drastic fantastic
GROUND ZERO lessons today and I have this brilliant idea to create a new LJ (which I've taken to calling ellejay yay for homonyms) and pretty soon I'm drafting my first post in my head and I'm all psyched to have my own rant space since my bright is far too slight to hold back all my dark so hurrah for realisation!
There are so many things running through my mind that it is breaking (beautifully); life is tumultuous schmultuous and on an average day I alternate between feeling intensely happy and incredibly depressed but for the most part I find myself having these insanely peculiar thought processes: should I French-braid my hair tomorrow I AM ODIOUS oh shite Chinese orals study study study for CTs social nightmaaaare damn there's duty tomorrow I wish I could figure out what goes on in ________'s head ooh MAPS MAPS MAPS makes my heart melt I love Zooey Deschanel ooh Tumblr is my happy place etc. Basically a little compartmentalising would do me some good! My waves of happiness seem to be negated by underlying hints of sadness which is disgustingly complex and just mmmmmehhhhhhhh
From today on I am rating my days on a scale of 1 to 10 -I give today a six half and while I'm drowning in the glaring mediocrity of my life I keep hoping that someday'll be a 10
There are so many things running through my mind that it is breaking (beautifully); life is tumultuous schmultuous and on an average day I alternate between feeling intensely happy and incredibly depressed but for the most part I find myself having these insanely peculiar thought processes: should I French-braid my hair tomorrow I AM ODIOUS oh shite Chinese orals study study study for CTs social nightmaaaare damn there's duty tomorrow I wish I could figure out what goes on in ________'s head ooh MAPS MAPS MAPS makes my heart melt I love Zooey Deschanel ooh Tumblr is my happy place etc. Basically a little compartmentalising would do me some good! My waves of happiness seem to be negated by underlying hints of sadness which is disgustingly complex and just mmmmmehhhhhhhh
From today on I am rating my days on a scale of 1 to 10 -I give today a six half and while I'm drowning in the glaring mediocrity of my life I keep hoping that someday'll be a 10