paper.
I realized( after some traumatic events involving men) that i'm gay. I've had two girlfriends, one of which i feel was my soulmate, and the other one; who i guess will always have a peice of me. I'm currently in love with someone. =) It's nice. I forgot how nice it is. How she puts up with me, i have no idea. but she's been nothing but amazing.
i have PTSD, rapid cycling bipolar, and borderline personality disorder. i also have dissociative/paranoid/extremely dis( or mis?)trusting episodes. I'm in the process of trying to get a therapist/pysch again --for meds, etc. zoloft and lexapro never did anyyyything for me.
onwards and upwards
Fibro symptoms i get: ( build up--starting with immune in Jan 2002)
immune* -- low grade fevers, chills, achy, waves of nausea "hit by a truck"
feeling.
* digestive* IBS, acid reflux
* neurological* shaking hands, numbness, nerve pain( most recently at the base
of my neck)/deep muscle pain, * ungodly freikin twitching*( Linda Blair,
much?..i've seriously "bounced" up off the bed a few times), get dizzy easily,
drop things for no reason, completely lose balance in the dark* --stuttering,
inability to form the first syllable of words sometimes, brain-fog. i'll be
listening to someone talking to me, and then it literally fades out. physically,
i don't hear the person anymore.
muscular-skeletal: *very* easily pulling muscles, spraining, twisting, etc.
also, i can't stand for more than 30 minutes without being in severe pain.
'arthritic' type pain in fingers, hands, shoulders, back, knees, and ankles.
it's the worst in my wrists and knees though.
*sleeping*---err none? lol. well not none, but certainly not enough. i'll wake
up at all hours of the morning, and it'll take me in insane amount of time to
get back *to* sleep. i've averaged between 2 and 6 tylenol pm at a time, just to
sleep
circulatory(?)* -- my hands and feet *freeze* for no reason.
for me, it's set off by cold a lot, and exacerbated by almost any stress.
EMG, and MRI came back normal. as did blood tests, with the only discrepancy beingn that my thyroid levels are within range, but *low*. They shipped me off to a neuropsychiatrist on the same day that i went in to talk to a neurologist. I was really insulted actually. Because i don't feel that fibro is *caused* by depression.
* * *
in addition, i have epstein-barr virus, ( more than likely CFS), Type 2 diabetes, asthma, chronic bronchitis, and evil cramps kept in line by birth control.
vicodin helps when i had it--it was recently prescribed again, but not without said doctor making me feel like a criminal...
i'm happy to see a friend here ;) -- =)
i replied to a few posts, and will do a few more as soon as i can.
depression is a b!tch basically. i can go all day functioning, and then its just like a house of cards...i dont feel like i h ave a lot of faith left in anything; but i try. i try as hard as i can to just survive.
lots of love, and understanding
and thanx for reading.
nora ( aka norabear...aka noraboob lol)
my name is nora. i just turned 26 and i'm from brooklyn NY. but i've gone to school ( forever ::headdesk::) upstate NY, about 2 hours from canada. and i love dutchess county ( good memories down there). I love acting, writing, singing...in terms of phys. activity --i love swimming and volleyball. and i took leave of my senses last year and took a gymnastics class lol...
i was abused since i was 6 and my dad passed away 7 years ago, in march.
i'm trying to graduate with my BA, but i still have 18 credits or so left. most of which i've had trouble passing. though i have to admit, i was very proud that i finally finished a history of theatre class Term paper, with a B+. It was a class i had ended up dropping numerous times, just due to the paper.
I realized( after some traumatic events involving men) that i'm gay. I've had two girlfriends, one of which i feel was my soulmate, and the other one; who i guess will always have a peice of me. I'm currently in love with someone. =) It's nice. I forgot how nice it is. How she puts up with me, i have no idea. but she's been nothing but amazing.
i have PTSD, rapid cycling bipolar, and borderline personality disorder. i also have dissociative/paranoid/extremely dis( or mis?)trusting episodes. I'm in the process of trying to get a therapist/pysch again --for meds, etc. zoloft and lexapro never did anyyyything for me.
onwards and upwards
Fibro symptoms i get: ( build up--starting with immune in Jan 2002)
immune* -- low grade fevers, chills, achy, waves of nausea "hit by a truck"
feeling.
* digestive* IBS, acid reflux
* neurological* shaking hands, numbness, nerve pain( most recently at the base
of my neck)/deep muscle pain, * ungodly freikin twitching*( Linda Blair,
much?..i've seriously "bounced" up off the bed a few times), get dizzy easily,
drop things for no reason, completely lose balance in the dark* --stuttering,
inability to form the first syllable of words sometimes, brain-fog. i'll be
listening to someone talking to me, and then it literally fades out. physically,
i don't hear the person anymore.
muscular-skeletal: *very* easily pulling muscles, spraining, twisting, etc.
also, i can't stand for more than 30 minutes without being in severe pain.
'arthritic' type pain in fingers, hands, shoulders, back, knees, and ankles.
it's the worst in my wrists and knees though.
*sleeping*---err none? lol. well not none, but certainly not enough. i'll wake
up at all hours of the morning, and it'll take me in insane amount of time to
get back *to* sleep. i've averaged between 2 and 6 tylenol pm at a time, just to
sleep
circulatory(?)* -- my hands and feet *freeze* for no reason.
for me, it's set off by cold a lot, and exacerbated by almost any stress.
EMG, and MRI came back normal. as did blood tests, with the only discrepancy beingn that my thyroid levels are within range, but *low*. They shipped me off to a neuropsychiatrist on the same day that i went in to talk to a neurologist. I was really insulted actually. Because i don't feel that fibro is *caused* by depression.
* * *
in addition, i have epstein-barr virus, ( more than likely CFS), Type 2 diabetes, asthma, chronic bronchitis, and evil cramps kept in line by birth control.
vicodin helps when i had it--it was recently prescribed again, but not without said doctor making me feel like a criminal...
i'm happy to see a friend here ;) -- =)
i replied to a few posts, and will do a few more as soon as i can.
depression is a b!tch basically. i can go all day functioning, and then its just like a house of cards...i dont feel like i h ave a lot of faith left in anything; but i try. i try as hard as i can to just survive.
lots of love, and understanding
and thanx for reading.
nora ( aka norabear...aka noraboob lol)