The good fight...
...still fighting it. It's weird, feeling everything the way it used to feel. I don't know if I'm psyching myself out or if I'm having withdrawals. It doesn't seem sane that I would be having the pains and headaches since I never did anything THAT much. Anyway, day..fuck, it's only day 3! Gods, it feels like it's been a lifetime. Ugh. Hatred.
No worries though. Whatever will be will be, you know the drill.
Girls are insane... as i've always noted, but my recent epiphany has me wondering if I'm even crazier than they are. Here's the skizzidy-scoop. So, I'm on the newspaper staff at the college. There are a few cute girls in there, and they all, uhm, fancy me. ("fancy" seemed classier than "want my cock" har) Anyway, one of them I was interested in when I first saw her. Now that she is kinda all about me... i can't make myself be interested like I was. Not only that, another girl (whom I never thought I would want any further than a friend) has got me all up in arms..because her mind is a rubik's cube and I can't keep myself from wanting to solve the puzzle. But, sticking to the simile, I suck at rubik's cubes, and thusly, cannot figure her out... I thought I was attracted to her because I like the chase... but i realised something in a dream last night.
Growing up I had a girl in my dreams, dream girl, as i so cleverly named her. She would just play with me and such and disappeared at around age 10 or so. Getting older she would be in my dream every so often, but very seldom could I see her face... Once I remember distinctly, she looked like a girl I had met at a party(very briefly). Rose. Ha. So I started hanging out with her, but idiot me can never gauge the girl's feelings, missed my chance. I don't know what it was about her... she was constantly swimming in my mind (which faded ever so slowly after I learned of her new boyfriend *cringe* /hatred)
Now we are at present time... I can't get this other girl out of me. I ate her! wait, no, I mean, I can't get her out of my mind. It's stupid. HATE HATE HATEHATHEATHAETHETHAETHAETHETHAHTHETHAEHAHTHAEHTEAHATE
no actions will take place, as I suck. rawr.
I dressed in a suit today. Maroon dress shirt, dark blue pinstripe 3-piece sex clothes. Mmm. Had to find a job (else ye be kicked out, scurvy pirate, arghhh) And find one I did. Let me remind you of HATE. yeah, hate is what I do to my new job. Well, I haven't gotten it yet, but it's almost a sure thing. I hate delivering pizza... but maybe I can start running drugs too! joking? perhaps. but I'm going to stop typing, as i need to stretch. w3rd up to ya mutha, and peace out homies.
m0x
No worries though. Whatever will be will be, you know the drill.
Girls are insane... as i've always noted, but my recent epiphany has me wondering if I'm even crazier than they are. Here's the skizzidy-scoop. So, I'm on the newspaper staff at the college. There are a few cute girls in there, and they all, uhm, fancy me. ("fancy" seemed classier than "want my cock" har) Anyway, one of them I was interested in when I first saw her. Now that she is kinda all about me... i can't make myself be interested like I was. Not only that, another girl (whom I never thought I would want any further than a friend) has got me all up in arms..because her mind is a rubik's cube and I can't keep myself from wanting to solve the puzzle. But, sticking to the simile, I suck at rubik's cubes, and thusly, cannot figure her out... I thought I was attracted to her because I like the chase... but i realised something in a dream last night.
Growing up I had a girl in my dreams, dream girl, as i so cleverly named her. She would just play with me and such and disappeared at around age 10 or so. Getting older she would be in my dream every so often, but very seldom could I see her face... Once I remember distinctly, she looked like a girl I had met at a party(very briefly). Rose. Ha. So I started hanging out with her, but idiot me can never gauge the girl's feelings, missed my chance. I don't know what it was about her... she was constantly swimming in my mind (which faded ever so slowly after I learned of her new boyfriend *cringe* /hatred)
Now we are at present time... I can't get this other girl out of me. I ate her! wait, no, I mean, I can't get her out of my mind. It's stupid. HATE HATE HATEHATHEATHAETHETHAETHAETHETHAHTHETHAEHAHTHAEHTEAHATE
no actions will take place, as I suck. rawr.
I dressed in a suit today. Maroon dress shirt, dark blue pinstripe 3-piece sex clothes. Mmm. Had to find a job (else ye be kicked out, scurvy pirate, arghhh) And find one I did. Let me remind you of HATE. yeah, hate is what I do to my new job. Well, I haven't gotten it yet, but it's almost a sure thing. I hate delivering pizza... but maybe I can start running drugs too! joking? perhaps. but I'm going to stop typing, as i need to stretch. w3rd up to ya mutha, and peace out homies.
m0x