Fear is a bad thing.
I'm afraid.
I'm afraid that she may not think I'm good enough.
I'm afraid of losing her. I would do anything...ANYTHING...to keep us.
I love my friends and family, but if I have to move to her for us to survive, I'd do it tomorrow and wait tables, manage a retail store, do construction until something permanent came through. I'd live up to an hour or two away based on cost of living.
She is truly the best thing that has ever happened to me. The shining beacon in my life. If I have her in my life, I want for nothing else.
I wake up often, panicked that she's tired of me or the distance.
It's only been a week and I'm already losing it...because I don't want to lose her.
I don't want to hold her back, she's earned this amazing opportunity and I'm SO PROUD of her!
I could never ask her to walk away from it! It's the pathway to her dream!
I want to be with her! To support her! To see her.
I hate this, and yet, I wouldn't change anything - if it means that I'm hers.
I miss her so, so much.
Anyone know anyone hiring in Alexandria or within a 80 mile radius? :(