Fuck all of you ...
I don't use this on a regular basis. But since people feel the need to get pissed off at me for shit that has nothing to do with them I can either delete everything or I can just keep going and defy them. Maybe I will make it friends only or some shit. I dont know how to even make a post friends only nor do i care.
stalk me if you want. anyone who knows me knows i wont hold back anyhow. this is a place where i can type down some random shit, not have to worry about it, and vent hostility and anger when necessary. i will not go back and correct my posts when i feel better about things. and sometimes it may seem as though i am talking about you when in fact it has nothing to do with you. from now on i will specify who i am talking about as much as possible.
on another note. i hate women. they play games, fuck me over, lie, cheat, steal, bitch, whine, complain, and basically I want no more women in my life. i really dont give a shit right now. i am so pissed off its not even funny. it was more than clear to this girl that we were basically an item yet she felt the need to fuck some other guy. so hey, either im just not good enough, or women suck. i am going with women suck. which suprises me becuase usually i would say that i am defective in some way and that it was somehow my fauly but its not. she got drunk and fucked some guy and now she regrets it. she is all pissy and whiny and crying becuase i wont talk to her. and the crying thing usually gets me. usually i fuckin fall right into that but not this time. i decided that instead i will hate women. i give everyone the benefit of the doubt and trust them and never require anyone to do anything to deserve me. and that sounds wikked fucking stupid but you know what. its true. i am probably one of the nicest guys in the fucking world. i cant even list shit about myself. summed up though you can ask any girlfriend i have ever had ... i am what every girl dreams of. i have flaws everyone does. but i am literally everything any girl wants. name it and im probably it. unless you want a jackass that cheats on you and will treat you like shit. that is totally not my style. the problem is that for one reason or another no fucking girl gives a flying fuck that i am a nice guy. and the saying nice guys finish last is becoming more and more true by the day. i thought maybe this girl would be differant but no shes not, shes the same fucking thing. and girl #2 has no fucking interest what so ever in me. if she does she certainly has a funny fuckin way of showing it. and at this point unless she came right out with it and said 'hey, you, you are nice, date me?' i wont give a damn. chances of that happening ... 1 in about roughly 1,298.75
i hate society. i hate its superficiality. i hate its shallowness. i hate the violence and the crime. i just hate it all. i seriously want to just live on an uninhabited island.
my ex girlfriend owes me a lot of shit. she is an irresponsible cunt at this point. i have been way more than patient. she owes me over a grand, as well as all the shit that she essentially STOLE from me. and i just let it all slide. she is fucking some cocksucking brazillian peice of shit every day and i just sit here and let her drive my car, with my stereo system, and all the things she took from me. why... WHY I ASK YOU DO I ALLOW THIS TO HAPPEN!!! TELL ME!!!
I really want to die at the moment. it has been haunting me. to a scary degree lately. some things go great. others go bad. no matter which way i think i am going to seriously get nudged over the edge one day and go crazy. not in a good way either. i get told on an almost weekly basis since i was in high school that i should either be hitting the bottle hardcore, taking some serious drugs, or kill myself. maybe they are right. do all three in one day and then thatll be the end of it. fun times will be had by all. me saying this ... is disturbing ... i am very anti suicide. people who know me well enough know why. i will not go into detail here. that just like everything else hurt me in the end.
all i want is to be happy. someone tell me what to do. if you have suggestions ... now is the time. if you know whats wrong with me say it. if you know why i seem to be cursed with people that hurt me constantly then please speak the fuck up. where are my friends when i need them? who stuck up for me when jill cheated on me? who told her she was wrong? NO ONE! no one said a damn thing in my defense. no one corrected her. no one will put her in her place. no one will tell her what a horrible thing she did and that she should get fucking slapped around for it and deserves to go to hell for it. and no one calls me either, no one gives a flying fuck. not just about teh jill situation but about anything that happens in my life. i always seem to get the shit end of the stick with practically everything ... sometimes i wish someone would just simply tell me that they do care about me. sometimes i wish they would just simply come over and give me a hug. chances of that happening ... 1 in literally 70 (i have roughly 70 friends all in all) out of those 70 i talk to 5 right now. i am pretty sure im about to tell one of the 5 to go fuck themselves so then itll be down to 4. i fucking hate this ... goodnight ... hopefully i will just die ...
stalk me if you want. anyone who knows me knows i wont hold back anyhow. this is a place where i can type down some random shit, not have to worry about it, and vent hostility and anger when necessary. i will not go back and correct my posts when i feel better about things. and sometimes it may seem as though i am talking about you when in fact it has nothing to do with you. from now on i will specify who i am talking about as much as possible.
on another note. i hate women. they play games, fuck me over, lie, cheat, steal, bitch, whine, complain, and basically I want no more women in my life. i really dont give a shit right now. i am so pissed off its not even funny. it was more than clear to this girl that we were basically an item yet she felt the need to fuck some other guy. so hey, either im just not good enough, or women suck. i am going with women suck. which suprises me becuase usually i would say that i am defective in some way and that it was somehow my fauly but its not. she got drunk and fucked some guy and now she regrets it. she is all pissy and whiny and crying becuase i wont talk to her. and the crying thing usually gets me. usually i fuckin fall right into that but not this time. i decided that instead i will hate women. i give everyone the benefit of the doubt and trust them and never require anyone to do anything to deserve me. and that sounds wikked fucking stupid but you know what. its true. i am probably one of the nicest guys in the fucking world. i cant even list shit about myself. summed up though you can ask any girlfriend i have ever had ... i am what every girl dreams of. i have flaws everyone does. but i am literally everything any girl wants. name it and im probably it. unless you want a jackass that cheats on you and will treat you like shit. that is totally not my style. the problem is that for one reason or another no fucking girl gives a flying fuck that i am a nice guy. and the saying nice guys finish last is becoming more and more true by the day. i thought maybe this girl would be differant but no shes not, shes the same fucking thing. and girl #2 has no fucking interest what so ever in me. if she does she certainly has a funny fuckin way of showing it. and at this point unless she came right out with it and said 'hey, you, you are nice, date me?' i wont give a damn. chances of that happening ... 1 in about roughly 1,298.75
i hate society. i hate its superficiality. i hate its shallowness. i hate the violence and the crime. i just hate it all. i seriously want to just live on an uninhabited island.
my ex girlfriend owes me a lot of shit. she is an irresponsible cunt at this point. i have been way more than patient. she owes me over a grand, as well as all the shit that she essentially STOLE from me. and i just let it all slide. she is fucking some cocksucking brazillian peice of shit every day and i just sit here and let her drive my car, with my stereo system, and all the things she took from me. why... WHY I ASK YOU DO I ALLOW THIS TO HAPPEN!!! TELL ME!!!
I really want to die at the moment. it has been haunting me. to a scary degree lately. some things go great. others go bad. no matter which way i think i am going to seriously get nudged over the edge one day and go crazy. not in a good way either. i get told on an almost weekly basis since i was in high school that i should either be hitting the bottle hardcore, taking some serious drugs, or kill myself. maybe they are right. do all three in one day and then thatll be the end of it. fun times will be had by all. me saying this ... is disturbing ... i am very anti suicide. people who know me well enough know why. i will not go into detail here. that just like everything else hurt me in the end.
all i want is to be happy. someone tell me what to do. if you have suggestions ... now is the time. if you know whats wrong with me say it. if you know why i seem to be cursed with people that hurt me constantly then please speak the fuck up. where are my friends when i need them? who stuck up for me when jill cheated on me? who told her she was wrong? NO ONE! no one said a damn thing in my defense. no one corrected her. no one will put her in her place. no one will tell her what a horrible thing she did and that she should get fucking slapped around for it and deserves to go to hell for it. and no one calls me either, no one gives a flying fuck. not just about teh jill situation but about anything that happens in my life. i always seem to get the shit end of the stick with practically everything ... sometimes i wish someone would just simply tell me that they do care about me. sometimes i wish they would just simply come over and give me a hug. chances of that happening ... 1 in literally 70 (i have roughly 70 friends all in all) out of those 70 i talk to 5 right now. i am pretty sure im about to tell one of the 5 to go fuck themselves so then itll be down to 4. i fucking hate this ... goodnight ... hopefully i will just die ...