Subjects I have been avoiding for some time now..
Ok here I go:
My life as a whole is 50/50, some things are good, some things are bad. I relize that I am neither a good person or a bad person. Im a little bit of both. Yes I do go out with my friends and hang out and have a good time, sometimes I go even when I dont want to just to make everyone else around me better, because I guess I make them happy. I tend to avoid vertain situations not to ruin my good or decent mood. Not to mention, I dont know if anyone knows this, I dont really like talking on the phone unless Its something important and/or intresting, and if anyone hasnt noticed if I call, its because A) I want to hang out B) I want to come over/you to come over or c)Its been a hella long time since Ive talked to you. Another things I dislike situations that make me feel strange. Thats why I tend not to go to malls with a large group of people, because when I go by myself or with 1 or 2 people. Nothing happens, I get in see what I wanted to see and leave. Like me talking to Kristin about Ben, and me talking Ben and vice versa, I admit I was being nost for no reason, and Im sorry I said things and became the middle man, so Im saying now that I dont want any part of it, and I dont care. Courtney: This is what is bugging me, I did like you, and still do, but only as a friend. I know I said some things, and thats because I was thinking about other things and not my heart. Therefor my emotions were all screwed up. Im sorry if I hurt you, I didnt mean to, and Im very sorry. Eamon, Eli, and Brian: Hmm Nothing wrong there atleast I dont think so. Ben: Dude your a great guy, and I understand on how it sucks on losing someone you care about ie girlfriends, but you have to get over it, and chances are when you do she'll start talking to you again. Snakeman forever. Kristin: You are awesome, zombies gore and everything I enjoy, you enhoy. And that just rules. But just like Ben, just need to throw the past away and not care. Im not telling you too, just my opinion. George Romero is our father. And I would like to say, that I dont need a relationship right now, I barely have time for myself, and it sucks. I miss this place because of all of you. Without you guys, I would be an empty shell of shit, waiting to explode. Fuck the Drama, fuck all the crap, enjoy each other company, and rock on.Other than that I think that is all what is bothering me. I HAVE to see Sonny's parents or his mom is going to rip my ass out with a fork, grill it and eat it as a midnight snack. Work is killing me, that is all I think about for some reason now, Im scared that Im going to go back, not knowing that I forgot something, and then I am in trouble. And it sucks. Yes I have problems.
There its all on a silver platter for your enjoyment. I fucked up in many ways, and failed some people. And Im not perfect just like everyone else.
Deal with it.
My life as a whole is 50/50, some things are good, some things are bad. I relize that I am neither a good person or a bad person. Im a little bit of both. Yes I do go out with my friends and hang out and have a good time, sometimes I go even when I dont want to just to make everyone else around me better, because I guess I make them happy. I tend to avoid vertain situations not to ruin my good or decent mood. Not to mention, I dont know if anyone knows this, I dont really like talking on the phone unless Its something important and/or intresting, and if anyone hasnt noticed if I call, its because A) I want to hang out B) I want to come over/you to come over or c)Its been a hella long time since Ive talked to you. Another things I dislike situations that make me feel strange. Thats why I tend not to go to malls with a large group of people, because when I go by myself or with 1 or 2 people. Nothing happens, I get in see what I wanted to see and leave. Like me talking to Kristin about Ben, and me talking Ben and vice versa, I admit I was being nost for no reason, and Im sorry I said things and became the middle man, so Im saying now that I dont want any part of it, and I dont care. Courtney: This is what is bugging me, I did like you, and still do, but only as a friend. I know I said some things, and thats because I was thinking about other things and not my heart. Therefor my emotions were all screwed up. Im sorry if I hurt you, I didnt mean to, and Im very sorry. Eamon, Eli, and Brian: Hmm Nothing wrong there atleast I dont think so. Ben: Dude your a great guy, and I understand on how it sucks on losing someone you care about ie girlfriends, but you have to get over it, and chances are when you do she'll start talking to you again. Snakeman forever. Kristin: You are awesome, zombies gore and everything I enjoy, you enhoy. And that just rules. But just like Ben, just need to throw the past away and not care. Im not telling you too, just my opinion. George Romero is our father. And I would like to say, that I dont need a relationship right now, I barely have time for myself, and it sucks. I miss this place because of all of you. Without you guys, I would be an empty shell of shit, waiting to explode. Fuck the Drama, fuck all the crap, enjoy each other company, and rock on.Other than that I think that is all what is bothering me. I HAVE to see Sonny's parents or his mom is going to rip my ass out with a fork, grill it and eat it as a midnight snack. Work is killing me, that is all I think about for some reason now, Im scared that Im going to go back, not knowing that I forgot something, and then I am in trouble. And it sucks. Yes I have problems.
There its all on a silver platter for your enjoyment. I fucked up in many ways, and failed some people. And Im not perfect just like everyone else.
Deal with it.