Almost feel bad

[ffems56]

So I keep reading what I wrote the other day. Still no remorse. I am being honest. I am done trying. Lindsey explained to me I need to just keep trying, which I explained I dont want to anymore. You know it's pretty bad when someone can get you this frustrated. No one else manages to get me this mad, so easily. I used to get mad...correction

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Thank You!!!

[reppin213]

talk baout the pot calling the kettle black. so now it is in writing; that you could care less what the other person has to say as long as you get your point "out in the open." whether right or wrong, you just want your point spoken. isn't that what you are saying i'm doing that makes you so mad? you could care less what they have to say, you wouldn't admit if you were wrong in the heat of the moment either. you just wrote it. well, seems like we are not so different, you and I, after all does it. now that your being honest. if i do recall, which i do, you were the first to screem your head off, the last two arguments that we had...now what does that say. and of course people are going to try to defend themselves when being accused of something, it is natural. you do it as well. by bringing one of the other person's wrong doings up is one method of defense. well kev, you managed to get everything that you needed to say in words, to show that you are just as human as I, and that we are more alike than you think, in some ways. these are more words than i could have ever asked for. thank you very much! by the way, i know the way i talked to lindz was not nice, but just remember, people speak with out thinking. you do it as well. i knew it was wrong the second after i said it.

Dont thank anyone yet....

[ffems56]

You didnt understand, let me try this again. Starting from the first screaming match we had, this is what happened. I started yelling how I dont like how you did certain things around Lindsey. I dont think I need to say them again, so I wont. I remember one of your arguements was "now you know how it feels". Why would any human do something wrong that they have experienced themselfs, knowing full well it sucks! I didnt understand that arguement. And you also said I dont tell people when I get mad. What was I doing then? Matt I have tryed for years to tell you things, and when you didnt want to hear it you got pissed and started throwing blame everywhere. I have never told you one thing that wasnt good w/o you blaming someone else. That was talking. So I assumed yelling might get my point across. Obviously that didnt work either.

Now to the the statments you were just making. "that you could care less what the other person has to say as long as you get your point "out in the open."" is not correct. What I meant was I dont care about anything but the current issue. When I start yelling about how someone is being disrespectful, I couldnt care less about how I dont show my feelings enough. I want whoever I am argueing w/ to know why I am angry. I dont want them to bring up old arguements. That to me seems like a person who doesnt express their feelings enough. That sounds like someone who has to wait untill the other one starts something. I mean, I could be wrong, thats just how it sounds to me.

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME! "i knew it was wrong the second after i said it". We would not have this fucking problem if you told me that right then and there! No, you started argueing with me, about how I didnt show you respect. Why? Why didnt I show you respect? You know why, its because you didnt show Lindsey respect. If you had just admitted this right fucking then I would have said, "OK just dont do it again". I seriously woulda dropped it right then and there, and you know I would have. If you knew you were wrong, why did you persue the idea that you were right and I was at fault. Thats what I didnt like. And thats why I feel arguements w/ you are pointless and a waste of time. Let this roll through your mind for a little while.

Re: Dont thank anyone yet....

[reppin213]

i think you missed the point that you said that i threw my gas cap, which i didn't, but you still said it anyway even though there was no posible way for you to see...also, we are not all perfect like you kev, i know a few people that don't think as clearly as they would in any normal situation, hence the reason that i didn't say anything at that time. and another thing, lindsey has her own mouth and her own voice. she can defend herself. i didn't need to tell YOU anything.