Today's news
So, as of today, as far as I know, yesterday's news no longer matters. The money's not coming from the bank, but rather from relatives. This improves the situation, relatively, to an extent. I will be able to make my tuition payment on time. Thus, as far as I'm aware, I will be set as far as attending college as planned this fall. Everything's back to normal, mostly. I've still got an unacceptably short amount of time to get the paperwork back to the college, and can only hope nothing's fallen through since when they sent it to me...
I mean, falling back on something I already said, if anything's made itself apparent to me, it's how incredibly short a period of time it takes for things to completely fall apart. That being said, it's also occurring to me that things are almost never quite as bad as they seem, or rather, as I make them seem. I won't speak to things that haven't happened yet, but this situation is probably just going to be another lesson to me that I shouldn't panic or give up. Yeah, I felt like it for a moment there. It's just so stupid, that if it weren't for people over-extending themselves for me, I would have been done, hopeless. And you know, I know that's what they say, that people are there for each other, but it still makes me uncomfortable to rely on people, or even accept help when it's offered. If I fail, I feel it should be my failure, and that no one should be expected to rescue me from it, as has happened. You do what it takes, I suppose.
I see the other side of the situation, too, don't get me wrong. I help people whenever I can, and in whatever way I can. I never understand why people are so reluctant to accept help, or why they're so incredibly appreciative when they do. Even if it is some great inconvenience for me to help someone, it never exactly seems that way to me. They need something that I have, to deny them as per my own convenience is out of my nature entirely. The way I figure it, things have got to even out eventually, and maybe that's proving to be the case now. Again, though, I'm not counting myself as through this yet, there's still another couple weeks in which things can get completely messed up. Pray for the best, prepare for the worst.
I mean, falling back on something I already said, if anything's made itself apparent to me, it's how incredibly short a period of time it takes for things to completely fall apart. That being said, it's also occurring to me that things are almost never quite as bad as they seem, or rather, as I make them seem. I won't speak to things that haven't happened yet, but this situation is probably just going to be another lesson to me that I shouldn't panic or give up. Yeah, I felt like it for a moment there. It's just so stupid, that if it weren't for people over-extending themselves for me, I would have been done, hopeless. And you know, I know that's what they say, that people are there for each other, but it still makes me uncomfortable to rely on people, or even accept help when it's offered. If I fail, I feel it should be my failure, and that no one should be expected to rescue me from it, as has happened. You do what it takes, I suppose.
I see the other side of the situation, too, don't get me wrong. I help people whenever I can, and in whatever way I can. I never understand why people are so reluctant to accept help, or why they're so incredibly appreciative when they do. Even if it is some great inconvenience for me to help someone, it never exactly seems that way to me. They need something that I have, to deny them as per my own convenience is out of my nature entirely. The way I figure it, things have got to even out eventually, and maybe that's proving to be the case now. Again, though, I'm not counting myself as through this yet, there's still another couple weeks in which things can get completely messed up. Pray for the best, prepare for the worst.