to be

[fffffreakout__]

the hero is all i ask.
can i be buried here among the dead?

i feel like...bleh.
i don't know why.
i feel like i could sleep a whole year or more away.
everybody thinks i'm depressed because the cody thing
and that's not it. at all. i swear to you.
i just feel super worthless right now.

everybody also wants me to come back to school,
but i made my decision. i'm not going back.
i know what i'm doing, so don't try to talk me out of it.
i don't need your opinion on it so keep it to yourself.

i thought about deleting the entries about cody,
but i'm not going to. i don't know why.
maybe just to keep them for memories.
i don't knowwwwwww.
i don't need your opinion on this either.
so keep it to yourself.
thank you.

i've learned so much this year.
it makes me feel good.

there is one thing that i'm super afraid of.
dying alone.
i don't know, i just feel like i'm going to.
i know, everybody says, "everybody has a soulmate. you'll find that perfect guy someday."
but for some reason i don't think i'm going to.
i just have that gut feeling.
don't know.

my head hurts.
bye.
♥,
kylie.