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okay well everything was perfect. I knew eric wasn't leaving until after christmas...until he went to his meeting today.......
they put his name on this new list thing meaning like hes the first to get a job...now he could leave as early as THIS saturday. I'm so scared. Like part of wants him just to go so we can get the years overwith but most of me wants him to say, at least for christmas. I got myself to excited for him to be here for our first christmas and now once again i have to go back to wondering when he is going to leave. I just want to know...a date. GIVE ME A DAMN DATE PEOPLE! ugh...i dont want him to leave. people tell me they are sorry he's leaving and stuff but no one really understands what its like for me. It is going to be so hard on me when he leaves. so hard. I love him with ever ounce in me...im not just saying that. seriously, you may say, oh you cant be in love-you are too young. no...i am head over heels in love with him and it is going to kill me when he leaves. i know its something he just has to do and hes not doing it to hurt me but ugh I dont even like thinking about him not being with me everystep of the way. I need him here with me, i've become so use to him I dont know how to live without him...i'm gunna need all your guys' help. please...im begging you.
I LOVE THAT BOY WITH ALL MY HEART
they put his name on this new list thing meaning like hes the first to get a job...now he could leave as early as THIS saturday. I'm so scared. Like part of wants him just to go so we can get the years overwith but most of me wants him to say, at least for christmas. I got myself to excited for him to be here for our first christmas and now once again i have to go back to wondering when he is going to leave. I just want to know...a date. GIVE ME A DAMN DATE PEOPLE! ugh...i dont want him to leave. people tell me they are sorry he's leaving and stuff but no one really understands what its like for me. It is going to be so hard on me when he leaves. so hard. I love him with ever ounce in me...im not just saying that. seriously, you may say, oh you cant be in love-you are too young. no...i am head over heels in love with him and it is going to kill me when he leaves. i know its something he just has to do and hes not doing it to hurt me but ugh I dont even like thinking about him not being with me everystep of the way. I need him here with me, i've become so use to him I dont know how to live without him...i'm gunna need all your guys' help. please...im begging you.
I LOVE THAT BOY WITH ALL MY HEART