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i really, really hope the fact that i can't sleep at all right now and i've been in more pain than usual for the last couple of days is due to my having 2 exams tomorrow, but there's that nagging suspicion that it probably isn't. my next doctor appointment is on thursday, so i really hope he will be able to figure something out that will work for me. i've had the worst insomnia of my life for the past 2 months and i'm really, really sick of it. i've been struggling w/ it since i was 10 years old, but it's never gone on this long. i take enough meds at night to put a rhinoceros into a coma, and yet somehow it doesn't even phase me. and yet, if i took even a fourth of the meds that i take at night during the day, i'd be out for hours. at the moment i'm taking: 50mg elavil, 16mg rozerem, vicodin, flexeril, and OTC sleeping pills - and more often than not that doesn't even work. i've tried everything as far as "sleep hygeine" and resetting my body clock goes, but it just hasn't worked. neither has melatonin, valerian, chamomile, or homeopathic remedies. i kind of don't want to start benzodiazapines b/c they're so addictive but at the same time i just want to sleep, dammit. i'm at the point where i think i'm just out of other options.