going insane

[ffweatherman]

nothing leaves me with any sort of lasting happiness lately. all I can think about are 'what ifs' and regrets. everything is passing me by and I feel like there's nothing I can do to change that. I just sit here and smoke and wonder about how I was so lucky with women in college and how I must be doing something wrong now.

inb4 encouragement and platitudes, I'm just here to wallow in self-pity.

I should really start writing that book, what the fuck else am I going to do