It's out...let's deal with it.
So, Lately things have seemed kinda crazy. I feel like I'm basically losing all my friends...and the ones that I'm losing terribly...I don't really care if I do or not. I have the friends I talk to everyday...and the ones I love...then, the ones who Im just completely losing...and just way to stubborn to give a fuck. I have about a whole...2 friends (including Jessie) that I trust to the point where I feel I can tell almost anything (well, I can tell Jessie anything, of course).
Then, Come to find out...Holly and Leon find something out and can't wait to tell everyone in the fuckin' world. I dunno how they found out but I think it's probably time to mind your own fuckin' business. So, everyone knows now....it's out. From what I've heard...no ones going crazy about it. I never cared if people knew or not...I just dont wanna deal with anyones shit. Jess and I love each other...and it's NO ONE elses business...in the world.
I'm finally starting to see what Emily was really talking about....our group...isn't much of a group anymore. Our group consist of everyone talking behind the others back...the other finds out...gets pissed...someone else talks...everyones pissed...drama...drama...drama. thats all it is...Im SO sick of it. "The Gang" just kinda drifted. Sure, I'm friends with almost everyone I originally was...but, now theres some I don't talk to or see as much, some I can't stand, and some that don't like me to begin with but are too fucking fake to say it to my face...
I mean...I'm happy with what I have...I just hate the constant feeling of "what if this person is saying this?" or "what if they really think this..." I shouldn't have to feel like that with my friends. 'specially my "best friends". It's just ridiculous now...Someones always saying something wrong, someones always overreacting, doing something wrong, killing people, looking at you the wrong way, not cooking the noodles long enough...it's always SOMETHING. Even this its self will probably cause a rumble. I'll hear in a week, "this person said...when you said the thing about the noodles...you were a total dick...and way out of line"...fuck your noodles. IM SICK OF DRAMA.
I know this entry seemed like TOTALLY random...but, the past couple days or w/e...with all the crap "secretly" happening (seeing how NO ONE who talks behind my back can ACTUALLY say anything to my face) I just really started thinking about how JUST this year it's self has been with the drama...and it's been pretty damn bad...nothing WAY serious...but theres been drama with EVERYONE.
I can honestly say...right now everythings good. EXCEPT...most of my friendships. I think everyones just ready for Christmas break...I know I am..
Im tired...goodnight.
Then, Come to find out...Holly and Leon find something out and can't wait to tell everyone in the fuckin' world. I dunno how they found out but I think it's probably time to mind your own fuckin' business. So, everyone knows now....it's out. From what I've heard...no ones going crazy about it. I never cared if people knew or not...I just dont wanna deal with anyones shit. Jess and I love each other...and it's NO ONE elses business...in the world.
I'm finally starting to see what Emily was really talking about....our group...isn't much of a group anymore. Our group consist of everyone talking behind the others back...the other finds out...gets pissed...someone else talks...everyones pissed...drama...drama...drama. thats all it is...Im SO sick of it. "The Gang" just kinda drifted. Sure, I'm friends with almost everyone I originally was...but, now theres some I don't talk to or see as much, some I can't stand, and some that don't like me to begin with but are too fucking fake to say it to my face...
I mean...I'm happy with what I have...I just hate the constant feeling of "what if this person is saying this?" or "what if they really think this..." I shouldn't have to feel like that with my friends. 'specially my "best friends". It's just ridiculous now...Someones always saying something wrong, someones always overreacting, doing something wrong, killing people, looking at you the wrong way, not cooking the noodles long enough...it's always SOMETHING. Even this its self will probably cause a rumble. I'll hear in a week, "this person said...when you said the thing about the noodles...you were a total dick...and way out of line"...fuck your noodles. IM SICK OF DRAMA.
I know this entry seemed like TOTALLY random...but, the past couple days or w/e...with all the crap "secretly" happening (seeing how NO ONE who talks behind my back can ACTUALLY say anything to my face) I just really started thinking about how JUST this year it's self has been with the drama...and it's been pretty damn bad...nothing WAY serious...but theres been drama with EVERYONE.
I can honestly say...right now everythings good. EXCEPT...most of my friendships. I think everyones just ready for Christmas break...I know I am..
Im tired...goodnight.