computers, marriage, and Taoism (OH MY!)
I decided to walk to the library today to use the computer then realize that it might be closed cause of the holiday observation. On top of it, I should have worn my hat cause my ears were red and burning by the time I got here. (Obviously it wasn't closed.) I curled my hair all cute too so I didn't want to waste it by staying home and doing nothing.
I won't have gas money till tomorrow anyway so after this its home again home again jiggity jig to entertain myself alone. My home phone should be hooked up after this week so those of you who don't get calls anymore can start exspecting them. I found out we are using way too many of our cell minutes up, plus I needed a line from SBC to get the GBnet working at my place anyway. I will have my computer in about a month. Till then I've been freaking out! Sol's cable and internet will be hooked up tomorrow since I moved over the GBnet to my place so I can keep my sanity by using the computer at his place for the next month.
Ok, so I've had a weird dream last night. All I got to say is that Mandy, you better not move to Alaska to be with your new internet boyfriend and secretly have a baby before going! ( You named her Katie and she had cute dark hair btw.) It was freaking weird! I woke up and was like, " whoa... that was a mind blow."
Oh yea, also other big news. Things with me being a Royal are finally getting closer to being done with. Also Sol and I had some very serious talks. It pretty much came down to the point that I want him to dedicated to me if he wants to stay with me, e.i. making things permanent. Don't worry though, of course I'm not going to jump into that situation again... ( haven't gotten rid of the old one completely yet) But I told him I want him to decided if that is what he wants cause thats what I want and I need to be sure hes the one I'll stay with. Does any of this make sense? I don't think I need to go into any more specifics without bringing up even more personal stuff. He said hes glad we finally talked about it, both of us has just really been trying to enjoy how things are at the moment but that topic keeps eatting at our brains. So it was finally talked about and I feel better about it. A bit scared too. To think that the person you are in love with might just say,' I care about you and like how things are now, but I don't want to marry you.' is a bit scary.
So yea. Enough of that serious babble. He and I are hanging out tomorrow and I'm gonna try VERY hard not to mention it to him so I won't make him think I'm ready to get it done asap. Cause thats not even the case.
I think I'm going to become a Taoist. Yep, they seem peaceful and happy alot and I think thats what I need. I thought about the churches in the area to go to, but would feel weird checking them out by myself. ( not Taoist churches, but Catholic ones.) So, till I get the stones to do it, I'll study Taoism. And learn about Feng Shui.
Laters.
P.S. For the next 3 days i have vacation again. Gonna blow a load of money on my hair at the salon Wednesday... hope it doesn't suck.
I won't have gas money till tomorrow anyway so after this its home again home again jiggity jig to entertain myself alone. My home phone should be hooked up after this week so those of you who don't get calls anymore can start exspecting them. I found out we are using way too many of our cell minutes up, plus I needed a line from SBC to get the GBnet working at my place anyway. I will have my computer in about a month. Till then I've been freaking out! Sol's cable and internet will be hooked up tomorrow since I moved over the GBnet to my place so I can keep my sanity by using the computer at his place for the next month.
Ok, so I've had a weird dream last night. All I got to say is that Mandy, you better not move to Alaska to be with your new internet boyfriend and secretly have a baby before going! ( You named her Katie and she had cute dark hair btw.) It was freaking weird! I woke up and was like, " whoa... that was a mind blow."
Oh yea, also other big news. Things with me being a Royal are finally getting closer to being done with. Also Sol and I had some very serious talks. It pretty much came down to the point that I want him to dedicated to me if he wants to stay with me, e.i. making things permanent. Don't worry though, of course I'm not going to jump into that situation again... ( haven't gotten rid of the old one completely yet) But I told him I want him to decided if that is what he wants cause thats what I want and I need to be sure hes the one I'll stay with. Does any of this make sense? I don't think I need to go into any more specifics without bringing up even more personal stuff. He said hes glad we finally talked about it, both of us has just really been trying to enjoy how things are at the moment but that topic keeps eatting at our brains. So it was finally talked about and I feel better about it. A bit scared too. To think that the person you are in love with might just say,' I care about you and like how things are now, but I don't want to marry you.' is a bit scary.
So yea. Enough of that serious babble. He and I are hanging out tomorrow and I'm gonna try VERY hard not to mention it to him so I won't make him think I'm ready to get it done asap. Cause thats not even the case.
I think I'm going to become a Taoist. Yep, they seem peaceful and happy alot and I think thats what I need. I thought about the churches in the area to go to, but would feel weird checking them out by myself. ( not Taoist churches, but Catholic ones.) So, till I get the stones to do it, I'll study Taoism. And learn about Feng Shui.
Laters.
P.S. For the next 3 days i have vacation again. Gonna blow a load of money on my hair at the salon Wednesday... hope it doesn't suck.