just a few things
alright i know its been about a month but you know what the only things that i know that go on have been extremely shitty with one exception is a party that i threw here in early april.
first of all i just want to wish everyone a big "FUCK OFF" why do i say that, hmm lets think, in the past two weeks i've tried to make repeated plans and this is what i get "sure we can hang out on whenever" then that day rolls around and then its "oo thats today, omg im so busy, im sorry maybe someother time" well take that someother time and shove it up your ass cuz i know you don't wanna hangout, so just say that in the first place and make my life easier for not having false hope and your life too so you don't have to think of an excuse in the future.....it would be different if it was only once but nope that happened with 3 people i know the day i threw the party and it also happened with a friend who got off work at 4 am, and was not more than 50 feet from where i was working and i asked to stop in and she of course said "sure ill be there" and it also happened tonight with a friend who told ME she wanted to go out and hit up the bars but nope never mind that, yeah you could say im just a little bit pissed off right now
secondly balancing work and school blows ass, theres no way to do it, esp when you work a third shift job, i never sleep and when i do sleep it takes the place of all other functions including classes and other shit like that its just not working.....and it doesn't help that i didn't get in the nursing program, i had a FUCKIN 3.0 and the cutoff was a god damn 3.4 thats rediculous, im a B student and im not good enough what the fuck, and people at work are really starting to piss me off too, they either A) go extremely slow, B) bitch about every little thing they have do to do or C) talk an excessive amount that they end up stop working all together, with some people its an exception because they have all FUCK THREE OF THEM
alright now in reference to those few that actually took the time and went through my lj and replyed to my survey, most of the people that replyed don't really know me all that well with an exception of two of you, i don't think i really need to say which two they are, secondly yes emotionally i am alone, maybe its because i have bad taste in women or maybe its cause many won't even give me the time of day unless im a friend, either way it doesn't help, i don't like being lonely but thats all i got right now, cuz no one will date me, the one thing i did find funny was that when it came to stealing something it all depended on what it was i thought it was kinda funny cuz if i stole something small it seems like mostly everyone would care......
the party i threw at the begining of this month was actually the most fun that i've had in a long time..........and possibly for a long time after this now too, at least i had a blast and the few people taht i talked to said they had a good time, but the way people have been lieing right to my face i only partially believe that, at least one thing is for sure, i had my best friend in the world there, my buddy nick, hes the only one that i can stand to be around whos from my home town, and its slowly becoming one of the few people i want to hang out with period
all in all im just pissed off and hurt right now cuz i've been going through a rough time and just when things start looking up they come crashing right back down, and now with my good friends all gone or working whenever im actually around, i just feel even more alone than what i normally feel without a special someone, o well thats all for my bitching for now, who knows maybe if things get worse ill throw another one up and im not even sure if anyone will read this one or that one so who knows, bye
first of all i just want to wish everyone a big "FUCK OFF" why do i say that, hmm lets think, in the past two weeks i've tried to make repeated plans and this is what i get "sure we can hang out on whenever" then that day rolls around and then its "oo thats today, omg im so busy, im sorry maybe someother time" well take that someother time and shove it up your ass cuz i know you don't wanna hangout, so just say that in the first place and make my life easier for not having false hope and your life too so you don't have to think of an excuse in the future.....it would be different if it was only once but nope that happened with 3 people i know the day i threw the party and it also happened with a friend who got off work at 4 am, and was not more than 50 feet from where i was working and i asked to stop in and she of course said "sure ill be there" and it also happened tonight with a friend who told ME she wanted to go out and hit up the bars but nope never mind that, yeah you could say im just a little bit pissed off right now
secondly balancing work and school blows ass, theres no way to do it, esp when you work a third shift job, i never sleep and when i do sleep it takes the place of all other functions including classes and other shit like that its just not working.....and it doesn't help that i didn't get in the nursing program, i had a FUCKIN 3.0 and the cutoff was a god damn 3.4 thats rediculous, im a B student and im not good enough what the fuck, and people at work are really starting to piss me off too, they either A) go extremely slow, B) bitch about every little thing they have do to do or C) talk an excessive amount that they end up stop working all together, with some people its an exception because they have all FUCK THREE OF THEM
alright now in reference to those few that actually took the time and went through my lj and replyed to my survey, most of the people that replyed don't really know me all that well with an exception of two of you, i don't think i really need to say which two they are, secondly yes emotionally i am alone, maybe its because i have bad taste in women or maybe its cause many won't even give me the time of day unless im a friend, either way it doesn't help, i don't like being lonely but thats all i got right now, cuz no one will date me, the one thing i did find funny was that when it came to stealing something it all depended on what it was i thought it was kinda funny cuz if i stole something small it seems like mostly everyone would care......
the party i threw at the begining of this month was actually the most fun that i've had in a long time..........and possibly for a long time after this now too, at least i had a blast and the few people taht i talked to said they had a good time, but the way people have been lieing right to my face i only partially believe that, at least one thing is for sure, i had my best friend in the world there, my buddy nick, hes the only one that i can stand to be around whos from my home town, and its slowly becoming one of the few people i want to hang out with period
all in all im just pissed off and hurt right now cuz i've been going through a rough time and just when things start looking up they come crashing right back down, and now with my good friends all gone or working whenever im actually around, i just feel even more alone than what i normally feel without a special someone, o well thats all for my bitching for now, who knows maybe if things get worse ill throw another one up and im not even sure if anyone will read this one or that one so who knows, bye