ahh the holidays...
it finally feels like the holidays are over now, even tho ive been in school for a week already. >.<
geez, alot has happened, or should i say-
alot continues to happen.
its funny, how fast and hard you can fall for someone, something, anything really.
i have yet to figure out what makes a person so vulnerable, and so out of control of themselves.
ive been working on controling myself and thinking through my thoughts, so nothing really unnecessary happens, yet i let something slip.
i dont know how things are going to work out. i dont even have a clue. oh well, on to happier subjects now
SO. haha i dont really remember what i last wrote about... whatevs.
i dont like being at school hardly at all anymore. its hard, annoying, sometimes boring, and tedious. grrr. maybe it would be easier if i did more of my work... =) nah.
so, my break was pretty awesome, aside from some unnecessary drama, it was pretty good. im super glad i got to hang out with the people i did. it was a really nice change for me. ive never seen so many movies over one break in my life lol. im also really glad that i was able to strengthen some friendships (at least i think) that i now wish i had had the chance to earlier, but oh well better now than never. i fully enjoyed hanging out with my college buds, now they're gone for a while, and that makes me pretty sad, im not gonna lie.
last night was alot of fun too. i got to hang out with lorissa, which doesnt usually happen, and ray for the last time for a while, and jacob. i dont care how retarded we all are. its pretty ballin. fo sho. cant wait till spring break! heehee
hmm, so thats pretty much it for now
about what i was saying at the beginning. i really wish something in my life would take root somewhere. i need some solidity right now. no more floating around, cuz its getting annoying. im tired of dealing with confusion. it sucks and its a major distraction for the teeny bit of me that still cares about the rest of my life (basically, school lol) aarrgghh! World, Hurry UP!!!!!!
i believe i regret not saying something to somebody, myabe it woud have solved something. maybe not. maybe next time...