Still Waters...
You walk around the shoreline to find a nice place to rest. Brilliant white and gold lilies border the waterline and frogs peep in the distance. All around you, the birds sing and a warm summer breeze flows through the trees. The feeling is amazing and you can not seem to get enough. Finally, you reach a warm rock ledge that allows you to lie down and peer into the still, blue waters. There are fish and cool green algae that move beneath the surface- but never break it. You wish to jump in and experience it for yourself but the stillness and the silence gives it an unusual untouchable quality. So you sit. And do nothing more. There is a particularly beautiful fish that comes and stares you in the face, and you believe it might actually break the gripping silence, but it never actually does. It swims away, just like the others into the deep unreachable depths. Another one gone. More waiting. Well, as the old cliché goes:
There is more than one fish in the sea
The only thing is,
I kind of wanted that one.
I feel stupid, for letting myself do this again. I saw it coming from a hundred miles away- yet I ignored it and let myself believe what I wanted to. The dumb thing is I knew it. For one of the first times, I knew it. And I let myself fall.
I am a girl, and I am stupid- just like the rest of them.
Besides that
I am super glad things probably wont change, for the worse anyways. It will still be fun- we’re too old to handle this immaturely. Maybe this is just a part of the whole experience. I like high school. But it sucks a lot sometimes.
The great thing is
I’m Okay. I’m not dead, or even injured. And worse things have happened and are going to happen. So, whoever reads this, do not worry about me. Im still me, and I am not going to act any different than I have been. Understand that, and know that it doesn’t actually bother as much as it seems.
Feelings probably will not go away for a while, but that’s ok. Nothing ever does.
I like my life and where I stand right now. Its normal and whatever- you know?
After all
You never know what you may find beneath still waters
Life is exciting
Lets play music!