I'm having a baby
So I told my dad last night and he laughed. LAUGHED!
I started crying because I'd been so scared to tell him and kept picturing the disappointed look on his face over and over and over, and he LAUGHED!
He said I had nothing to feel bad or disappointed about. Babies come when they are meant to, and it's just time to adjust plans and make baby number 1. I should be HAPPY, he says. Stop feeling sad, be happy at all times, it's a BABY! No reason to feel anything but happy.
So there you have it. I'm going to be a mommy. And now I have permission to be happy.
I'd been beating myself up over it for so long and had been kinda holding myself back from feeling happy cuz I felt like it was almost weird to feel happy. The timing isn't perfect, but it's not terrible either. Plus he says I am lucky to be having a baby with someone I love and loves me.
Phew.
I went to the lab today, because my insurance change finally kicked in and I found a doctor by Cedars that has a lot of good reviews, and I wanna delivery at Cedars Sinai (that's where I was born! and my dad has always been like, No where but Cedars! He even said so last night haha), and when I called to make an appt they sent me straight to the lab to check the hormone levels and then set up and appt.
I'm excited.
It's the first day I've actually dressed cute and feel fine the whole time.
I mean I've had moments of feeling good and happy, but I've also felt SO sick all the time and tired and slightly depressed, I guess getting the kick in the butt from my dad to be happy and fuck everything else! really helped :)
I'm going to be a mom! OMG!
:-O
I started crying because I'd been so scared to tell him and kept picturing the disappointed look on his face over and over and over, and he LAUGHED!
He said I had nothing to feel bad or disappointed about. Babies come when they are meant to, and it's just time to adjust plans and make baby number 1. I should be HAPPY, he says. Stop feeling sad, be happy at all times, it's a BABY! No reason to feel anything but happy.
So there you have it. I'm going to be a mommy. And now I have permission to be happy.
I'd been beating myself up over it for so long and had been kinda holding myself back from feeling happy cuz I felt like it was almost weird to feel happy. The timing isn't perfect, but it's not terrible either. Plus he says I am lucky to be having a baby with someone I love and loves me.
Phew.
I went to the lab today, because my insurance change finally kicked in and I found a doctor by Cedars that has a lot of good reviews, and I wanna delivery at Cedars Sinai (that's where I was born! and my dad has always been like, No where but Cedars! He even said so last night haha), and when I called to make an appt they sent me straight to the lab to check the hormone levels and then set up and appt.
I'm excited.
It's the first day I've actually dressed cute and feel fine the whole time.
I mean I've had moments of feeling good and happy, but I've also felt SO sick all the time and tired and slightly depressed, I guess getting the kick in the butt from my dad to be happy and fuck everything else! really helped :)
I'm going to be a mom! OMG!
:-O