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I have never felt like such an awful shit as I do right now. It's 1 am, Aug 10th, and I was sitting with my mother watching Red Eye on Fox News and talking about my cousin's fiancee we're gunna meet soon.
Mom: Apparently she's a bit of a hippie, but she sounds cute.
Me: She sounds like a teenage girl.
Mom: Brian says she just turned 21.
Me: Oh. Well that's funny. That means she's about Kelsey's age, cause she'll be 21 in...In...OH MY FUCKING GOD I FORGOT HER BIRTHDAY.
I'm not ashamed to admit I cried, I felt so awful. She's never forgotten my birthday! Like, ever!
How much of a worthless friend am I that I forgot my best friends 21st birthday?! In my head, I KNEW it was Monday, because her birthday is 8-9-89, and that's easy to remember! I just completely passed out in my bed at 5 pm and didn't wake up for 3 hours.
She and I had made plans for this night years ago! We we're gunna get totally wasted. Well, she was, and I was supposed to be the designated driver. Which means she probably went out with her pot smoking, drunk driving friends who have orgies, and got roofied! No way in hell can I trust her boyfriend to protect her from his creepy circle of friends!
The weird thing was? All day Sunday, something was prodding the back of my brain, telling me I should try to get a hold of her soon to hang out. But I told the feeling I would on the weekend, cause she works and her mother has this thing where she never tells Kelsey I call.
*curls up in the corner*
Mom: Apparently she's a bit of a hippie, but she sounds cute.
Me: She sounds like a teenage girl.
Mom: Brian says she just turned 21.
Me: Oh. Well that's funny. That means she's about Kelsey's age, cause she'll be 21 in...In...OH MY FUCKING GOD I FORGOT HER BIRTHDAY.
I'm not ashamed to admit I cried, I felt so awful. She's never forgotten my birthday! Like, ever!
How much of a worthless friend am I that I forgot my best friends 21st birthday?! In my head, I KNEW it was Monday, because her birthday is 8-9-89, and that's easy to remember! I just completely passed out in my bed at 5 pm and didn't wake up for 3 hours.
She and I had made plans for this night years ago! We we're gunna get totally wasted. Well, she was, and I was supposed to be the designated driver. Which means she probably went out with her pot smoking, drunk driving friends who have orgies, and got roofied! No way in hell can I trust her boyfriend to protect her from his creepy circle of friends!
The weird thing was? All day Sunday, something was prodding the back of my brain, telling me I should try to get a hold of her soon to hang out. But I told the feeling I would on the weekend, cause she works and her mother has this thing where she never tells Kelsey I call.
*curls up in the corner*