The SS
Hello everyone wow its been forever since iv been on here alot has happened since that long time ago i know that no one reads these things anymore which is mainly the reason i suppose that i am writing in here its a good place to vent without judgement. Iv been feeling sort of crappy latley i went to nicaragua again from june23 to aug10 thats a pretty long fucking time i of course had the time of my life like seriously ppl i dont know what it is about this country that makes me so happy im bored of living here...is that bad? i mean i love the united states i really do but im so tired of living here and living up to ppls expectations (mind you by ppl i mean my family) i want to go away im not a happy camper and i hate feeling like this. Not to mention the enormous confusion that has decided to camp out on my brain. Is it possible to love two ppl at the same time? i never thought that was possible. self analysing myself i have come to the conclusion that i love one of them but since society and my family will not accept that affair i am forced to find and love someone who will be more acceptable in case that you are confused ill be blunt i have a girlfriend who i love with all my heart and if i had the opportunity i would spend the rest of my life with her, i have a boyfriend whom i thought i was in love with and thought i wanted to spend the rest of my life with but now im not to sure the ethnic and moral differences are to great to ignore. what should i do this message doesnt even make sense im not making sense FUCK i wish i were stronger...