Concertrated Integrity
The dust is flying and the cob webbs are taken down-say hello to Avery's Live Journal. And much love to CiCiPooh-Christine for giving such knd words and the elusive SndChaser, whom I have yet to actually know his name.
Reagardless, I in such a state of laughter due to the fact that I gave up my flat in the Castro almost a year ago and now I find myself returning to San Francisco only to be staying in some rather lovely bed and breakfasts. The price is a bit lofty though it is far less expensive than living in the city for now. Sssshhh, I am looking into returning there after Christmas perhaps, then again a friend of mine is mentioning a move to NYC-who knows now? I shall weigh my situation deeply when October nears, as I feel most grounded in autumn.
San Francisco has so much to offer, however I feel its a bit cloistered. As in the arts are limited, and art should never be limited, though perhaps its an American thing if so why do the expense of New York? I hear New York is wonderful, on my past experiences I found it caustic and a tad frightening. London obviously was, is and always shall be my perfect choice to live but dreams sometimes remain only dreams. I wish, I hope and pray that the UK would open its arms to me so the ideal life I lead would begin again. Sitting in spector shoes, reading a book in a cardigan, while eating some McVitties GingerSnaps with a bottle of mineral water next to the pond at WaterLoo Park in HighGate. If I had my wish now I would be living there yet again.
Living is what I will be doing now, my hair is shorn, my nose is new. Yes my sweet readers I have changed a little bit of my nose due to vanity. Nothinig more, nothing less I wanted a more pleasing nose and I purchased the procedure. Gasp! I also will be signing up for the gym tomorrow, shocking really? I dispise bulk but crave definition with no alterations in my clothing. Yuck, I dont want to become a muscled, non thinker, seriously I already am quite aware of my self worth but to drum in Calvin Klien fitness leveles woudl kill my need to embrace education and degradation. I am a deviant first and a misfit second, its a love and a loathing contridiction to adore it. But thats what I am a contradiction to some and a frustration to others, but mostly a distraction to myself....
Reagardless, I in such a state of laughter due to the fact that I gave up my flat in the Castro almost a year ago and now I find myself returning to San Francisco only to be staying in some rather lovely bed and breakfasts. The price is a bit lofty though it is far less expensive than living in the city for now. Sssshhh, I am looking into returning there after Christmas perhaps, then again a friend of mine is mentioning a move to NYC-who knows now? I shall weigh my situation deeply when October nears, as I feel most grounded in autumn.
San Francisco has so much to offer, however I feel its a bit cloistered. As in the arts are limited, and art should never be limited, though perhaps its an American thing if so why do the expense of New York? I hear New York is wonderful, on my past experiences I found it caustic and a tad frightening. London obviously was, is and always shall be my perfect choice to live but dreams sometimes remain only dreams. I wish, I hope and pray that the UK would open its arms to me so the ideal life I lead would begin again. Sitting in spector shoes, reading a book in a cardigan, while eating some McVitties GingerSnaps with a bottle of mineral water next to the pond at WaterLoo Park in HighGate. If I had my wish now I would be living there yet again.
Living is what I will be doing now, my hair is shorn, my nose is new. Yes my sweet readers I have changed a little bit of my nose due to vanity. Nothinig more, nothing less I wanted a more pleasing nose and I purchased the procedure. Gasp! I also will be signing up for the gym tomorrow, shocking really? I dispise bulk but crave definition with no alterations in my clothing. Yuck, I dont want to become a muscled, non thinker, seriously I already am quite aware of my self worth but to drum in Calvin Klien fitness leveles woudl kill my need to embrace education and degradation. I am a deviant first and a misfit second, its a love and a loathing contridiction to adore it. But thats what I am a contradiction to some and a frustration to others, but mostly a distraction to myself....