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I can't sleep I dunno, It's been a good few months, but I still miss him. Why? The girls and I were just venting to eachother about everything. How messed up our relationships got and stuff like that. How so many things were unfair and how ou hearts still belong to them. Though we want so much to be over that person and move on and find someone that will love us, all we want is them, our hearts are theirs, and it's. I cried, still am. I've cried too much over him, and living back in the dorms, I'm flooded with all of the memories we shared here. I think about him everytime I walk around the building. Davis is full of memories we shared, everywhere I go I think "J and I were there once." I still am in love with him, I still think of him every passing day, I still cry and still ache. I have some of his voicemails saved, the ones where he says I love you and the ones where he is angry and ones that he's being goofy, I think I hold on to them to remind myself of what we once had. I need to let go, but I can't I don't know. The fantacy that we might get back together isn't there anymore but the memories of him won't go away. I wonder if he does feel as if he wants to get back together, if he feels at all want I feel? I find myself asking myself that quaetion a lot.
F. B. K. = we all have issues that we need to deal with, choices we need to make and time that we need to heal. how all of that is going to work I don't know.
But as for now, I'm gonna hear the saddest songs and sit alone and wonder how he's making out, but as for me I wish that I was anywhere with anyone making out. I'm missing his laugh, I wonder if he's as happy as he's pretending.
I'm just going to take this bottle of beast and take another shot and drown in it.
Pride this weekend, I don't want to see him, unless he's there wih me.
ok, one more shot, maybe two. then off to bed, I miss him so much.
over it....g'night
F. B. K. = we all have issues that we need to deal with, choices we need to make and time that we need to heal. how all of that is going to work I don't know.
But as for now, I'm gonna hear the saddest songs and sit alone and wonder how he's making out, but as for me I wish that I was anywhere with anyone making out. I'm missing his laugh, I wonder if he's as happy as he's pretending.
I'm just going to take this bottle of beast and take another shot and drown in it.
Pride this weekend, I don't want to see him, unless he's there wih me.
ok, one more shot, maybe two. then off to bed, I miss him so much.
over it....g'night