LJ comeback?
Hi LJ Commie bastards,
It's been over a year or so since my last confession & I suppose I'll still use LJ here for more personal entries than sitonmyfacebook or spymace.
I'm in Oceanside, California at he moment, at a Starbux near mom's place (free wifi & 2$ coffee, but no smoking even NEAR the door- harumpf!)... on a 4-week holiday in USA after a mini-holiday in Croatia & mini-tour in Italy.
I'm at one of those crucial moments in life where everything is capable of changing at the drop of a hat. You know how sometimes in your life two fingers just snap and everything in your little universe shifts... I can say that's happened a few times for me in these four decades, & yes, Fez is approaching 40 years this October.
California is a lonely place. It's no wonder most people have a look of panic & sadness on their faces all the time-- I'm not USA-bashing or anything, these are just real observations and feelings... maybe it's just my own personal loneliness, but swear to god when I drive around by myself at night (in mom's car) I sometimes feel like crying for no reason. how Morrissey, i know, but seriously, it's weird. Maybe it's just my umpteenth midlife crisis.
Anyway, I'm gonna do a full-on FezWRecker recap of life since the Speakeasy-- just so I can put it in perspective for myself. I guess since I'm experiencing this melancholia, it'd be a good time to sit & do some reflection, (especially before the mayhem begins again when I return to Berlin in September).
Just a warning of words to come... brace yourselves, & embrace yourselves.
It's been over a year or so since my last confession & I suppose I'll still use LJ here for more personal entries than sitonmyfacebook or spymace.
I'm in Oceanside, California at he moment, at a Starbux near mom's place (free wifi & 2$ coffee, but no smoking even NEAR the door- harumpf!)... on a 4-week holiday in USA after a mini-holiday in Croatia & mini-tour in Italy.
I'm at one of those crucial moments in life where everything is capable of changing at the drop of a hat. You know how sometimes in your life two fingers just snap and everything in your little universe shifts... I can say that's happened a few times for me in these four decades, & yes, Fez is approaching 40 years this October.
California is a lonely place. It's no wonder most people have a look of panic & sadness on their faces all the time-- I'm not USA-bashing or anything, these are just real observations and feelings... maybe it's just my own personal loneliness, but swear to god when I drive around by myself at night (in mom's car) I sometimes feel like crying for no reason. how Morrissey, i know, but seriously, it's weird. Maybe it's just my umpteenth midlife crisis.
Anyway, I'm gonna do a full-on FezWRecker recap of life since the Speakeasy-- just so I can put it in perspective for myself. I guess since I'm experiencing this melancholia, it'd be a good time to sit & do some reflection, (especially before the mayhem begins again when I return to Berlin in September).
Just a warning of words to come... brace yourselves, & embrace yourselves.