fuck
so the time comes again. every time i post in this journal something in my life is going wrong. I am constantly comparing myself to others. This is not a valid way to perceive one's self. I am me, not them. Yet everyday all I do is compare. I will NEVER compare to the ones I pick out to compare myself with. The people who stick out, that I end up comparing myself with, are people who are farther than I'd like to be by default or else I wouldn't of noticed them in the first place. There is not enough time. It'll be 50 years before I become the person I compared myself to yesterday. I see the flaw in my emotions and thinking but I cannot find a way for my emotional state to overcome it.