And so, in conclusion....
I've been living at Millennia Cove for a little over six months now and in all of the time I've lived here, it never entirely felt like home. I think I've finally gotten one of those notions. I want to stop telling myself that this is just a transitonal period and be comfortable here for a short time.
It's not permanent, though. I know that, but I've fallen into one of those mental loops, I think, where I just keep telling myself that. And that makes me less comfortable and less able to relax completely. If I'm always treating my home as though it was someone else's property and someone else's home, then I can't really be comfortable in my own home, can I?
So, today I'm declaring an end to that. I'm here, at least I hope to be, until my lease is up in February of next year. So, I think I'm going to just get used to the fact that I really do live here. Yes, this IS my home. This IS my life.
Oh!
The fifth is when I have an interview with David at Millenia for a visual position. It's temporary, like three weeks, right? But I want to get the job. I want to be able to wow him so that he'll give me a personal referrence. I really want to do visual merchandising! I mean, come on! :)
This is not the official job description, but this is what I see myself doing:
Manipulating the masses to want to wear what I show them. It's totally all about controlling and manipulating people in mass. That would totally get my little inner megalomaniac off! XD More importantly, it would give me a chance to be creative and be paid for it. Come on! If I can reproduce Edvard Munch's The Scream in 1/4" plywood, I can absolutely reproduce a shitty print-out picture in jeans and shirts. XD
It's not permanent, though. I know that, but I've fallen into one of those mental loops, I think, where I just keep telling myself that. And that makes me less comfortable and less able to relax completely. If I'm always treating my home as though it was someone else's property and someone else's home, then I can't really be comfortable in my own home, can I?
So, today I'm declaring an end to that. I'm here, at least I hope to be, until my lease is up in February of next year. So, I think I'm going to just get used to the fact that I really do live here. Yes, this IS my home. This IS my life.
Oh!
The fifth is when I have an interview with David at Millenia for a visual position. It's temporary, like three weeks, right? But I want to get the job. I want to be able to wow him so that he'll give me a personal referrence. I really want to do visual merchandising! I mean, come on! :)
This is not the official job description, but this is what I see myself doing:
Manipulating the masses to want to wear what I show them. It's totally all about controlling and manipulating people in mass. That would totally get my little inner megalomaniac off! XD More importantly, it would give me a chance to be creative and be paid for it. Come on! If I can reproduce Edvard Munch's The Scream in 1/4" plywood, I can absolutely reproduce a shitty print-out picture in jeans and shirts. XD