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[fgirl67]

i was happy until i was 7
and tortured until i was almost 17
he took away my childhood with his hate
i should have stopped him until it was too late
i was just a pawn in his little game
just a chile he knew he could tame
i would be forced on my bed to look at my curtains of lace
right before he would pull my shirt over my face i could feel his breath and his heart race
as he molested me at his usual rapid pace
he would reek the smell of beer and alchohol
as he leaned down to whisper things in my ear
i thought it wasnt normal, i thought it wasnt right for supposed bill to do this one night
silent tears ran down my cheeks as he did this
once in my own sanctuary i sat in the bathroom and thought this had to be
unfair
then i would pick up a bar of soap and think "how
dirty do i feel tonight?"
it led to my suicidal stage
where i had nothing for myself except hate and
rage
i will never forgive him for what he did
he was a grown man, and a police officer and i was just a teenage gurl
<> salina<> i worte this because it is what i am feeling this moment...